Real blog 'cam sex marathon'
I just had a new good friend commment that my blog was too long. It hurt. What people don't realize is that these are truly short blogs in my world. This is me keeping it short. There is a method to my madness. My good friend also warned me to be weary of men from certain countries who dont know how to treat women. They don't mess with me. A lot of men don't. I have an exceptionally long profile for a reason. Men just chasing sex tend not to read essays. My profile is a short essay and a free pass from being overwhelmed with evil men who just request c2c. To scare away more men I do threaten and act as though there may be a fee involved. I have not earned a dime as a cam girl. I haven't really tried. To make it as an artist and print my work I may have to. If i do I will charge on chatterbate and cam4. My goal is now to keep xhamster as a free zone for pleasure and friendship.
If you've seen me perform live you may have heard me laugh at other girls who do cam sex focusing on money. I'm the real deal. I provide pleasure free because I love to perform. I genuinely adore making men cum. Some bitches love to knit and do crossword puzzles. I would rather see a man's face when he cums. You can see the euphoria in his eyes. In my early teen years I focused on not making men cum. In my twenties I was nearly asexual. I'm thirty two. It is very true that a woman hits the peak of her sex drive in her thirties. My life will always be far from normal. I can't have c***dren. I'm not burdened with a family. I can give away pleasure and embrace my sexuality. I'm not setting a role model for c***dren. My friend warned me not to get too personal on my blog. What he doesn't understand is that I have nothing to lose. I will never be able to work. I will always be an artist and a writer. Success in either field is a dream. If dreams don't come true then I will still take pleasure in the company of good men and women.
Tonight was a strange adventure. I chose to take the chance of camming with a stranger despite my computer shutting down. I have to admit I made my decision to chat based on a picture of him I saw when I added him to facebook. He was adorable and exotic. I wanted to meet him. We discussed our interests. Sometimes I meet a man who earns my sexuality in less than an hour. It's all about chemistry and gut instinct. It's about charm and charisma. Instead of having cam sex we simply just got naked and appreciated each other. There was no pressure to perform. He simply just enjoyed seeing me naked and listening to me talk. That's sex appeal to me. His internet went down and we were suddenly disconnected.
I was turned on and naked. I rarely do what I did last night. Most of the time i keep things strictly about good conversation. Tonight was different. I started at the top of my skype list and my xhamster list with an open invitation to see me nude if you understood my situation. I just started my period. I don't offer full cam sex when I'm bleeding. I don't bleed every month. When I do have a period it could last a month. I swear I bled all summer. It has something to do with adderall. My mom researched it. It causes bleeding. The last time I had it happen some men wanted cam sex despite my bloody mess. I decided I don't like to provide them that experience for one simple reason. I even mentioned it in my message. I can't stand playing with a bloody pussy because I get blood under my fingernails and it drives me crazy.
What I offered the men at the top of the list was the chance to see me live and nude. I let them know I didn't plan to perform. They were free to masturbate. I let them know one dude was able to cum in under three minutes. I warned men I would only cam for five to ten minutes. Of course I am the chick who can't get laid. You would be surprised how many men said maybe next time or didn't respond. I was pretty clear this was totally not a normal offer. I usually only cam for men i know well and trust. It was hilarious. It was a sex marathon. I love this one asian boy. I swear he has good timing. He doesn't particularly turn me on. He just happens to always get a free pass and cam sex when I feel sexual. He jumped at my offer before he could read the whole message. He was ideal. He cam hard and fast. It was ironic because I just gave him a lecture about only contacting me hoping for c2c. He apologized and approached me with conversation and honesty. For some reason I just turn him on and he can't help himself from masturbating. I gave him bonus points for contacting me in a non sexual matter to ask how i was doing. It was a delight to reward him for being polite with a good show.
As a cam girl I have one request. Don't be that asshole prolonging yourself from having an orgasm. I meet men who brag about how long it takes them to cum. One old dude I already didn't like had a term for it called 'edging' that's fine and dandy if your watching porn or paying me. I cut him off when I realized he intended to work me for hours. I hit invisible and blocked him. The other day I bonded with a man who is sexy. He was trying to masturbate and work at the same time. For the love of God that is rude. I understand he had a small business to run. But damn does it suck to be trying to make a man cum when he stops every three minutes to look at a different computer. Irony meant he contacted me and I hit him with my offer for a quick show. He didn't even respond. I was actually grateful. Then a new friend contacted me. We had an argument last night because he pressed me to cam. I knew he wasn't after sex. He wanted conversation. I tried to explain my computer wouldn't let me skype. Finally I decided I would try just to meet someone new that engages me intellectually. My computer shut down and took twenty minutes to restart. I wrote him a hateful little message that i felt like a moron for doing something to my computer I knew would make it break just to start a friendship.
