Comments and replies
I'm posting this for an anonymous friend. Not many people realize that sometimes reading my replies and comments are way more fun than reading a post. Tonight was special. I ended up using so many analogies and metaphors that I want to remember them all as one post of commentary. I thought I would write a blog tonight. Instead I got lost replying to good feedback. enjoy.
DimJandy: I hope you still think of me as a friend. I'm not on here much, but I do read your blog. I'm not trying to win your heart or get you to cam with me. Sounds like you had a really tough time during your school years. Not just when going to school, the whole year 'round. I know it's tempting to trust people, but please be careful and don't end up supporting some loser's bad habit. I wish you only good luck and success in anything you do.
Reply: Thank you Dimjandy, of course I still think of you as a friend. You have already won my heart. If you did want to cam I will be here for you. As a friend or a lover. This is a porn site. I am very sexual. If I cam with anyone it will be the men who commented on this post. I think you can understand why it is so important to me. That year changed me. It defined me as a strong woman. I came on this site looking for friends to become lovers. You know I can be fun and playful and have a boatload of companions. I need men who can hear about the bad times and still show support. All women need that. Not all women give men a chance to find out who she really is. I certainly do. I am never going to be most women. I don't want to be. I continue to support losers and their habits. I am trying to fix that issue. You have to admit a loser could never read something this long and say something profound. It is an elimination game. It is an obstacle course. You easily jumped my hurtles and completed the test. I can never thank you enough.
DimJandy: You didn't fail, and your audience didn't fail. They were just being people on. a porn site looking for a sexy or racy story. You got your message across. i got it. A few others got it. Please don't feel discouraged from writing what you want. Just realize you're not going to get many readers who will follow you. I think most were looking for a short, highly structured story. Some don't have the attention span to read a blog, especially when they have their dicks in their hands :-) If you walked into a public library and asked the front desk for a cheeseburger, fries, and a Strawberry shake, you wouldn't get it. Not because they didn't understand, but because you're in the wrong place. I guess I'm just saying you won't find many people willing to make much of an effort to communicate via words. They've looking for pictures or videos. But you'll get lucky and find a few. Focus on them, forget the rest, and a few more of the good ones will trickle in. Have a little more patience. Some of us aren't on here every day.I hope all that doesn't sound too critical. Just my opinions and suggestions really.
Reply: Dear Dimjandy, I know it takes time and men slowly find me. In all ways I am content. When I posted this I wasn't. I know who my friends really are. Yet so many men have been standing in my library pretending to read a book while they are really eating a cheeseburger and getting grease on my paper. That hurt to realize. I got played. Men will say and do anything to fuck a sexy librarian. Some fetishes never change. I just plan to exploit the issue. I needed this lesson. I have to prepare for my future. That involves earning an income. Sometimes a librarian is a stripper at night. A library doesn't pay bills. A pole certainly does. If I want to enjoy my books in a silent sanctuary I must get naked at a night club and dance. You know the rules. At my club there is no cover charge. A man can watch me dance free of charge. If you want a lap dance I need cash. I am a librarian. If you read my books it equals cash. It earns a free lap dance. In the end only cash or reading gets the naughty librarian to grind up against your dick and sometimes she gives head.
My teddybear: Wearing your heart is never a bad thing and should never be changed the most honest trust worthy people are those who are will to show themselfs to the world if more people were honest and fully true with themselfs and other people life would be a lot better if people want you to change they do not fully appreciate who you are, I trick I have found in life is to set small goals and as you get closer to them make them bigger so you are always growing as a person into your goals if you stay positive in life positive will happen
Reply: I am bad with names. I will only call you my sweet teddy bear. Your words always touch me deeply. We share a union. I am an honest woman in a tough situation. I have an open mind and the best intentions. My goals are set small right now. I need a small income to support myself. In time I will use what money I earn to promote and sell my artwork. I do have life goals and a plan. I am not sailing in an ocean on a row boat. I'm starting in a pond on newspaper. In time I hope to have a yacht and sail in each sea through art and commerce. I am content with a small network of friends. I don't need much in life to make me happy.
My favorite couple: (husband) I love your candor and how expressive you are. I tend to be or at the least I always worry that Im being long winded with my profile, even though I feel everything I have to say about myself is important. Sometimes it can be hard to convey your desires, needs, things about yourself in textual form, especially if you're trying to keep it short. Anyway you keep doing things the way it feels right to you. Especially your writing. There are men out there that like to read the long profiles or the well written blogs. Some of us do it for the content and not reading it as if it were a menu with the only intent to see what "he" can get.
