Reasons for leaving

Before I try to explain my reasons for leaving, may I say thank you to all my chums out there for all their best wishes and love, great, fun and thought-provoking PM's, fabulous comments on my galleries and videos, and all the erections and ejaculations I have had with you!!

I met my OH in our mid-twenties, and we got married just before out thirties !! Neither of us had been overly successful with relationships, and while both had had some (very) limited sexual experiences before meeting (petting mainly, and not particularly heavy at that !!) we were both virgins on our wedding night. I think its fair to say we managed well enough to start, but sex was never brilliant, she only liked missionary with the lights out under the duvet, no oral, nothing 'pervy' and nothing inserted other than my cock, and only that without enjoyment. I was always tried to ensure she came during our sessions, but could never manage this during penetration, and always needed to ensure her pleasure before (after which she wasn't always interested, leaving me to wank) or after (when, lets face it, I couldn't always react superbly!!) Sex started to die after my first daughter was born, kept alive to produce the second, six years later. After that, my OH didn't even share our bed for six years, before I was grudgingly granted sex every few months.

At the begining 2010, my OH was having to spend time in London on business. Generally, these trips were about every six weeks and usually involved an overnight stay or two to maximise her time there, and I had no question about their necessity and purpose.

After one trip, she mentioned she had run into a chap she'd been at University with, and had had a meal with him, chatting about old times. She said she knew he'd fancied her then, but was involved with another friend, and she felt she couldn't break things up. She admitted she was sure if she had gone out with him, he would have suggested sex, and she would have agreed (this was long before I met her so can't really complain).

However, next vist to London, she said she'd gone back to his hotel room, and they had kissed and cuddled; she said full 'intimacy' did not occur, but that she wouldnt have minded if he'd suggested it. A few days later, she said he'd been in touch and said he was going to be in our area, and could thay meet at his hotel for a couple of days. My OH wasn't telling me this so I could stop her, more to gain my tacit approval for running off withhim for the sex she always regretted not having with him.

To my eternal shame, I'm sorry to say my immediate reaction, based on what I believed I knew of my OH and her prudery, was to treat it as a joke and play along. I admit I got some arousal from the thought of my wife with someoneelse, particularly as he was from a prominent (black) Zimbabwean family (Bbc and all that). Unfortunately when I realised she was serious, it was too late to stop her, and I even ended up taking her to a local garden centre, near the hotel in Chester so he could pick her up. She came home in the evening (for appearances to my daughters) and even got me to screw her, despite having had her lover three times during the day (I had never in (then) 24 years of marriage been allowed more than twice) before he picked her up next morning for another three !! She has said since they had a ground floor room and left the curtains open. Clearly he brought out a different side than I had ever known.

Afterwards, she and I discussed what had happened, and she agreed not to have any contact with him again. I trusted her to do this, and her trips to London resumed, but this time I was assured she was staying with a girl friend/ex-collegue. She agreed to consider more regular sex with me, but this never really seemed to happen. As she was around 'that age', she claimed problems with her lady's plumbing prevented too much (ie any) penetration, and we settled back to, at least regularish, petting and mutual masturbation. I kept asking her to see the Doc over her problems, but wasn't surprised when the prude I knew kept saying she was embarrassed, etc.

During the next few years, I developed health problems with my k**neys and ultimately, a life long teetotaller, I developed cirrhosis of the liver and required a transplant. Part of the problems resulted in blood pressure problems, as many men in their 50's do. Except in my case, it had to be LOW bp (normal bp is generally around 125/70, mine is nearer 95/55, although I have managed to survive 69/38 with out problem !!!) This low bp has resulted in problems achieving and maintaining an erection, so I have to admit penetrative sex would have been difficult, even if I'd been allowed to try.

Fast forward to a couple of weeks ago. My younger daughter announced at the beginning of December she had found out she was expecting. My Granddaughter was born 22 Jan, on the Friday after, I had to go to the Doc's with a chest infection (didn't want to spread germs). My OH was out when I went to the Doc at 08.40, I guessed to see my daughter who was being released from the hospital. After the Doc's, I could have gone home, but chose to go to the hospital

Imagine my surprise when I saw my wife in the hospital carpark (her car was at home when I left but she wasn't) and I couldn't immediately catch her, before she met a coloured gent outside reception at they went towards maternity. I caught up with them at the foot of the stairs, when my wife saw me and started guiltily. The man simply went up the stairs and could have been anyone visiting. My OH and I went to see my daughter and granddaughter, and it was a couple of hours later when I asked if that had been her lover.

I was assured it was, and that my OH had told a mutual friend who had contacted him. I initially accepted this and while I was angry with my wife, accepted it was only friendship. I was rather forceful when I explained how I was unhappy about her contacting her (forcefully to nearly get thrown out of the hospital sadly) but accepted it ast its face value of contact by email with friends at a wonderful point in life.

During the afternoon, however, I started getting e-mails from him saying I should watch what I said or did to her, suggesting to me at least this wasn't just casual friendship. When I asked my OH how often she'd spoken to him since 2010, it came out that for a couple of years she hadn't, but then met up with him again, and had had sex with him on at least a dozen occasions in London since, during the time I was being denied any sort of sexlife on health grounds (her supposed problems, my actual ones). To make it even worse, she confessed that, while not immediately, he was so much better a better lover than me, so much so, that he was able to ensure she was able to orgasm during penetration and even she had even had a multiple orgasm on his cock on at least one occasion. He'd succeeded in pleasuring her in a few shags when I couldn't in 30 years !!

I honestly and truthfully knew nothing of their meetings (OK I know, complete idiot, its always the hubby who'se last to know !!) I'd had a few suspicions they might have been in text/e-mail contact, but had NO suspicion at all of the fact they fucked everytime she was in London,

Anyway, after an initial viscious rant about their actions, I calmed down enough to realise I seriously love my OH enough (discounting the sex) that I don't want to loose her and do desperately want to make her happy. I can change with her help, even if it is a long hard and possibly ultimately thankless task, and have even suggested a 'job-share' situation, where she can still enjoy her 'awaydays' wth him, to keep her sexually satisfied, but hat she spends the (vast majority) of the rest of the time with me and my family (and yes I am being greedy saying ME, and then remembering the family).

As part of the deal to let my OH stay, I have known she has never approved of my interest in porn (or cross dressing, or anal, or oral.....etc, etc, I did say she was prudish...!!) so somehow she'd found my xHamster site (although thankfully not her galleries and videos) and has asked me as part of my 'improvement' to ditch the site, which sadly I am about to.

Please try to enjoy my remaining galleries and videos, particularly that one purporting to be her and her lover, and the recent ones of me.

I will continue to vistit, and would love to think that at least someone out there had uploaded me and the OH onto theair site so they will remain for posterity !!

Thanks again for your support over my time here, I guess 41,000 visitors in less than 250 days aint bad for a beginner......!!!!!!!!!!

Keep looking, keep wanking, keep having fun !