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Today is the start of a brand new life. My medicine arrived. A good friend commented that I should be on the stimulants for narcolepsy. I haven’t answered that comment along with so many others. I am finally off Adderall and on a medicine for narcolepsy. I am that level of bi-polar dependent on a whole lot of a rare anti-psychotic designed for PTSD. To combat the sedation I require medicine for narcolepsy. It costs 800 dollars a month. I had to beg the manufacturer to give me the medicine for free. I’m a very lucky woman to have good private mental health care. I have been basically… Read more

something is going on with xhamster my post are being deleted with no explanation. I have an illness which means I can't communicate like normal. I will be back… Read more

I don't know what is happening. I can't write a post explaining I ran out of medicine and I will go missing. I had a lot to say. Now all I can hope is this fucked up system will let me warn men I can't communicate until I get a refill… Read more

I just poured out my heart and soul. I can't understand what I did wrong but I posted it and I got hit with the message It was deleted and I'm not allowed to see it with no explanation. I just want men who try to contact me to know I ran out of my stimulant. I can't respond to comments or messages. I will keep it short and sweet. I will get a refill in a matter of weeks and keep fighting. Do not think you are being ignored. I have a disability which keeps me bed bound without a stimulant. I had so much to say and I was not allowed to post it. I simply give up. I give up on a lot of t… Read more

This is the second time I have have had to write this message. So many men reached out to me I was shocked. I owe them all an apology. I work hard to respond to each blog comment I receive. I even work hard to respond to comments on my page. The task of simply re-reading that message and telling men thank you for supporting me hurt to damn bad. I should have made it my number one priority. But I failed. I understand if men lost respect for me because I couldn't simply say thank you. I am a damn good woman who busts her ass to start each month focusing on the men who offer me kindnes… Read more

The next chapter. I planned to spend the evening chatting with a dear friend. When he went to sleep I was going to take on my favorite task. I love to write replies to comments. If you haven’t noticed yet I try damn hard to write a fierce reply to each one I receive. I’m way behind. I may end up replying to some twice. If you check for a reply to a comment you made it may shock you how much time and effort I invested to discuss what you mentioned. After writing so long on facebook I’m stunned by any feedback. It is such an honor that going above and beyond thank you will always be m… Read more

It's a long story to explain what happened with DocLowe. To make it quick I was a damn good friend. I gave him a world class education about the benefits of using the VA and improving his health. I educated him about his rights and exactly how to live a better life with the free healthcare he earned in the military. If you earned VA healthcare you are ignorant to pay for inferior medical care. I schooled him about the results of not taking proper care of his feet as a diabetic. I spent a long time telling him how to live a better and longer life filled with things he earned. He got cree… Read more

This is a real blog. This isn't about sex or erotica. This is personal. This is going to be long. I am a writer and an artist. I am a totally unique woman. If you contact me in an honest attempt to find out who i am this is something worth reading. I haven't been on xhamster long. In some ways this forum has changed my life. In around one hundred days I have been a whirlwind of good amateur porn because I love doing it. I have met men all over the world and it shifted my own perception of beauty. This is a porn site. Most men just want to have a good time. Then there are men lookin… Read more

if you have read my blogs or chatted with me you understand my absence. being bi-polar and dependant on adderall comes with a price. each month i haave two totally active periods of great communication. then i run out of medicine. I have been asleep for an unknown period of days. I have missed great comments and feedback. Slowly as i detox off of adderall I will be able to function more. in a few days i will be able to reply to comments and be slightly normal. Right before i ran out of medicine i took a break from skype. many men have added me and i have not accepted the invite. it'… Read more

It has been an intense night for me. But first I have an announcement LITTLEWANKER NO LONGER CONTROLS MY ASSHOLE that was cathartic just to write. I do engage in role-playing. I'm very fond of the master/slave game. I am submissive and it feels natural to allow and enjoy a man who is dominating me. I just had a weakling come forward to play the game. So all my holes are fair game. In all actuality even though my status said he controlled my asshole it was a lie. Even though I am submissive you do not own my asshole overnight. Just to engage him in a nice bout of role playing I had a fu… Read more

Im new at this. I did tonight's round of letter fucking. I posted it as a story. It has to go through moderation and I am impatient. I prefer it to be more of a blog post. At the same time it is my first real story so I don't care if I edit twice and it shows up in another section. I don't know how the system works. A good friend wanted a story about fucking in a lingerie store. I will get better at writing stories. I just don't know whether I will post them as blogs or as sex stories. We were both stunned when the gallery in New York suddenly began selling my work for such a large… Read more

