Sissy sexual service

When I am arranging a date with a man, and we have spent some time discussing his pres and what he likes in sex, a few of them will ask, 'But what about you? What turns you on?' To which my reply is always, 'Pleasing you'.

'But don't you want to cum?"

Like all sissies, I do love orgasms and I can be a chronic masturbator but I see that as being something that lies outside my brief when I am with a man. My job as a sissy is to provide pleasure for men. Thinking of myself would only detract from my essential task. I would be distracted and end up giving him less than total commitment. I'll happily jerk my sissy clitty later with happy memories of the session! Or, even better, learn to have a sissy orgasm without touching myself (which has only happened once). Though for that to happen, my sissy clit would have to be hard and to get hard once again suggests a loss of focus on my part.

So it is that some guys are surprised when they see that my sissy clit is not fully erect or erect at all while I service them. I assure them that this is perfectly normal and a sign that I am really giving them what they want and what they want is what they get. I encourage them to be selfish, to direct me to perform exactly as they want, to let go and bring out any and all fantasies for me to fulfil.

For some, I am simply a cum dumpster - they arrive, we get down to sex right away and as soon as they have cum, they are out the door. I am perfectly happy with that and get a real feeling of submissiveness from it. Others will stay and chat and tell me that sex is so boring with their wives, or has all but disappeared, because the wives will not 'put out' or don't like giving blow jobs, or don't like anal. I assure them that this is what sissies are for - to be compliant, submissive, focused, and technically expert at what they do. When a guy tells me that I have just given him the best blow job of his life - and that has happened a fair number of times - then I feel I have done the job I am meant to do.

I have had guys recommend me to straight friends of theirs, who have never dreamed of having sex with a sissy before. Straight guys are easily converted! One confessed that if I did not mind he would prefer I wear panties throughout as he didn't want to see my sissy clit - he just wanted the sensations to wash over him. I keep myself shaved, behave only as a sissy, wear sexy lingerie - he loved all that. After his orgasm, he almost flew out the door in his haste to get away and I recognised someone sadly imprinted with society's shame at breaking out of the heteronormative mould but he wrote me a lovely email later apologising and asking for a return visit if I would forgive him. I soon disabused him of the notion that forgiveness was necessary.

I'll be honest and confess that I am not so happy with men who want to play with or suck my sissy clitty or want me to fuck them. In my mind I am a woman when I am engaged on sissy service and I want to be used as a woman. I have sissy girlfriends but I won't have sex with them. I only have sex with guys and I prefer that they treat me totally as a sextoy. But I am trained in submission so I do what I am told even if really I don't like taking on the functions of a man - and I really, really don't!