About the pictures.

I did it. I tackled the ability to take snapshots of myself. I can get away with so many pics because I truly am just a chick that loves seeing how I change do to hair color. All my pics are standard tit and face shots. I'm taking these pictures myself. I have to have both hands on the keyboard to take a picture. That explains my lack of movement. I am still looking for someone to photograph me nude. I am working on getting a chick to do it but I need a digital camera first. The goal will be to take these pictures and feature them in my art. It's a no brainer. I already use nude women in my art. Using myself is just the artistic process.

I can't believe I got these pics tonight. My morning was rough. I had an appointment with the lawyer for my disability case. I think I terrified a paralegal. She was giving me lip about my level of incapacitation. I ripped off the wig and the look on her face was priceless. I do look deranged without a wig. It's intentional. I have a receding hair line. It just fell out. In true crazy girl fashion I cut it off. It is totally horrific. So my world is this weird blend of ugly and beauty and I like it that way.

It's been a rough patch. I got rear ended hard in my mom's car. I got knocked into traffic and I had a panic attack. I just drove home. I probably made the man who hit me cream his pants when I didn't follow him or haul ass towards him. He drove one way and I went home. We have no car insurance and I busted up my mom's prize possession. She spiraled out of control. She attempted suicide. She ate all my xanax and maybe some of my anti-psychotic. I can't believe she lived. In two days she wiped out 50 xanax bsrs. She got out the phone book and looked for a cheap cremation.

I'm going to sell my ford escape tomorrow. I want to cry just thinking about it. At the same time I'm going to use so much money towards building up an art collection to sell. I don't feel like writing but I will point out something funny. I posted one pic of my back. Beside me you can see the mangled air vent that ate my leg. by the way tell me if you like me better with strawberry blonde hair, red hair or brown hair.