Nov 2019 Update: lifestyle realities

It's been a while since I posted, and friends have been PMing, so here's an update: The last 6 months have been rough. T and I broke up. She is now in what seems to be a very serious relationship. Yes, he is someone I shared her with. And yes, he's black and hung.

I struggled with depression after we broke up. Started relying heavily on drinking and coke to get me thru. I was feeling very isolated. When M and I split, I lost most of our mutual friends in the divorce because I was the one to call it and because I started dating soon after.

I tried to reach out to M, thru a former mutual friend. M had completely ghosted me and I hadn't heard from her for months. The friend told me that she'd gone off the deep end and basically become a sex addict/slave. I asked if it was a particular bull she used to love, but the friend said she didn't know because she hardly heard from M either. I gave up trying to reach M after that.

Three months ago, I started seeing someone new, R. Met her through a lifestyle website, so she's experienced, which is good (it was a thrill to introduce T to the lifestyle, but also really challenging). Yes, she plays with black men -- about once a week.

Anyway, I'm happier and excited in this new relationship, but keeping my expectations in check and trying to take things as slow as I can. Will see how it goes.

Happy to answer any questions anyone has.

Published by allfantasies

5 years ago

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Sorry to hear things with your former girlfriend didn't turn out, but at the same time happy to learn you found someone new. Fingers crossed things work out.

allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to DnSinWNY : Thanks for kind and caring words.

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DnSinWNY 5 years ago

That sounds like a big punch in the guts. Sounds like your new relationship is starting from a place with less wide-eyed wonder and more settled reality = may you get at least as much joy as we have gotten from your kinky little video compilations!

Good luck with your new friend. Hope things work out.

to allfantasies : THANK YOU for taking the time to explain. Its heartbreaking but great information. I think what the bull and the cuckoldress miss or ignore, is that they dont have to choose..they could have had both. Your wife could have had the excitement and relationship with you and him. Now, she chose, and the new relationship energy they have will fade, the sparks will become less, they'll bicker, and what their relationship was based on will fall apart. If everyone could have given it time, and more discussions, it could have been good. Sounds like you and she had communication issues? Sounds like it became her doing what you wanted, rather than you doing what she wanted. I think thats the bottom line on it- sounds like she felt controlled.

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to Sloohand51 : It's a long story and not easy to explain. I'll create a post.

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tell us more details about the process from first experience with T, to her running off with a bull? Im sure many of us would like to learn fromt he experience, even though its sad for you and we are all sorry about it. WHat would you do differently if anything? What was working? What was the point of no return? stuff like that?

ctmarriedman 5 years ago

Wow, that must of been very difficult for you. I hope things get better.

man1982_ca 5 years ago

This sounds like a very hard time, I hope you the best for the year that will be starting.

allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to gojo122 : Yeah, I've thought about counseling. But feeling better for now. If I backslide, I definitely need to see someone. Thank you.

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allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to silence01 : Thank you. I'm making progress, but it ain't easy.

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gojo122 5 years ago

As everyone else mentioned, take care. The only other thing I would add is please seek help if you feel depressed. I wish you the best for the future.

silence01 5 years ago

I hope, you'll find happiness, but please, for your own sake: stay away from booze and coke. They will just make you more miserable, be very careful.

dpthewife 5 years ago

to allfantasies : i am really glad you saw the truth of it. you deserve the best and the best is coming. keep the good spirit and keep in mind that people like me or repversion50 and many more send you all our good vibes!

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allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to dpthewife : Great advice. I've got to keep that in mind: I'm looking for a woman who loves me for who I am.

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to perversion50 : Trying my best to stay clean. Really appreciate the encouragement. Friends like you here on XH are a key source of support since only a few people in my life know the full story. Thank you.

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perversion50 5 years ago

Damn, you've had a rough year or so. I'm sorry to hear about all you've been through. I hope you're recovering from your depression and getting away from the booze and drugs. I'm glad to know you've met someone new, especially someone who's experienced in the lifestyle; that sounds really promising. Thanks for keeping us informed. I hope things go well with you and R. And in any case I hope you'll stay in touch with all your friends here on XH who care about you. I wish you and R the best.

dpthewife 5 years ago

life is full of ups and downs, our responsibility is to move forward no matter what. A woman that does not appreciate her cuckold doesnt deserve to have him. Move one with the ones that really appreciate you and all will be just fine.

tcsub 5 years ago

Wow. I am sorry to hear what you have gone through. Very sorry. As a tiny white boy I really believe that black men are better and sex for white women should be with black men. However one always likes to think there is a role for the white boy as a support person, voyeur or even as kind of a servant. I hope this new relationship is the perfect long term one for you. the fact that R is into black men is such a positive thing. Selfishly I hope you get away from booze and drugs and turn to making more videos and helping R make you a better cuckold. Do you think you will continue to make videos? Does R approve of it and agree with the general ideas of interracial cuckolding? Do you think R will put you in chastity or otherwise have a schedule for you that more or less "normalizes" white boy sex? No matter what I wish you the very best.

miflmich1963 5 years ago

sorry to hear this, stay hard stay sober

lockandload1 5 years ago

Well as my wife said, be careful what you ask for when stepping out of the marriage. Feelings can quickly develop and then it's anyone's guess what might occur. As you have experienced twice now. Good luck for the future!

mix_match 5 years ago

to allfantasies : yes you are also hooked..

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allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to mix_match : It's a roller coaster, but hard to give up.

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mix_match 5 years ago

well T gave you a hell of a night with the 3 orgasms, seemed she was totally hooked ! Better luck with R ! ..risky games this bbc cucking !

allfantasies Publisher 5 years ago

to 562cple : Thank you

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562cple 5 years ago

Good luck.....