A Loner Who Cums To BBC

I know people don't like personal life stories on here, but, I have only had sex 9 times with the same person, over a 6 month period at age 34, so I have been starved of sex.
Obviously, cumming to nature's blessed won't change my life, but it gives me relief, I know that black people have the biggest penises on average, they have the biggest horse dicks.
Certain people can judge me for it, and I'm certainly not perfect, with a slowly expanding waistline (now a 42 inch lol) and a weakness to porn, I keep cumming to keep the peace.

The main reasons I keep relapsing to porn, aside from just how big some black dicks are......

https://xhamster.com/posts/10552644

https://xhamster.com/posts/10553067

https://xhamster.com/posts/10550151

I have a normal 6 inch penis, but like most men (this isn't insecurity, this is fact) I would prefer a bigger penis, because the majority of women DO prefer big penises.
My life would be that bit more satisfying if I had a monster sized penis, but at least I can keep cumming to huge ones, no wonder dogfart and blacked are doing so well...
And to think, I used to help porn addicts and even exposed porn, but as I found out they were relapsing, I knew to stop struggling against the tide.