A brief history of my early life.

I live in the Atlanta area, but was originally from a small town in the middle of absolutely nowhere. As soon as I went to college I never returned except to visit. My father worked for the state highway department. He was a drunk, mean, controlling pervert. My mother was an abused wife who was also an alcoholic and made to do things by my father to satisfy his anger and made her a whore. I had a brother who was 2 years older than I, and a chip off the "old block", and a bully with a twisted mind. Our father and he were like best friends and used both myself and my mother.

I was fucked the first time at 11 and stayed very, very sexually active after that. For nearly a year prior to that I was made to suck my brother's cock and a few of his friends', as well- he enjoyed sharing me. My father accidentally found me in our garage sucking my brother and his friend. He became very angry and the boys ran out leaving me with my drunk father. He called me a lot of dirty things and put me on his bench, pulled up my dress and pulled down my panties. He said if I were going to be a whore I should learn to fuck right and forced his hard penis into me. At first it hurt, but I was already hot from pleasuring my brother and his friend, the pain was different and went away as my father fucked me.

From that day I became a sex toy for men- very willingly on my part. I quickly found that although I wanted to be used, verbally humiliated and would do whatever my partner or partners wished (within reason), I felt that I also had some control over them. The saying that when a man's cock gets hard his brain goes soft, I have found is absolutely true. As a young teenager I quickly discovered older married men would lose their minds to fuck me and my girlfriend. We would go to the mall and flirt with married men- and seduce them. We would go out to the parking lot to their car or we had a storeroom in the mall we would fuck on boxes. The first time one of us was "tipped", we found the guys would gladly pay $5 (we had no idea what we were worth, but men were glad to give us that). She and I would make a tidy sum every weekend. We would fuck security guards to be sure they left us alone and turned their heads away.

I will try to post more. If you have any questions, I'd be happy to reply.
Published by Karen-returns
6 years ago
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auswanker2 5 years ago
Looks like you turned it around nicely and use that experience to be a total slut, I love that
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to agelesslust : Yes I do- very, very much.
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to fbsknave : My father would get drunk and bring his bar friends home to fuck me and my drunk mother while my father would cheer them on while he watched and jerked off.  My brother would bring his friends home after school to enjoy me.  
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fbsknave 6 years ago
It sounds like you are pretty self aware, and have turned an horrific early imprinting around in a positive way. Good for you!
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to agelesslust : That worked for her- this works for me.  I enjoy everything I do, and will never be forced beyond my limits.  And I'm also using them (and give my dildos a break).  FYI, I am an attorney (barrister).
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to agelesslust : By the way, it would be fine with me and my husband if you would like to add me to your site (we visited it).
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to agelesslust : I totally get into it- I have an almost insatiable need for sexual encounters.  I was diagnosed with what was termed obsessive compulsive sexual disorder- it is caused by complex of issues most are results as a child.  Both of my parents are gone- fuck them now.  My brother and I now have no relationship.
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agelesslust 6 years ago
I'm sure your husband does love it
But what about you?
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Karen-returns Publisher 6 years ago
to agelesslust : I understand I am being used- my OCSD supports my passion and need for men and pleasuring them- many, many.  My husband loves that I am what I am- from the beginning of our relationship.
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agelesslust 6 years ago
I recently watched a BBC documentary on the English artist Tracey Emin.
She was raped as a teenager and thereafter embarked on a 2 year period of being fucked by older men. She said that at the time she believed this was her way of taking back control. Eventually she realised she was the one being used and changed her behaviour.
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