Reply: you will both always be in my thoughts and prayers. Such kindness is rare to find on a porn site. I do have to address a lot of information in a profile. I learned that short and sweet leads to an overdose of contact from men only interested in free cam sex. If you are not clear concerning your needs men will walk all over you. This is a porn site. I am naive. I am slowly learning the ways of the world. I am like you. I prefer a long profile and a good deep blog. I walk past short and simple the same way horny men walk past long and complex. I will not change my own world view to please men. I will stay true to myself even if that means very little contact. I prefer an elite few to a multitude of worthless. At first I planned to promote myself short and sexy. That would lead to a higher audience. I realize that is not my needs. I am an actress. My favorite part is the audition. In that situation I do not have a full auditorium. I have a few friends watching and I have a director. He judges my potential. I perform for him alone. I always do my finest work at auditions. When opening night comes and the house is full rarely can I peak the way I do when only the director is judging me. I usually get the role. The people watching are satisfied. They never know that I was even better at auditions. They just know I am damn good. And everyone is happy.
Louix: I actually quite enjoyed it. My only 'critique' would be more of a reminder that you are more intelligent than most people with whom you interact in life (much less on a porn site) and encourage you to not feel burdened by the barrage of stupidity you encounter. One shucks through 10,000 oysters before finding a pearl.
Reply: I love your way with words. I do know men will look long and hard to find a pearl. They will bloody their hands in search of one. What makes me laugh is that when a man finds one he tosses it because it isn't big enough, perfectly round or the perfect shade of white. He never thinks about the beauty involved in the process of turning one grain of sand into something tangible and precious. In many ways I am that pearl that is too big for a necklace. I will never match fifty other identical pearls. They put me in the garbage. Men like you see a gigantic pearl and realize that I am intended to be the center of a pendant and function as the centerpiece. Some men find a large pearl and put me in a box waiting to find fifty more just like me for a necklace. I go in the garbage or in a box on this site. It happens daily. It doesn't bother me anymore. You're right I have superior intelligence. I am in this game for the long haul. In time I will be a pendant. If I get lucky instead of the garbage or a box I will be placed on the top of a crown.
Bashful: Never before have I seen a woman here who is so intelligent and open and honest about herself, her life and her feelings. Your main page write-up and your blogs take time to read. They must be re-read to fully absorb everything but, that is a pleasant experience. Only read a couple. Look forward to having time to read the rest. Your mind and your artistic endeavors are enough to make a man want to meet you. Your physical appearance is just great icing on the cake. You are truly a unique, interesting person, a person worthwhile knowing for sex or friendship or intellectual discussion. Wising you the best in life!!!! One other thing. You can make men cum talking about the weather. Are you familiar with the NakedNews website?
Reply: Your comment leaves me glowing and giggling. I should check out this NakedNews option. I do take time to absorb. Men rarely realize I am a sponge and use me like a paper towel. I laugh at them because they throw me away not knowing I can be reused and scrub dishes. You are a smart man. You know the men on this site are trying to satisfy their sexual needs. Like morons they are scrubbing pots and pans with a paper towel instead of a sponge. The dumb motherfuckers go through women like a roll of towels and still have dirty dishes. I don't get it. Not only am I a sponge. I'm a goddamn dishwasher. Why are men standing over a sink with paper towels to do something I make easy with technology? I don't know why men ignore household appliances. You know it's true. I only want to clean some crusty pans. I want to make them sterile. Men can be so nasty. They leave the bacteria on dishes to fester. They wonder why they get food poisoning. Only when they find out the dishwasher is cheap and easy will the diarrhea ever end. I keep trying to stop the madness. I only want to make men cum. They are too stupid to load me properly and set a cycle. If you can work your dishwasher we will be great friends.
Steevo: This is one of my favorite quotes when entering into the unknown. "When you come to the edge of all the light you know, and step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly." Get ready for the ride, Lin.
Reply: Your comment leaves me speechless. For some reason I can't help but think about Indiana Jones and the last crusade. To reach the room filled with options that could be the holy grail he must step into the unknown. I think about that scene often. The bridge is invisible and the fall seems unavoidable. In many ways just like Indiana I must toss sand on that bridge to realize solid ground is an option. You have to be ignorant to step off a cliff without proving their is an invisible bridge. This period of preparation is me tossing sand. I don't know that I can fly. I do know God makes some bridges invisible. An ignorant woman would not look for a bridge. She would turn around and call the crusade impossible. She would try to jump something she could walk across. She would retreat and look for ropes and climbing gear. Not this bitch. I toss sand. I have walked across invisible bridges before. I know where to expect them. I know to have faith they are firm and steady. I prove it with evidence. Then I walk across it and pick the right grail. It isn't covered in jewels. It is simply the most ancient basic cup in the room.
