About

I cannot give penetration because my penis is too small and I'm locked in chastity. I am also almost 100% gay and only get turned on sexually when I see a naked man and worship him.

I do love women in a much more emotional and romantic way. I still see myself with a woman in my future, I just need a little help to make her happy with something that I am incapable of. And I'm also too much of a slut and feel I don't deserve to have a woman sexually. Maybe getting to worship her bare feet once in a blue moon as a prize for my obedience. Ultimately, however, I feel I'm not good enough and not worthy enough to please a woman physically and I've either brainwashed myself to accept it or it's true.

Pussy is forever off limits and I want to remain pussy free for the rest of my life. This includes fucking, licking, touching, smelling (directly) and even seeing (at discretion). It's not that I find it unattractive or that I find women not beautiful, I do very much but I don't deserve that sexually. So I've accepted to completely, and continuing to reinforce this in my mind daily, that pussy is something I do not want at all and starting to find it sexually grotesque. Boobs are something I also would want off limits sexually and even touching and seeing, in general, would be none or rare at discretion. Basically worshipping a woman's body sexually is off limits, not romantically of course with a few boundaries. Feet, however, are at the discretion of the woman.