Real blog. why ive gone missing

if you have read my blogs or chatted with me you understand my absence. being bi-polar and dependant on adderall comes with a price. each month i haave two totally active periods of great communication. then i run out of medicine. I have been asleep for an unknown period of days. I have missed great comments and feedback. Slowly as i detox off of adderall I will be able to function more. in a few days i will be able to reply to comments and be slightly normal. Right before i ran out of medicine i took a break from skype. many men have added me and i have not accepted the invite. it's not because im rude. i simply cant communicate right now. many men will dismiss me as an unreliable flavor of the week. Some men will stick around and be understanding. this blog gives me a place to warn men of my absence and assure them i will be back. it just takes time for me to go from sleeping all day and night into a pace of sleeping just the majority of my time.

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10 years ago

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

Yeah I have the extreme side of bi-polar possibilities. Most people live totally normal lives. I inherited a double dose. On my mothers side of the family my grandfather was adopted when his mother was put in an insane asylum. She is the source of my defect. Without modern medicine I would've killed myself or confined to an asylum very young. Both my mom's brother and sister are dead from suicide. It does has it's bonuses. My uncle was one of the top financial consultants in the world. He was beyond a multi-milionaire before the economy crashed. He went broke and blew his brains out. He taught me to hide the illness. I choose to teach others what it has to offer. My uncle trained me how to exploit mania and to just accept not sleeping nightly. I don't need to sleep every night. I was drugging myself for no reason. I can be like him and work through the night and accomplish more than a normal person can do because they require sleep. My goal is not to blow my brains out. My goal is also to use this illness to become a multi-millionaire. I'm determined to buy a better yacht than that motherfucker. He was selfish with his money. He could've done so much for us. Instead he blew it on bullshit like buying the historic district of my town. He couldn't loan my parents five grand to keep there business afloat. He was evil. karma is a bitch. all he gave my family was five hundred bucks. Me and my mother repay our debts. He died without money for a tombstone. it cost us five hundred bucks to buy him the cheapest one available. karma. But I do have a brain that could make me millions if i work hard and get lucky. I will just use my fortune to help people.

messystu 10 years ago

to linmarris : I am sending you some ((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))) and lots of love xx

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to justperving : there is a long copy and paste message i left for everyone who said nice things to me when i went missing. it explains a lot. it's on my post if you care to read it. you can't miss it I posted it ten times

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there is a long copy and paste message i wrote for all the men who said something nice to me when i was missing. it explains a lot. I can't post it anymore. you can't miss it on my post i pasted it ten times.

linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

there is a long copy and paste message I wrote for all the men kind enough to say something sweet to me when I went missing. It explains a lot I can't post it any more but you can't miss it I posted it at least ten times.

linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to rob398 : there is a long copy and paste message i wrote for all men kind enough to say something sweet to me about going missing. I can't repost it anymore because of encaptcha codes. It is there if you care to read it. you cant miss it i posted it over and over.

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to dfrisella69 : there is a long copy and paste message written for all the men who were so kind to me when i was missing. i cant post it any more because of encaptcha codes. but it's on my post if you care to read it.

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to davehot853 : there is a long copy and post reply to all men who wished me well while I was gone that I would love for you to read. i can't post it any more because of encaptcha codes.

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to sorin21 : there is a long copy and paste message repeated over and over i would love for you to read on the post you commented on. I can't send it any more because of encaptha codes.

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to FunkyChicken209 : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men. my sweet souldog this does not apply to you. but just in case it covers a topic i haven't addressed I'm sending it just in case

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to Dongelidong : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men. my dear this doesn't apply to you magnus. but just in case it touches on something i didn't mention in a blog i wrote you I'm sending it anyway. thank you for reading the post about a blue dress.

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to messystu : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men. messystu this doesnt apply to you because just like a great friend you read my work as soon as i posted it and left me such a sweet message. but i wanted to cover other issues in case i hadn't mentioned them to you through a blog

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to bigarthur : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

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to dopers123 : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to DimitriosSrt : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

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to 0_Notsantaclaus_0 : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men. my dear i know this doesn't apply to you because you chose to read my story. but i wanted to hit these issues and you will get a personal reply to future comments.