Divedog: it is a tough nut to crack to try and appeal to the masses ... I think a photo will catch an eye.. but a catchy and very short phrase will draw in some.. as for the average porn junkie .. I think you will lose them if they have to think and read at the same time...pretty hard to do when you eyes are bouncing up and down while jacking off..lol..
Reply: I know when I do go live i just use my profile pic. Men will enter my room because they like my face. I have gone live before. My pic is all I need. It makes men see what I have to offer. That is how I stand out. Some chicks go for a full body shot that is crude. My approach I warned you is quite different. Men who enter my room are curious. They want to know if my body is as appealing as my face. I look the right combination of sweet yet my smirk declares deviance. A picture of your smile says a lot. Men who enter my room are not disappointed. In some situations they are pleasantly surprised. I can never match my profile pic to what color hair I wear that night. Men expect a spunky redhead and see a sultry blonde. Sometimes they see an innocent brunette. I show just enough cleavage they expect tits. I don't show them that my tits are fucking gigantic. Men who expect a pretty face and tits are truly overwhelmed. I can honestly say that I'm not trying to brag. On the other hand I have to brag a bit. My long time best friend has fake tits. Mine are way bigger. Hers are solid with no jiggle factor. My tits are bigger than most implants. Chicks go for a D or DD. I max out with a DDD to E. That is highly rare for a petite girl on a small frame. You've seen my videos. They don't do me justice like a live cam feed. You don't get to hear me speak. I hate recording myself. When I go live I am giddy and bubbly. I'm also turned on. Men want to know how an innocent chick like me can play. I give them the full experience. From experience all men want to ask me questions and hear me speak. They want mostly tits. They love my pussy. I need a cam that provides a better full body shot and I'm set. Even working from a laptop I can work my body into pussy, belly, tits and face. Men call me out in that position for having great legs. You can't complain about great thighs. For some men my weight is an issue. They quickly move on. Most men adore my body. It works. I know I'm blessed. I have creamy skin untainted by a single stretch mark or any cellulite. At the same time that I am curvy and round I am hard and firm. Most of all I am nice to each man. I have only done it three times. Apparently it is not normal for a cam girl to be nice. She will only speak to men who provide tokens. I am nice to everyone. From experience I know men find me and want one on one time. I didn't let it happen because I was having fun in a room. Now it is an option. I can only assure you men who will know me as a cam girl don't have to read a word. The profile is to meet friends. The profile is to let men who can pay me find out why they should. I am hoping men take me up on my offer to take them off xham for sessions on skype where we can be intimate on a forum where money is salary for a scheduled time each day or week. I plan to look for men who pay for exclusive rights to see me and pay me in money orders not tokens. I want cash. The goal is to stop xham from getting a chunk of my money or a man's. The right men will jump at the chance to go off the site and into my attic. In time they will truly think of me as a lover and not another cam girl.
Afterthoughts: I don’t feel well tonight. Sorry if I missed your skype or PM message. I didn’t check page comments. I fucked up and didn’t take my anti-depressant to many days in a row. I feel drained and aching. But I am happy. As you can see I am finding out who my real friends are. I’m getting amazing feedback. I’m learning and adjusting. Reb please don’t be mad at me for not posting your comment. He warned me not to call other camgirls skanks. For the record, Reb is one of the best men in my world. I had a post that gave out my skype ID. He had the courage to do it. I knew when I saw his add that a man had gone back to that blog and reached out to contact me. He was brave. He was wise. He read my blog and followed the fucking directions. He wasn’t chasing cam sex. He wanted to know me. He is a true gentleman and I adore him. I didn’t post my reply about skanks because maybe I am to critical. Poor reb and tan man have tried contacting me. I just don’t feel like chatting. I know you will both forgive me.
I posted tonight’s comments to let the people who worry about my lack of support realize I have more than enough. I have started warning men still hitting my pm box that the only way to reach me is through my blog and GOOD feedback. This post is to explain what I am asking for. As you can see each person on this list really went to the effort to say something valid. They were positive and offering guidance. I learned from each message more about myself. I am a librarian, a paper boat, an actress, a dishwasher, a pearl and an invisible bridge. It has been a beautiful night. Thank you all ever so much. I will sleep well and be in touch when I wake.
