To be used or not.

Tonight I learned what my place on earth is .
I have often wondered if I did go down the road of having sex with others would I go back to the way I was
Well at the crossroads now for sure
Was at a party tonight and ended up in bed with an older guy only to be joined by another as we were getting down to 'it'
The sex was great but at the end I learned they were both friends and had this set up.
They called me everything rude from under the sun and to be honest I still can't make up my mind if I was actually turned on.