He contacted me and I was nervous at first. Then I let him read my copy and paste message. I realized it was stupid not to offer someone I liked an equal chance like complete strangers. I was afraid he would think it was a slut move and disrespect me. He told me it wasn't to forward or slutty at all. I explained how many men declined the free pass. I let him know I wanted to engage him in conversation. At the same time it's a hot night in florida and I was not putting my clothes back on. We must have talked for hours. He is no male model. But looks aren't important. I'm starting to enjoy conversations with much older men. I'm starting to reject eighteen or nineteen year old boys. I would rather chat with a man in his fifties or sixties than some k** who has no life experiences worth sharing. My new friend was wonderful. He didn't need to masturbate. It was no big deal that I was naked.
He gave me major compliments. He knows about women. He immediately admired me for my curves. He expressed disdain for women who are really skinny. I've heard a lot of men bitch about the pain factor of fucking a girl with hip bones grinding against them. I'm shocked he was an american. Most americans truly think I would only be hot if I lost twenty pounds. He gave me a huge ego boost. We had similar opinions about beauty. I truly am all natural. You don't want to hear me rant about how stupid it is for women to wear make-up. Refusing to wear that shit anymore has made me look so much younger. Caking on clog filling grease in your face causes wrinkles. Eye make-up is the worst. The weight of it on your eyes and lashes decreases elasticity in delicate tissue. Scrubbing it off increases the damage. You end up with crows feet and under eye circles. You can't pay me to wear mascara. I don't get why chicks fixate on it. It gets in my damn eyes and all over my face. Nothing looks trashier than eyelashes clumped together. I've talked to a lot of men. Women need to start asking questions. Men generally hate make up.
As a mature man he noticed my best attributes. I am blessed. My belly is different. It does look like a pregnancy. It does not sag over my pussy. It is not rolls of flesh. I swear it's just like being a female buddha. Most of all I lucked out. I did have a huge belly and I shrunk it quickly. At the same time I didn't get stretch marks. My tits grew so fast they should have stretch marks. They don't. I also got lucky because I don't have cellulite. I do have a small ass. It's pretty damn cute. I had no clue I had a nice ass until men told me they adored it. I told my new friend what I tell every man. My weight may keep dropping because I stopped eating processed foods and garbage. I may lose part of my sex appeal on accident. I had two men last night tell me my size and shape was perfect. Happiness is knowing that even though women strive to be a zero most men like a twelve.
That was how I ended my game of sexual roulette. After his call my computer started to shut down again. Sexy time was over. I ripped off my wig and sat here naked all morning answering messages. Now I'm going to briefly cover what it is I'm looking for on xhamster. Men keep asking and it's time to respond.
If you've seen me perform live you may have heard me laugh at other girls who do cam sex focusing on money. I'm the real deal. I provide pleasure free because I love to perform. I genuinely adore making men cum. Some bitches love to knit and do crossword puzzles. I would rather see a man's face when he cums. You can see the euphoria in his eyes. In my early teen years I focused on not making men cum. In my twenties I was nearly asexual. I'm thirty two. It is very true that a woman hits the peak of her sex drive in her thirties. My life will always be far from normal. I can't have c***dren. I'm not burdened with a family. I can give away pleasure and embrace my sexuality. I'm not setting a role model for c***dren. My friend warned me not to get too personal on my blog. What he doesn't understand is that I have nothing to lose. I will never be able to work. I will always be an artist and a writer. Success in either field is a dream. If dreams don't come true then I will still take pleasure in the company of good men and women.
Tonight was a strange adventure. I chose to take the chance of camming with a stranger despite my computer shutting down. I have to admit I made my decision to chat based on a picture of him I saw when I added him to facebook. He was adorable and exotic. I wanted to meet him. We discussed our interests. Sometimes I meet a man who earns my sexuality in less than an hour. It's all about chemistry and gut instinct. It's about charm and charisma. Instead of having cam sex we simply just got naked and appreciated each other. There was no pressure to perform. He simply just enjoyed seeing me naked and listening to me talk. That's sex appeal to me. His internet went down and we were suddenly disconnected.
I was turned on and naked. I rarely do what I did last night. Most of the time i keep things strictly about good conversation. Tonight was different. I started at the top of my skype list and my xhamster list with an open invitation to see me nude if you understood my situation. I just started my period. I don't offer full cam sex when I'm bleeding. I don't bleed every month. When I do have a period it could last a month. I swear I bled all summer. It has something to do with adderall. My mom researched it. It causes bleeding. The last time I had it happen some men wanted cam sex despite my bloody mess. I decided I don't like to provide them that experience for one simple reason. I even mentioned it in my message. I can't stand playing with a bloody pussy because I get blood under my fingernails and it drives me crazy.