DimJandy: I hope you still think of me as a friend. I'm not on here much, but I do read your blog. I'm not trying to win your heart or get you to cam with me. Sounds like you had a really tough time during your school years. Not just when going to school, the whole year 'round. I know it's tempting to trust people, but please be careful and don't end up supporting some loser's bad habit. I wish you only good luck and success in anything you do.
Reply: Thank you Dimjandy, of course I still think of you as a friend. You have already won my heart. If you did want to cam I will be here for you. As a friend or a lover. This is a porn site. I am very sexual. If I cam with anyone it will be the men who commented on this post. I think you can understand why it is so important to me. That year changed me. It defined me as a strong woman. I came on this site looking for friends to become lovers. You know I can be fun and playful and have a boatload of companions. I need men who can hear about the bad times and still show support. All women need that. Not all women give men a chance to find out who she really is. I certainly do. I am never going to be most women. I don't want to be. I continue to support losers and their habits. I am trying to fix that issue. You have to admit a loser could never read something this long and say something profound. It is an elimination game. It is an obstacle course. You easily jumped my hurtles and completed the test. I can never thank you enough.
DimJandy: You didn't fail, and your audience didn't fail. They were just being people on. a porn site looking for a sexy or racy story. You got your message across. i got it. A few others got it. Please don't feel discouraged from writing what you want. Just realize you're not going to get many readers who will follow you. I think most were looking for a short, highly structured story. Some don't have the attention span to read a blog, especially when they have their dicks in their hands :-) If you walked into a public library and asked the front desk for a cheeseburger, fries, and a Strawberry shake, you wouldn't get it. Not because they didn't understand, but because you're in the wrong place. I guess I'm just saying you won't find many people willing to make much of an effort to communicate via words. They've looking for pictures or videos. But you'll get lucky and find a few. Focus on them, forget the rest, and a few more of the good ones will trickle in. Have a little more patience. Some of us aren't on here every day.I hope all that doesn't sound too critical. Just my opinions and suggestions really.
Reply: Dear Dimjandy, I know it takes time and men slowly find me. In all ways I am content. When I posted this I wasn't. I know who my friends really are. Yet so many men have been standing in my library pretending to read a book while they are really eating a cheeseburger and getting grease on my paper. That hurt to realize. I got played. Men will say and do anything to fuck a sexy librarian. Some fetishes never change. I just plan to exploit the issue. I needed this lesson. I have to prepare for my future. That involves earning an income. Sometimes a librarian is a stripper at night. A library doesn't pay bills. A pole certainly does. If I want to enjoy my books in a silent sanctuary I must get naked at a night club and dance. You know the rules. At my club there is no cover charge. A man can watch me dance free of charge. If you want a lap dance I need cash. I am a librarian. If you read my books it equals cash. It earns a free lap dance. In the end only cash or reading gets the naughty librarian to grind up against your dick and sometimes she gives head.
My teddybear: Wearing your heart is never a bad thing and should never be changed the most honest trust worthy people are those who are will to show themselfs to the world if more people were honest and fully true with themselfs and other people life would be a lot better if people want you to change they do not fully appreciate who you are, I trick I have found in life is to set small goals and as you get closer to them make them bigger so you are always growing as a person into your goals if you stay positive in life positive will happen
Reply: I am bad with names. I will only call you my sweet teddy bear. Your words always touch me deeply. We share a union. I am an honest woman in a tough situation. I have an open mind and the best intentions. My goals are set small right now. I need a small income to support myself. In time I will use what money I earn to promote and sell my artwork. I do have life goals and a plan. I am not sailing in an ocean on a row boat. I'm starting in a pond on newspaper. In time I hope to have a yacht and sail in each sea through art and commerce. I am content with a small network of friends. I don't need much in life to make me happy.
My favorite couple: (husband) I love your candor and how expressive you are. I tend to be or at the least I always worry that Im being long winded with my profile, even though I feel everything I have to say about myself is important. Sometimes it can be hard to convey your desires, needs, things about yourself in textual form, especially if you're trying to keep it short. Anyway you keep doing things the way it feels right to you. Especially your writing. There are men out there that like to read the long profiles or the well written blogs. Some of us do it for the content and not reading it as if it were a menu with the only intent to see what "he" can get.
