Disgusting old man

That's what a lot of people would call me I guess. Here I am married with grown c***dren and I find myself addicted to porn and masturbation. I have been masturbating regularly since age 12 and have been a porn lover all that time, but one is supposed to mature and stop masturbating penis and have erotic, satisfying relationships with women (or men). While I got my share of pussy back in the day, I never stopped masturbating and going to porn shops and arcades where I could masturbate for the guys and girls on the other side of the glass.

Now there's the internet and my masturbation addiction has taken a new form - I've discovered that I love to expose myself to others on cam as a masturbator and love to sit naked in front of my webcam and stroke my cock. Watching other guys who share my addiction turns me on like nothing has before. I have one buddy I cam with regularly who, like me is a helpless addicted masturbator. We're about the same age and he and I often sit in front of our cams naked and masturbating our lube-covered cocks openly exposing our faces and entire bodies to each other and sharing our fantasies and love of masturbation. Another guy I met online has become a phone buddy and we both love the word masturbate and the act as well and have hot orgasms on the phone together.

This virtual mutual masturbation is my main form of sexual activity these days, and although I try to meet other masturbators in real life, I find most men are interested in oral or anal sex or in kissing and cuddling but I'm only interested in masturbation. I haven't learned the proper way to ask a woman if she would like to masturbate with me, and that seems more likely to disrupt my marriage as well. Married male masturbators are generally discreet and we respect each other's need to hide our passion from our "normal" friends while readily being open about it to our fellow masturbators.

Just thought I'd share this with the xHamster community and see what kind of reaction I get.