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to u4eeaaaah : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

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to DimJandy : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men. jimdandy i know you don't need a copy and paste explanation. and to answer your question I am way not a normal bi-polar situation. It is not usual for a bi=polar person to get adderall. Most bi-polar people achieve sleep through xanax or ambian. That is typical. I am abnormal. I can take a deadly cocktail of xanax, ambian, four other downers, nyquil and alcohol and not have real sleep. I depend on an anti-psychotic to sleep. That is highly abnormal. I also require a unique kind. The cheap shit won't work for me. I also require a dose four times greater than a normal person taking the drug. Because it's so sedating I have to have adderall to wake up. I wasn't prescribed an adequate amount. I just got switched to medicine to combat narcolepsy. I will tell you baby I had to fight damn hard to get it.

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to divedog1960 : I got so many comments from this post that it forces me to answer them with a copy and paste response. please do not be offended. I am flattered 38 men gave a shit about me to send me a comment. due to my medical conditions and personal issues I was not able to maintain correspondence for a long time. I am on a mission to reply to each comment I received. I am also explaining how I've changed. While I was gone the harsh reality hit that I have to be a camgirl and do it quickly. I decided to do something important first. I decided to tell my story. I know men will lose respect for me once I am just another chick mixing sex with money. By telling my story I am making it possible for men to understand what I'm doing, why it is happening and who I am. I had to basically beg men to comment. Most refused. I will delete my old skype ID as a result. You can read all about the responses I received. Let's face it. This is a porn site. Men want sex not a girl's life history. It doesn't matter. I am writing this for me. I need to build up my own self-esteem. I hit chapter three and only eleven people left me a comment. It is to long and intense. Men can't handle it. The comments I receive are pretty damn weak. If you cared enough about me to hope I returned there is a chance you will appreciate finding out my secrets. If you only care about me sexually then soon I will be posting nude pics and doing live broadcasts. I will resume writing erotica. I understand if you wait until you see me live, naked and writing about sex to leave more feedback. There will be a blog that clearly states BACK TO SEX. However I will only truly respect men who take on my personal blogs. My profile has changed. I declare the reward for being a man who can read about who I am and leave great feedback. I do link writing with sexuality. I know in most ways this message will fail. Experience has taught me asking a man to read something and comment is rejected. Men don't realize I explain why I am so damn sexy, deviant, defiant, strong, and entertaining. I give you the story. Some men don't like to comment publically. If you do want to tell me something about my blog in a pm all you have to do is tell me to check my pm box. It is full. I have to know to look for your message. In the future I promise no more copy and paste responses. However, I want to engage each of you in trying to find out who I am and say a few things that give me encouragement. I need support. I will also need good men who watch me go live, give me advice, ideas and honest opinions. I can only ask you to try reading me and see if we click. My most recent post is about a blue dress. In many ways just reading and commenting there will help me more than you realize. But it's actually entertaining to read part one, then chapter two which is about responses and chapter three that talks about a dress and what fucked up my whole damn opinion of men.

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divedog1960 10 years ago

take care and get to us as you feel up to it..

rebz10 10 years ago

i hope things go well. take care always Linda.

littlewanker 10 years ago

Can you send me some of that stuff you are taking????.......

Adderall? Isn't that kinda off-label for bi-polar? What else do you take that knocks you out without the amphetamines?

u4eeaaaah 10 years ago

i'm glad you're diving into your passion ...the arts ... very therapeutic ... i miss you but understand ... be well

0_Notsantaclaus_0 10 years ago

when it comes to personal health you have the right to be a little egotistict until all is normal

DimitriosSrt 10 years ago

Get better and take your time. Your friends support you here lots of love ♥♥

dopers123 10 years ago

that kind of explains the other night >:D< great blogs all the time

bigarthur 10 years ago

I understand and wish you all the best.