What I offered the men at the top of the list was the chance to see me live and nude. I let them know I didn't plan to perform. They were free to masturbate. I let them know one dude was able to cum in under three minutes. I warned men I would only cam for five to ten minutes. Of course I am the chick who can't get laid. You would be surprised how many men said maybe next time or didn't respond. I was pretty clear this was totally not a normal offer. I usually only cam for men i know well and trust. It was hilarious. It was a sex marathon. I love this one asian boy. I swear he has good timing. He doesn't particularly turn me on. He just happens to always get a free pass and cam sex when I feel sexual. He jumped at my offer before he could read the whole message. He was ideal. He cam hard and fast. It was ironic because I just gave him a lecture about only contacting me hoping for c2c. He apologized and approached me with conversation and honesty. For some reason I just turn him on and he can't help himself from masturbating. I gave him bonus points for contacting me in a non sexual matter to ask how i was doing. It was a delight to reward him for being polite with a good show.
As a cam girl I have one request. Don't be that asshole prolonging yourself from having an orgasm. I meet men who brag about how long it takes them to cum. One old dude I already didn't like had a term for it called 'edging' that's fine and dandy if your watching porn or paying me. I cut him off when I realized he intended to work me for hours. I hit invisible and blocked him. The other day I bonded with a man who is sexy. He was trying to masturbate and work at the same time. For the love of God that is rude. I understand he had a small business to run. But damn does it suck to be trying to make a man cum when he stops every three minutes to look at a different computer. Irony meant he contacted me and I hit him with my offer for a quick show. He didn't even respond. I was actually grateful. Then a new friend contacted me. We had an argument last night because he pressed me to cam. I knew he wasn't after sex. He wanted conversation. I tried to explain my computer wouldn't let me skype. Finally I decided I would try just to meet someone new that engages me intellectually. My computer shut down and took twenty minutes to restart. I wrote him a hateful little message that i felt like a moron for doing something to my computer I knew would make it break just to start a friendship.
He contacted me and I was nervous at first. Then I let him read my copy and paste message. I realized it was stupid not to offer someone I liked an equal chance like complete strangers. I was afraid he would think it was a slut move and disrespect me. He told me it wasn't to forward or slutty at all. I explained how many men declined the free pass. I let him know I wanted to engage him in conversation. At the same time it's a hot night in florida and I was not putting my clothes back on. We must have talked for hours. He is no male model. But looks aren't important. I'm starting to enjoy conversations with much older men. I'm starting to reject eighteen or nineteen year old boys. I would rather chat with a man in his fifties or sixties than some k** who has no life experiences worth sharing. My new friend was wonderful. He didn't need to masturbate. It was no big deal that I was naked.
He gave me major compliments. He knows about women. He immediately admired me for my curves. He expressed disdain for women who are really skinny. I've heard a lot of men bitch about the pain factor of fucking a girl with hip bones grinding against them. I'm shocked he was an american. Most americans truly think I would only be hot if I lost twenty pounds. He gave me a huge ego boost. We had similar opinions about beauty. I truly am all natural. You don't want to hear me rant about how stupid it is for women to wear make-up. Refusing to wear that shit anymore has made me look so much younger. Caking on clog filling grease in your face causes wrinkles. Eye make-up is the worst. The weight of it on your eyes and lashes decreases elasticity in delicate tissue. Scrubbing it off increases the damage. You end up with crows feet and under eye circles. You can't pay me to wear mascara. I don't get why chicks fixate on it. It gets in my damn eyes and all over my face. Nothing looks trashier than eyelashes clumped together. I've talked to a lot of men. Women need to start asking questions. Men generally hate make up.
As a mature man he noticed my best attributes. I am blessed. My belly is different. It does look like a pregnancy. It does not sag over my pussy. It is not rolls of flesh. I swear it's just like being a female buddha. Most of all I lucked out. I did have a huge belly and I shrunk it quickly. At the same time I didn't get stretch marks. My tits grew so fast they should have stretch marks. They don't. I also got lucky because I don't have cellulite. I do have a small ass. It's pretty damn cute. I had no clue I had a nice ass until men told me they adored it. I told my new friend what I tell every man. My weight may keep dropping because I stopped eating processed foods and garbage. I may lose part of my sex appeal on accident. I had two men last night tell me my size and shape was perfect. Happiness is knowing that even though women strive to be a zero most men like a twelve.
That was how I ended my game of sexual roulette. After his call my computer started to shut down again. Sexy time was over. I ripped off my wig and sat here naked all morning answering messages. Now I'm going to briefly cover what it is I'm looking for on xhamster. Men keep asking and it's time to respond.
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