Realising you are becoming a queer boy.........

I remember the first time I knew it was wrong to look - I was about ten years old and I was sitting on a wall looking at a football match with my friend. It was a winter evening, light fading, misty and cold.

The match ended and the guys stripped off - there were no showers or locker rooms in that field back then - they were naked and sweating. I still remember one huge guy - he was probably in his late teens.

He was hairy and muscular, with a long elephant's trunk hanging down between his legs. I was entranced. My prick was like steel, aching.

"Don't stare at the guys when they are naked" my friend said to me - "men don't like it if you stare at them, they will call you a queer"

I learned then to keep my eyes under control and to be careful not to display an erection when I was around older guys........

Published by roller100

5 years ago

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georgesdad 2 years ago

to roller100 : I love being fucked hard by a masculine man

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roller100 Publisher 2 years ago

to georgesdad : Yup, there are a lot of us guys who were gay but kept it under control, until eventually realising that it's impossible to ignore what you are... Welcome to the closet - there are a lot of us here!

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georgesdad 2 years ago

I wish I had been queer when young but was told by friends that is was wrong so i conformed till I couldn’t resist any longer and now happily gay (but in closet)

NCcountryGuy 2 years ago

they'll call you queer but that makes them want to show you how faggots get used hard by real men

erika4444 3 years ago

i have become a submissive cock sucker love cum

roller100 Publisher 4 years ago

yup, it is in our nature, we are lucky to be able to enjoy the pleasure

jojosmallone 4 years ago

to roller100 : yes i do. I don't mind having Dom Alpha Males see me as a submissive (beta) cock sucker just don't want my wife and family to know i'm one. It's kind of funny, it seem like more and more men i see out in public some how know i suck dicks. I've had quite a few guys squeeze or gab their crouch in front of me in the elevator and bath ro0oms. A few men have even turn toward me at urinals and shake their cocks at me and laugh. But maybe they saw my tiny dick and were laughing at that

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roller100 Publisher 4 years ago

to jojosmallone : Yup, when you are "straight" you have to be careful to keep that cock-sucking nice and discreet

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jojosmallone 4 years ago

to roller100 : yes things are much better for young gay guys but us married "straight" cock sucker still have to stay in the closet. Most women don't want to be married to a cock sucker

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roller100 Publisher 4 years ago

to jojosmallone : Yeah, things are better for younger gay guys now, but it's still a tough road for a lot of them. But the call of the cock is hard to resist!

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jojosmallone 4 years ago

it was tough being bi or a cock sucker back when i started (12 years old in the mid 60's). I was always afraid of being outed by the guys i sucked off. If guys knew you were a fag or a cock sucker you were either beat-up or outcast. Even though the guys like being sucked off they didn't want to be seen with a queer

roller100 Publisher 5 years ago

to smilinwillie2001 : sounds perfect - I would love to have a friend like that. Appreciate how lucky you are - you are an exception..

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smilinwillie2001 5 years ago

to roller100 : That's too bad. I'm in my early 50s and I've got a close friend I've known since grade school. We 'experimented' until we were in our teens and then took separate paths in life, but always remaining friends. Both married now and living in different cities, but when we get together and our wives go shopping we break out some gay porn and end up sucking each other every time. It's a great lifelong friendship.

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filthywanker 5 years ago

to roller100 : Understood. Boundaries are of course, important. And fantasy is NOT reality. But yes, nothing wrong with storing it in the wank bank!

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roller100 Publisher 5 years ago

to filthywanker : No, not with a guy who is really straight - and and as a gay guy you get to know who is straight and who might have tendencies that way............ In fact there is a famous novel [forget the name], by Gore Vidal I think - two teenage boys exploring sex together - one is really gay and in love, the other is just exploring. They meet again many years later and the gay guy makes advances - only to be beaten up by the other who detests the memory of their earlier sex exploits. So no, if I want to keep my friendship, my memories of my sex exploration with him long ago is something that is best kept as a great memory - something else for my wank bank!

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filthywanker 5 years ago

to roller100 : You're still friends? That's wonderful. No one from that far back remains in my life now. Moving around the country a lot tends to have that effect. My lifelong friendships were forged during my twenties. Ooo, I don't mean to sully or insult your real world friendship with this man, but the thought of you two having a few beers and both consenting to explore a little further is really rather appealing.

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roller100 Publisher 5 years ago

to filthywanker : Yup he was a real friend, still is - we "wrestled" as teenagers and often got to grab each other's cock - but he is a completely straight guy I am pretty sure (mind you, he might say the same about me....If only he knew!).

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filthywanker 5 years ago

to roller100 : I think your story is tinged with sadness because young gay boys still feel compelled to hide their desires. Despite advances in general acceptance and equality laws, homophobic bullying in the playground is still a thing. And same sex attraction in the young is not exactly celebrated. As gay men, we all have to wrestle with ourselves and reconcile a rites of passage. For some it can be relatively quick and easy, and well supported. Others can reach the end of their lives and still never reconcile their sexuality (to themselves or the rest of the world). A lot of it has to do with the communities we are brought up in, and the attitudes and values of our parents. And not forgetting, there are still places on the planet where same sex attraction can lead to imprisonment or worse. What stands out for me in your story is the friend who had enough awareness to notice where your eyes were fixed and offer a word of support and caution. To be that cognizant and supportive at aged ten really is remarkable. What a great fellow to have around.

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roller100 Publisher 5 years ago

You feel a bit sad because young gay guys have to hide their desires? On the other hand you should be happy that we have friends who understand us and show us how to be safe in a world which can often be homophobic.

roller100 Publisher 5 years ago

Ah, yes the pleasure of enjoying the beauty of the male form - but the terror of being suddenly asked to stand up by the teacher and displayiny your horn to the whole class!

joaquimfenixbras 5 years ago

Thanks for sharing... My interest in male bodies and getting aroused by it was in my case much later... I was fascinated by girls I was 15 y.o. and I saw some dudes playing basketball at school ... they were playing 2 on two in the schoolyard ... the weather was very warm and they started taking their shirts off ... they all had great abs and nice pecs and I immediately felt my crouch get warm and my dick started to grow I was watching from a distance ... I got a little bit upset/ embarrassed from my reaction !... I walked away but at least I was happy to learn something about myself that was true : I was sensitive to the beauty of nice bodies both male and female... I guess deep within myself I already knew, but I just realised then ... Now I am 43 y.o. but I still remember how it was ... being a teen full of fire in my body and spirit !...