Reply: you will both always be in my thoughts and prayers. Such kindness is rare to find on a porn site. I do have to address a lot of information in a profile. I learned that short and sweet leads to an overdose of contact from men only interested in free cam sex. If you are not clear concerning your needs men will walk all over you. This is a porn site. I am naive. I am slowly learning the ways of the world. I am like you. I prefer a long profile and a good deep blog. I walk past short and simple the same way horny men walk past long and complex. I will not change my own world view to please men. I will stay true to myself even if that means very little contact. I prefer an elite few to a multitude of worthless. At first I planned to promote myself short and sexy. That would lead to a higher audience. I realize that is not my needs. I am an actress. My favorite part is the audition. In that situation I do not have a full auditorium. I have a few friends watching and I have a director. He judges my potential. I perform for him alone. I always do my finest work at auditions. When opening night comes and the house is full rarely can I peak the way I do when only the director is judging me. I usually get the role. The people watching are satisfied. They never know that I was even better at auditions. They just know I am damn good. And everyone is happy.
Louix: I actually quite enjoyed it. My only 'critique' would be more of a reminder that you are more intelligent than most people with whom you interact in life (much less on a porn site) and encourage you to not feel burdened by the barrage of stupidity you encounter. One shucks through 10,000 oysters before finding a pearl.
Reply: I love your way with words. I do know men will look long and hard to find a pearl. They will bloody their hands in search of one. What makes me laugh is that when a man finds one he tosses it because it isn't big enough, perfectly round or the perfect shade of white. He never thinks about the beauty involved in the process of turning one grain of sand into something tangible and precious. In many ways I am that pearl that is too big for a necklace. I will never match fifty other identical pearls. They put me in the garbage. Men like you see a gigantic pearl and realize that I am intended to be the center of a pendant and function as the centerpiece. Some men find a large pearl and put me in a box waiting to find fifty more just like me for a necklace. I go in the garbage or in a box on this site. It happens daily. It doesn't bother me anymore. You're right I have superior intelligence. I am in this game for the long haul. In time I will be a pendant. If I get lucky instead of the garbage or a box I will be placed on the top of a crown.
Bashful: Never before have I seen a woman here who is so intelligent and open and honest about herself, her life and her feelings. Your main page write-up and your blogs take time to read. They must be re-read to fully absorb everything but, that is a pleasant experience. Only read a couple. Look forward to having time to read the rest. Your mind and your artistic endeavors are enough to make a man want to meet you. Your physical appearance is just great icing on the cake. You are truly a unique, interesting person, a person worthwhile knowing for sex or friendship or intellectual discussion. Wising you the best in life!!!! One other thing. You can make men cum talking about the weather. Are you familiar with the NakedNews website?
Reply: Your comment leaves me glowing and giggling. I should check out this NakedNews option. I do take time to absorb. Men rarely realize I am a sponge and use me like a paper towel. I laugh at them because they throw me away not knowing I can be reused and scrub dishes. You are a smart man. You know the men on this site are trying to satisfy their sexual needs. Like morons they are scrubbing pots and pans with a paper towel instead of a sponge. The dumb motherfuckers go through women like a roll of towels and still have dirty dishes. I don't get it. Not only am I a sponge. I'm a goddamn dishwasher. Why are men standing over a sink with paper towels to do something I make easy with technology? I don't know why men ignore household appliances. You know it's true. I only want to clean some crusty pans. I want to make them sterile. Men can be so nasty. They leave the bacteria on dishes to fester. They wonder why they get food poisoning. Only when they find out the dishwasher is cheap and easy will the diarrhea ever end. I keep trying to stop the madness. I only want to make men cum. They are too stupid to load me properly and set a cycle. If you can work your dishwasher we will be great friends.
Steevo: This is one of my favorite quotes when entering into the unknown. "When you come to the edge of all the light you know, and step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly." Get ready for the ride, Lin.
Reply: Your comment leaves me speechless. For some reason I can't help but think about Indiana Jones and the last crusade. To reach the room filled with options that could be the holy grail he must step into the unknown. I think about that scene often. The bridge is invisible and the fall seems unavoidable. In many ways just like Indiana I must toss sand on that bridge to realize solid ground is an option. You have to be ignorant to step off a cliff without proving their is an invisible bridge. This period of preparation is me tossing sand. I don't know that I can fly. I do know God makes some bridges invisible. An ignorant woman would not look for a bridge. She would turn around and call the crusade impossible. She would try to jump something she could walk across. She would retreat and look for ropes and climbing gear. Not this bitch. I toss sand. I have walked across invisible bridges before. I know where to expect them. I know to have faith they are firm and steady. I prove it with evidence. Then I walk across it and pick the right grail. It isn't covered in jewels. It is simply the most ancient basic cup in the room.
