Frustrated cuckold

No, i'm not frustrated that I'm a cuckold i know that i don't have the size, stamina, or load to satisfy Nancy and agree to our open arrangement. Rather, i'm frustrated that i am never allowed to be home when Nancy is entertaining a man. No, Nancy isn't shy; she'd very public about our open relationship and about her boyfriends and casual trysts. And she has sex with her Aunt and woman friends present and even enjoys having pictures and movies made. Now, Nancy flirts openly and in front of me. The other night she started flirting across the bar with a younger, athletic looking man. He came over and chatted her up and the two of them agreed to a date two nights later. The guy appeared to be really turned on at the prospect of screwing someone else's wife, especially when he made the arrangements right in front of him. Anyway, two days past and Nancy took the day off to prepare for her date, had her hair and nails done, picked up some sheer nylons and a new pair of platform club pumps. She allowed me to stay right up to the time that her date arrived. She answered the door wearing only her nylons, shoes, butterfly panties, and a smile. As she asked the man in she shoved me out. i went to the mall and later to a small coffee to pass the time until Nancy or her Aunt called to say i was allowed to come home again. She sometime times by return with the departure of her date but not this time. When I arrived home Nancy asked for a drink and a pack of cigarettes. She and her Aunt talked about the evening and all the fun they had - Aunt Judy had a boyfriend visit... Nothing was said to me and I was banished to the kitchen to clean up and only allowed near the women if they called and they do this by ringing a bell.

The next day Aunt Judy had me sit by the TV and played some clips of Nancy with her date... He was hung like a moose and screwed her for seemingly ever. i never could have done this. Watching was a combination of excitement, humiliation, and frustration. A mix of my own inadequacies and of a desire to see Nancy satisfied. Still i want to be around when she's having a man and don't understand why she won't let me...