"Dirty sex" and a relationship with a bl

So I just don't get why so man black are cool with a girl liking dirty or taboo sex until they decide they want to try and put her on lockdown and then get all bent out of shape when she still wants it. I've been with a older black man off and on for the last six months and he was cool with me loving random and group sex. I told him from the start I'm never going to be tied to just one mans bbc. I told him that sex and love are two different things and he was all cool with that. In the start he was cool with me being shared and passed around his friends.

Well some feelings developed and I would stay over at his place a lot and we did the things couples do like snuggle and go out and do things plus of course sex. He was cool with all of it and then over New Years he had a party and a four of his friends who I'd hooked up before were there plus a few others I never met. Well he went to go pick up a friend near by who had gotten in a car wreck and left me there with the party. Well after a hour he texted me and told me the police ran him while he was picking us his friend and busted him for tickets he didn't pay and to just send everyone home after midnight.

So I told everyone he was not gonna be back and they all seemed to loose interest and most people left but the four guys I had hooked up stayed along with the two I never met. We had been kinda flirting and talking about having some fun again sometime and it's been so long since I had because he was keeping me on lock down. Well I had a few drinks and I was kinda pissed so I said hell yes, yea you can call me what you want but that's my two,fave things is group sex and random sex.

For me there is nothing better bare sex with a random black man. I know it's fucked up to some people and there is the risk but it's feels so good the rush of it. Same thing with a group, you feel totally powerless and know your nothing more than sex to them and your being used :).

Well anyways like I said I had a few drinks and the last thing on my mind was any type of well protection. I haven't thought about it or birth control in months because he is clipped and I haven't been having any fun for months except with him.

So we have got passed around till the sun came up and everyone was leaving and I was pisses still wasn't home so I said hell with it and went home with one guy and had some fun.

Anyways finally he calls me outta jail and losing his mind. One of the guys told him everything and he was loosing his mind and told me to fuck off. What the hell I mean he knew how I was when we got together and wanted to change me.

So now I'm single again and it's gonna be a long 30 days.