Divedog: it is a tough nut to crack to try and appeal to the masses ... I think a photo will catch an eye.. but a catchy and very short phrase will draw in some.. as for the average porn junkie .. I think you will lose them if they have to think and read at the same time...pretty hard to do when you eyes are bouncing up and down while jacking off..lol..
Reply: I know when I do go live i just use my profile pic. Men will enter my room because they like my face. I have gone live before. My pic is all I need. It makes men see what I have to offer. That is how I stand out. Some chicks go for a full body shot that is crude. My approach I warned you is quite different. Men who enter my room are curious. They want to know if my body is as appealing as my face. I look the right combination of sweet yet my smirk declares deviance. A picture of your smile says a lot. Men who enter my room are not disappointed. In some situations they are pleasantly surprised. I can never match my profile pic to what color hair I wear that night. Men expect a spunky redhead and see a sultry blonde. Sometimes they see an innocent brunette. I show just enough cleavage they expect tits. I don't show them that my tits are fucking gigantic. Men who expect a pretty face and tits are truly overwhelmed. I can honestly say that I'm not trying to brag. On the other hand I have to brag a bit. My long time best friend has fake tits. Mine are way bigger. Hers are solid with no jiggle factor. My tits are bigger than most implants. Chicks go for a D or DD. I max out with a DDD to E. That is highly rare for a petite girl on a small frame. You've seen my videos. They don't do me justice like a live cam feed. You don't get to hear me speak. I hate recording myself. When I go live I am giddy and bubbly. I'm also turned on. Men want to know how an innocent chick like me can play. I give them the full experience. From experience all men want to ask me questions and hear me speak. They want mostly tits. They love my pussy. I need a cam that provides a better full body shot and I'm set. Even working from a laptop I can work my body into pussy, belly, tits and face. Men call me out in that position for having great legs. You can't complain about great thighs. For some men my weight is an issue. They quickly move on. Most men adore my body. It works. I know I'm blessed. I have creamy skin untainted by a single stretch mark or any cellulite. At the same time that I am curvy and round I am hard and firm. Most of all I am nice to each man. I have only done it three times. Apparently it is not normal for a cam girl to be nice. She will only speak to men who provide tokens. I am nice to everyone. From experience I know men find me and want one on one time. I didn't let it happen because I was having fun in a room. Now it is an option. I can only assure you men who will know me as a cam girl don't have to read a word. The profile is to meet friends. The profile is to let men who can pay me find out why they should. I am hoping men take me up on my offer to take them off xham for sessions on skype where we can be intimate on a forum where money is salary for a scheduled time each day or week. I plan to look for men who pay for exclusive rights to see me and pay me in money orders not tokens. I want cash. The goal is to stop xham from getting a chunk of my money or a man's. The right men will jump at the chance to go off the site and into my attic. In time they will truly think of me as a lover and not another cam girl.
Afterthoughts: I don’t feel well tonight. Sorry if I missed your skype or PM message. I didn’t check page comments. I fucked up and didn’t take my anti-depressant to many days in a row. I feel drained and aching. But I am happy. As you can see I am finding out who my real friends are. I’m getting amazing feedback. I’m learning and adjusting. Reb please don’t be mad at me for not posting your comment. He warned me not to call other camgirls skanks. For the record, Reb is one of the best men in my world. I had a post that gave out my skype ID. He had the courage to do it. I knew when I saw his add that a man had gone back to that blog and reached out to contact me. He was brave. He was wise. He read my blog and followed the fucking directions. He wasn’t chasing cam sex. He wanted to know me. He is a true gentleman and I adore him. I didn’t post my reply about skanks because maybe I am to critical. Poor reb and tan man have tried contacting me. I just don’t feel like chatting. I know you will both forgive me.
I posted tonight’s comments to let the people who worry about my lack of support realize I have more than enough. I have started warning men still hitting my pm box that the only way to reach me is through my blog and GOOD feedback. This post is to explain what I am asking for. As you can see each person on this list really went to the effort to say something valid. They were positive and offering guidance. I learned from each message more about myself. I am a librarian, a paper boat, an actress, a dishwasher, a pearl and an invisible bridge. It has been a beautiful night. Thank you all ever so much. I will sleep well and be in touch when I wake.
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