I started a new hobby. one man made a comment that he wanted to letter fuck me. I like the term. Last night I made the offer to a few men. The previous post was round one of letter fucking. When i offered littlewanker the chance to try it he jumped for it. I'm hoping other men do the same. The game is simple. You should start in a comment on this post or on my page comment section. you can post it in a pm to hide your identity. That is totally acceptable. At the same time because I focus on comments and I'm slammed by pm's I could miss it or take days to find it. That is why i recom… Read more

Anonymous: I blindfolded you and tied you up on all four bedpost of your bed…..mmmm..you are wearing what I like…black skirt, black stockings, the black boots and a white blouse….I can see the nipples of your tits trying to break the fabric of your blouse….yes you are horny slut and I know what you want….you can hear that I am taking off my shirt, the zipper of Jeans and when I pull it down….I grab my hard cock and let the tip of it slide over the lips of your mouth….yes use the tip of your tongue to lick it….mmmm…you are my horny whore now….I want to see your tits and my hands are grabbing yo… Read more

I'm about to crash hard. I hit a manic state and focused on writing. That mean's i missed all pm's and skype messages. if im playing on skype i ignore xhamster. If im playing on xhamster i ignore skype. When I'm in the mood to write I drop everything and do it. Today I spent most of the afternoon posting my last blog on facebook. I don't get feedback there. I wrote such long post people ignored anything I wrote. I can kill time or I can steal it. I made a few decisions. If I get a blog comment I will guarantee a man or woman a response even if it's as simple as thank you. Since I have… Read more

Dear michael, thank you for such a great message. I love making new friends. My videos are poor quality. I can't overemphasize how much my recorder program sucks. It lags so bad I have to get naked quick and in silence. Even though they suck I'm still glad I posted them. I really only have face pics. I have always thought it looked tacky to hold a cell phone in front of a mirror for a full body pic. I think it looks so juvenile and almost vain. At the same time I know that this is a porn site. I did get plenty of attention when I was a paragraph explaining why I couldn't go nude and fifteen pi… Read more

anonymous4:I have showed my best friend your profile, and have expressed how much I wishu were in Alabama. Its no secret that we would both love having you as our own, maybe even at the same time. So how would you handle having 2 black men in the same room with you. Both stroking at just the sight of your beautiful body, yearning to taste you, fuck you. Please you. I must know. I have so many fantasies about you, this is one of many. me: as you learn more about my fantasies you will find out ive always wanted to be owned by two best friends or brothers. I also adore black men. for part of… Read more

anonymous3:i know i would enjoy tasting your pussy.i would pin your legs behind your head and just bury my face in your pussy sucking on your clit and fingering your asshole at the same time,then spread your ass and start licking your asshole then back to your pussy. then spit on your asshole so i can slide my cock in better then just pound your ass and keep pounding it till i fill your ass full of cum.then id make you push all of it out of your ass and i would rub it all over your pussy and ass make you look like a mess....question do you squirt? if you do i would have you squirt in my face i… Read more

I wrote my definition of a long blog. It made me laugh, it made me cry, it made me angry. My computer shut down before I could post it. From now on I will write on Microsoft word to keep that from ever happening again. I did tell the stories of the men I fell in love with from this site. It is real love. I do have a few good men that I know I can count on. But I have to claim defeat. I am going to eliminate nearly every man on my skype list. For the most part they only contact me in hopes of getting c2c. Last night I played the game. I am very sexual. But before I get sexual I need… Read more

I just had a new good friend commment that my blog was too long. It hurt. What people don't realize is that these are truly short blogs in my world. This is me keeping it short. There is a method to my madness. My good friend also warned me to be weary of men from certain countries who dont know how to treat women. They don't mess with me. A lot of men don't. I have an exceptionally long profile for a reason. Men just chasing sex tend not to read essays. My profile is a short essay and a free pass from being overwhelmed with evil men who just request c2c. To scare away more men I do… Read more

last night i letter ****d my male best friend. i am hoping he will help me launch my career as an artist. my ambition has changed. I was just going to chase florida galleries with a small portfolio of twelve gallery worthy custom framed collages i could either make into limited editions or sell unlimited for life. Last night I decided to shoot for the moon. I got a lot of great feedback when i posted my second gallery of artwork here on xhamster. One man in particular that my best pieces were some of my doodles and less commercial pieces. I had another good friend listen to me talk about l… Read more