I love my transition

i recently received my 5th laser hair removal treatment and i am very pleased with the results. i would say that 95% of my hair is gone from my face. I am so happy about how it looks. My skin is so smooth right now. when i am out in public i get a lot more double looks, and though i don't really know what they are thinking, i always imagine people are seeing my changes and i like that so much. i especially get a lot more looks from guys, and i am starting to really enjoy that. i think all the hair will be gone with the next treatment and i am so looking forward to that. my mind is racing to the next part of my transition. i am going to have my body hair removed the same way, so that i can shave less. my chest and butt are the next parts i want to be smooth all the time. it would be so great to wake up with a smooth body everyday, just like my face is now. with my face so smooth, my make up goes on so easy. i don't have to wear near as much, since i don't have to cover that beard anymore. and when i do get all made up, i think i look so much better. i definitely have a much more feminine look. i have also been working on the way i think with some of the hypnotic videos on this site. i must admit, they really work. i have been thinking about cock, and especially big black cock, incessantly since i have been watching those videos. i think i have always been very attracted to black men, but now i just cant stop thinking about serving BBC. i wake up every morning and the first thing in my mind is sucking big cock. i keep wishing i had a boyfriend who would sleep with me every night and let me suck his cock every morning. i would love to have a facial and a mouth full of cum to start the day off right. instead i have been jacking off a lot lately, watching black guys with huge cocks fuck and cum on all sorts of people; twinks, grannies, milfs, fatties, trannies, whatever. i just love watching those hot guys taking advantage of all those girls and sissies. i imagine myself being taken by a crowd of hung guys who talk to me like i'm a slut, which is what i really want to become. another thing i have been thinking a lot about is getting some tits. i am kinda fat, so i have little titties right now, but i would love to get some saline implants to make me a C cup. i think that would really get a lot of attention from some hot guys.