Posts2

I hate this life. I have one hope that I can somehow create enough good karma for the next life. God hates me in this one. My only hope is probably my true purpose because everything I've ever loved and every good thing I do in this one just disappears disrespects the principal's that keep me on the earth and work to make this one a living walking talking breathing hell. I bought a elephant from tibet it's supposed to remove blockages and bring new beginnings into my world. Nothing yet just as stupid as being honest, being judged or having an opinion. But don't get my feelings are hurt. I know… Read more

My addiction looks like a dog's red rocket. Imagine a booger yao ming. I can locate the burning in my trachea. The fracture on my solar plexus, the broom handel sticking in the right side of my neck. I labeled these emotional Heartache. I feel Angry, homicidal anxious, energetic focused all of it in an instant. It's not euphoria or manic. It doesn't feel like a reward to my pleasure center or a warning from my nervous system. It is planning out 30, 365, 5, years today tomorrow and next week There addiction is denial. There motto is. He can't, but I can, and I will because I can.… Read more