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I'll be back as soon as possible

The confrontation last night did something to my brain. I can't wake up. I tried to beat it with enough narcolepsy medicine to tweak out a trailer park usually loaded on meth. I still can't function. It is a deep heartache and intense feelings of despair. I know I'm way behind answering comments on my blog and my page. My pm box is full of messages good and bad. I will tackle them tomorrow when hopefully I can wake-up. It could take me days to snap out of it. Please be patient with me I will return as soon as possible. I will be my normal bubbly self. It just takes time.

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10 years ago

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

that is what makes me so strange. i'm actually not narcoleptic though i was tested and formerly diagnosed with the illness. years ago i hit a depression so intense nothing could wake me. that was the first time i required narcolepsy medicine. Years later I was finally diagnosed bi-polar. I have a rare form of the disorder. most people can sleep with xanax, ambien, trazadone, tylenol pm, and three or four other sleep inducing anti-depressants. I can't. I was on a lethal cocktail of all those drugs and still not sleeping. I had no choice but to take an anti-psychotic. My medicine is brand new. It was designed for veterans with PTSD. It dissolves under your tongue and knocks you out in around ten minutes with no dreaming. The problem with taking an anti-psychotic is you wake up so sedated you can't function. I was prescribed a shitload of adderall. I was still not able to cope. I fought hard to get the narcolepsy medicine free from the manufacturer. I am still screwed because I need twenty mg of my anti-psychotic to sleep. That is such a high dose I am not prescribed enough narcolepsy medicine to cope. I choose to take all the medicine I need for one month of mania and I live through two months of sedation. That is why my responses and writing is so unprodictable

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to wolfrider2121 : I'm so sleepy I hate to send you a copy and paste message but I have to warn all my male friends what may already be happening. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to snake_500011 : In another comment I warned you what was going on. I'm so sleepy but I must warn as many friends as possible. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to hornycummer207 : I am so sorry to do this to you because you are an unfamiliar face and I like to bond with new people in an intimate message after they leave me a comment. But I am so sleepy I have to send you a copy and paste message in order to warn as many friends as possible. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to fulltimeflirt : dear mark I am so sorry to do this to you but I am so tired. I have to send you a copy and paste message and warn as many people as possible. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

Daddy I hate to do this to you but I have to send you a copy and paste message because I'm so tired and I must sleep. But I have to warn my friends. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to cj283 : baby you will understand how fucked up things got when you read my next blog. I have to sleep soon so I hate to do this to you but here is a quick copy and paste warning: In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to southernand7up : I'm sorry if I have to be cautious talking with you. This is the first time I have seen you comment on a blog. My memory is not perfect and maybe we have chatted before. In my next blog i explain what happened. It's fucked up. I posted in a comment that says PLEASE READ what his response was. He claims everything he said was a lie and he just used me for the 'writing' he threatens he will reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I have to warn men who do read my blog to be suspicious of new contacts especially if their pics don't seem real. It may just be irony but a new person posing as a female with a male symbol has already left me a comment which is suspicious. I checked his/her profile and it has been active 500 days. This person says in their profile they just closed an account. He could already have a female identity established to fuck with people

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

dear louix my next blog is important. I explain a lot of shit. I posted a letter I wrote to dave who was the hamster steevo. He retired that account. He claims everything he said to me was a lie. He promises to reappear and meet me again. He plans to stalk me. I don't know up from down. I have to warn all my male friends to be suspicious of new female contacts. He could come after my friends. It is very suspicious that I had a new male or female send me a comment for the first time on that blog so quickly. If it is him he has had a female identity with a male symbol for almost five hundred days. I have no idea who this person is. He may already be fucking with me. I let the unknown person know she/he could be dave's alter ego. I could be in danger. More importantly he could start relationships with the steady circle of men who read my blog. Be cautious of new contact especially if they engage you with long wordy messages

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to rebz10 : reb I'll just warn you again he threatens to reappear. Not only could he fuck with me he could fuck with all my friends. Suddenly I have a new person who was the first comment made on my latest blog. I think it's him. I don't trust a new person so quick to comment on a blog they just started reading. I can't make myself look at that man's profile to see how long he has been active but I have no choice I have to check it now

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linmarris Publisher 10 years ago

to steevo27 : you sick fuck. your taunt to come back into my life to fuck with me is twisted. I don't deserve to be stalked by a lunatic.

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wolfrider2121 10 years ago

Lin take your time I will see you when yku get up

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snake_500011 10 years ago

Take as long as you need just focus on getting back to feeling yourself

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Get well soon, sweetness...

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fulltimeflirt 10 years ago

Ok baby I understand I will think of your safety and be here to listen

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cj283 10 years ago

I truley hope you feel better very soon

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southernand7up 10 years ago

Take your time, you always have to look out for yourself first.

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rebz10 10 years ago

I hope you get better soon Lynn. by the way nice picture you have there. (Photo intro)

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I had a similar feeling recently too. I'll never be able to imagine how you feel considering your condition and the medications you require. I felt complete despair and empty hearted as well. It's the worst feeling ever. I'm sure you feel 10 times as hurt compared to my menial depression. I hope you feel better soon.

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