The profile that flopped

Before I change profiles I have to keep this one for posterity. It was such an epic fail. I have to face the fact my best intentions were going to fuck me up. Everything about this profile is so me. I can laugh about it. You would think it limited the men who contacted me. It didn't change. You would've thought men would take me up on an offer to have cam sex in exchange for reading a good blog and leaving feedback. I wasn't asking a man to that much and offered a reward that was legit. It you read chapter 3 you learned how I write when I peak. You know my life has been filled with challenges. No one on a porn site gives a shit. It's a blessing. I set myself up. If hundreds of men read it and commented I would have been a free porn show for the masses. I have a pm box with a thousand variations of c2c? Not one man read the instructions how to get it. Irony is this profile could've ruined my damn life.

It was simple. I love cam sex. I get too many requests. If I want to do it then I would've reserved it for men who supported my writing. I would like my sex life back. I wanted to do it with smart men who had respect for me. My heart is pure. I really am that easy. Men just don't read. There are around ten good men that do. You know who you are. When I can cam again it will be an honor to please you. If your name isn't on my comment list for chapter 3 then you lost that gift. I am dreading what I have to do. I have to replace a profile that is real and has merit with one that focuses on sex alone. I'm at least going to make it good.

Good friends would tell me to watch my length. As a man you don't understand. I know from experience that a short profile makes men who barely speak english who live in nasty countries harass a girl like me non-stop. Length keeps them at bay. It has to be long to intimidate fuckers looking for a free cam show from a hot american chick. I wish my profile was a success. I would've loved to reward feedback with cam sex. If you can't respect me for that then what on earth do you respect? So this is going to be posted for posterity. Maybe some man in the future will read it and find out who I really am and what I would've liked to have happen. Then I will start from scratch. Give me feedback even if it is criticism because I do need your advice if I write another flawed profile.

was rather attached to my first profile. It got a lot of compliments. Maybe that's the problem. Let me introduce myself. I go by the name linda marris. You can call me lin. I'm real. I'm totally different from most chicks on xhamster. Fuck it. I'm totally different from most women. I don't get along with most women. You have to admit they are usually shallow,vain, materialistic, attention seeking bitches. I prefer the company of men. I'm unusual because I'm 32 and I've never been married. I also can't have c***dren. That's why I can play on a porn site.

There is another reason I'm different. I'm severely bi-polar. We are not all crazy cunts that have mood swings. I was taught to hide the illness and try to pass as normal. Instead I try to educate people. It is not something to be ashamed of. It is simply an issue of abnormal serotonin levels and an inability to have natural sleep. It also affects people in different ways. You can have a slight inclination of the illness or you can be like me. I have broken my body's ability to use any amount of normal sleeping pills to fall asleep. That's what makes me different. I rely on a hard-core brand new tranquilizer to sleep. When I wake up I need a hard-core stimulant to fight the sedation from the tranquilizer. So I live on a speedball. I'm truly unable to work a normal job.

I got denied disability and medicaid. In florida earning those things takes years and a lawyer. I depend on private healthcare and medicine that cost a fortune. However, I am willing to bust my ass and work hard. It's degrading to mix sex and money. It doesn't matter. Soon I will register here and on chatturbate to be a cam girl. If you were penniless and you needed medicine you would figure out to make it happen. I didn't learn how to do it by watching women. I've been on xhamster a little over a hundred days. I let men teach me what they want a woman to be when she performs. They just happen to be looking for a chick like me. I'm nice. I'm kinky. I'm smart. I have natural tits that are busting out of a 38 DDD. I also adore making men cum. Even if I didn't need money I would perform for free just to see a man get off. Don't think I'm a con artist who wants your money.

I want something else. I want your friendship. I'm a writer and an artist. For me cam sex is will be important for two reasons. Allowing men who want to tip me will do more than buy the medicine to keep me alive. You can look at my artwork and know I'm legit. I studied fine art in college. All my work is able to be reproduced by my mentor who owns a printing store. I plan to set up a website, let galleries worldwide know about it and sell it to men like you. I will make it affordable. Being a cam girl will allow me to print it and get it in galleries. Even more than that I will be able to let people find it and purchase it cheaply. If I become a major name in the art world people who buy it cheap can retire for purchasing it so early in my career. I hold my head up high when it comes to mixing sex with money. When you are truly an artist you will do anything on earth to hang on walls. It's one of the reasons I write.

I have never been published. I am just beginning to dabble in fictional sex stories. I just switched writing my blog off of facebook to write it here. I am to graphic and sexual for the bullshit facebook garbage. I don't fuck around when I write. I am highly sexual and it has been a blast writing about sex. At some point if you write a blog you have to stop doing it for feedback. People bitch about the length of my work. It was an issue on facebook. It's an issue here. I don't need one motherfucker to read it. I write because I'm passionate about communication. I need to make people laugh. I need to make them think. I need to let people get to know who I am. Some girls do free cam sex to fill a void. I write to fill a void. In every way my blog is my baby.

I'm changing my life one day at a time. You will never meet a woman like me. I let you go deep in my brain and dig around. You can ask questions. You can explore any topic. I will go back to mostly sexual issues. First I want men to understand I'm more than a pretty face. Writing and sexuality are combined. I was swamped with contacts on skype chasing nothing but cam sex. My pm box is so jammed I can't use it. I need a sex life that doesn't involve strangers. From no on rules have changed. If you want me you have to be able to read and write. I don't expect you to read every word. I write as fast as an average person reads. If you were looking for something different then you found me.

My life now revolves around men who comment on my blog. My computer is busted and I can't cam until I pawn jewelry to buy a new one. When it happens men who left me good comments get cam sex all the time. If you can read about my life and give good feedback I will jump at the chance to make you cum. As a camwhore I will earn money from strangers. Men who read my blog and give me feedback will never be solicited for money. I'm not a sob story begging for money. If you want to enter my life and earn free pleasure all you have to do is read and write. I don't write garbage. My stories are good. I dare you to find a better blog. I don't write about kittens and shoes.

One man tonight in a pm basically told me no man would read a word much less chapters for a woman. He's wrong. I encourage you to enjoy my early sex stories. The true test is when I get personal. The title is Real blog. 'Part one. Read this if you contact me' In that blog I begin to tell my story. When I started I was seeking donations towards a new computer and asking men to leave comments to prove I am real a not a manipulative cunt. I had a hundred missed skype messages and I hit them with a message seeking help and support. None of the men on my skype list would read a blog. 95 percent of them will be eliminated. The next blog is short and it warns what I do if a man fucks with my reputation after I help him.

Chapter two describes the trials and tribulations I faced seeking help. It is a total reversal of my first blog. I plan to do this on my own. I am starting over. I don't need money of feedback. I have so much respect for men who read chapter two I won't accept money if they try to pay me. I can mix money with sex. I can't mix money with friendship. Feedback from writing means more to me than money. I can't wait to pawn my prize possession and be able to cam for those men. I explain how to get my skype ID.

Even if the man who considers me a textbook is right. Even if men won't read to learn about me nothing changes. The only reason I ask for a comment is to learn new names. All you have to do is say one word. On chapter one a man did it with ease. Any woman can be beautiful. My writing left him speechless. Since so few men read it I can guarantee you get a damn good reply to any comment you make. Yes it earns cam sex. Appearances don't mean shit. I want your fucking brain. Then I will focus on your dick. This profile will be up a long time. Jump in and play. Feel free to ask for my skype ID even if you start at chapter 69