Cream of the Crap: About Porn and Quality
Porn is a disgusting thing. Many people think that way. And though i've had a lot of fun spending (a shocking amount of) my time on xhamster i can still see why:
My first contact with pornography was quite a while ago. Surfing the web at 56k-speed on my fathers computer when i was home alone i came across the first picture galleries of people "doing it". Well, they didn't really seem like real people to me. They were more like ugly a****ls engaged in some inexplicable, perverted actions that my young mind just refused to recognize as "sex".
Since back then i had no idea about covering my tracks my father was bound to find out. He never said a word about it but a few days after i first discovered this surreal world i found all sites i had visited to be blocked.
I didn't bother to search for new ones and instead took my first lessons in love making without being haunted by the visions of gangabngs and moneyshots. Looking back i think it was a blessing. In this respect i really pity todays youth...
Time went by and technology evolved. When i revisited the "dirty corners" of the internet years later it was all about videos (that loaded as fast as an image gallery used to in the 90s). I was experienced enough and couln't be offended so easily but the things i found disturbing in my younger days where still there and still unpeasant. Most "actors" looked as if they were working rather than having fun, "performances" looked even more staged than on pictures and the stereotype ending in the so called "moneyshot" bored me to death. It had even gotten worse as i now had to hear fake moaning and "dirty talk" that mostly consisted of humiliations...
But there were lonely nights and so i accepted the bitter truth that you have to try ten videos to find one that's acceptable. I learned to concentrate on the good stuff and ignore the bad. I decided it was best to stay at one site (yeah, that's xhamster!) and filled my favourites with a lot of acceptable stuff that had only small flaws to ignore. I don't share them with the public because i can't approve of them 100%.
Some people say my taste is just too refined, but i say i deserve quality!
What do you think?
My first contact with pornography was quite a while ago. Surfing the web at 56k-speed on my fathers computer when i was home alone i came across the first picture galleries of people "doing it". Well, they didn't really seem like real people to me. They were more like ugly a****ls engaged in some inexplicable, perverted actions that my young mind just refused to recognize as "sex".
Since back then i had no idea about covering my tracks my father was bound to find out. He never said a word about it but a few days after i first discovered this surreal world i found all sites i had visited to be blocked.
I didn't bother to search for new ones and instead took my first lessons in love making without being haunted by the visions of gangabngs and moneyshots. Looking back i think it was a blessing. In this respect i really pity todays youth...
Time went by and technology evolved. When i revisited the "dirty corners" of the internet years later it was all about videos (that loaded as fast as an image gallery used to in the 90s). I was experienced enough and couln't be offended so easily but the things i found disturbing in my younger days where still there and still unpeasant. Most "actors" looked as if they were working rather than having fun, "performances" looked even more staged than on pictures and the stereotype ending in the so called "moneyshot" bored me to death. It had even gotten worse as i now had to hear fake moaning and "dirty talk" that mostly consisted of humiliations...
But there were lonely nights and so i accepted the bitter truth that you have to try ten videos to find one that's acceptable. I learned to concentrate on the good stuff and ignore the bad. I decided it was best to stay at one site (yeah, that's xhamster!) and filled my favourites with a lot of acceptable stuff that had only small flaws to ignore. I don't share them with the public because i can't approve of them 100%.
Some people say my taste is just too refined, but i say i deserve quality!
What do you think?
13 years ago
In later years when VHS video came out I discovered my parents had a porn video stashed in their wardrobe. By that time I was 14 and my parents were happy to leave me at home if they had to go out for a day and I was responsible enough to be left to look after myself. I used to get that video out as soon as they were gone. I was always careful to make sure I noted where it was at when I began playing it, so I could make sure to put it back just where it was. If my parents were away for a few hours I'd cum or 4 times to that video. I loved watching it and jerking off. At that age I was always quick to reload.
As I've matured my tastes have become more like yours. I appreciate quality made porn. Mostly amateur home made porn. The industry manufactured porn with actors making hyperbolic moans and screams does nothing at all for me.
I'm now 60 and it's really quite an addiction that I've tried many times to beat but can't. I've deleted profiles on sites like this many times thinking this time I'm not going back to watching porn. The longest I've ever lasted was about 8 months in my 20's.But during that period I was having a relationship with a 63 year old nymphomaniac lady that I was sharing a house with. She kept my balls drained day and night, and it was the most a wonderfully erotic period of my life.
The allure of watching porn and feeling the arousal always kept drawing in me back in no matter how hard I tried to give it up. My taste in porn was always focused on younger guys with older woman after my time with my nymphomaniac friend left a wonderful impression on my soul. But for me it's only real sex where the emotions and the climaxes are palpable and real that arouses me these days.
Luck sometimes has it that those brainy sexplosions we share in bodily contact with a respected real Life Lust Love ...
But Better Be as Honest as Hot ... all those perfect pervert three-some MFf's of me were in my idealistic imagination !
I've analysed all the shit which tsunami'd to me as soon as I made that quantum jump from reading & looking pics to 'porn'
In fact, it's the produced bit (99%
I see degrading, cum in her ('slut', 'whore' , etc ) face ... ( cos she can't hide her disgust of this gay dumb Dom ritual )
I never see real arousal among women ('unprofessional' by usa norms ) nor satisfaction, nor any respect for actresses
I see constant quality and originality only at few surviving flicks from Abby Winters, who fled Australia to Amsterdam:
I never see there scenarios, nor directors, nor acting, as the girl(s) decide with camera running what she'll do or show !
I see two generations of men: hence all under 50, who don't know better than to address a woman as whores, cos nude
I very rarely see any seduction, improvisation ... anything which would make look the sex-act on screen a bit like real lust !