Living the dream.

Hello my darlings!
I've been meaning to do this for a while now, write a journal. To write about my motivations and to tell my story. So here is my first attempt!

In the 4 months since I've started doing porn I talked to quite a lot of people online, as you can imagine. Most of them were really nice (thank the fates!), others were... less nice. Some of them contacted me to leave a small compliment simply because they enjoyed some of my videos or pics. Others just wanted to chat or dirty-talk, but unfortunately I usually don't have much time for prolonged conversations so, my apologies to those people. Also there were, of course, people being rude or downright offensive; fortunately I don't really mind because I realize it simply comes with the job. I usually have a little fun with the rude ones, make them feel uncomfortable and if they don't stop I just block them - again I have no time for endless debates. But, more to the point, there were a select few people who asked me what made me choose this line of work. I liked those, because they got me thinking. So I'll talk about this first: my reasons for wanting to be an adult video model! Or porn-star. Call it whatever you wish, i don't really care!

Well it goes like this: you - a normal human being - are born; you grow up and go to school because you're told you must go to school to learn about stuff and get good grades in order to get into a college or university or whatever, study your ass off there too, graduate and get a good job, because that's just how life works. And you believe it, because you're young and naive; so you go to school and get the grades and study hard and get even better grades and finally, after years of having your head stuffed with whatever your country deems as important information, you get to that magical place called University! And you tell yourself: "Now I'm an adult! I'm free to choose my path! I just have to finish this university thing, get a good paying job, and I'll be free to live my life however I see fit!". And you start playing the "study hard and have no life" game played in all the higher learning institutions around the world. You fight and crawl through it, often exhausted and starving, until you barely manage to get to the end. After years of study you finally get your piece of paper that states you know how to do some stuff just in case somebody needs that stuff done! So you cheerfully start searching for that dream job you've been told about, but... surprise! The dream job is just that: a dream. You find out that in reality all jobs have bosses that treat you like trash, all jobs require at least 8 hours of work per day - in fact all jobs imply doing things that you really don't want to do and
often things that make you feel quite bad about yourself. So you search and search for that perfect employment, but after a while you realize it's an illusion and settle for a normal job. And even that is hard to find because there are thousands of people with the same kind of diploma, looking for the same jobs, just like you! So you're happy when you finally get a job doing what you've been taught to do. You again say to yourself that things are going to change now, you're going to have money, you'll go places, see things, have fun! But no! It's still not like that! You barely have money to last you the duration of the month, you come home each day dead tired lay down, watch some TV, browse some social media and go straight to bed. And the next day is the same, and the next one too... etc. You barely manage to save some money to go on a five-day vacation somewhere and realize that your only dream left is that after a whole lot of years of working your ass off you'll probably get to have a pension, sit down, and relax; and that this is all society has to offer you. So you get depressed and you go see a shrink, who gives you some bullshit advice and some pills...
Ok i'm gonna stop here! You get the idea...

Well I say FUCK THAT!!! That's not the life I want! In the words of Futurama's Bender: "I'll make my own life... with blackjack and hookers!" Me and my boyfriend work from our home. We do everything ourselves: filming, video editing, marketing, social media advertising, posting, answering messages etc. Make no mistake, porn is a full-time job! But we do it by ourselves from our home and we know for a fact that every penny we make is the direct result of our work and not whatever an employer chooses to throw our way. We are young, we are good looking and we would really like to live our lives without being told what we must or mustn't do.

And there it is, my first blog post! I'll talk more on this subject in the next one, so stay tuned if your interested! But if you're here for the smutty stuff only, by all means, enjoy my videos and have fun!

Comments are allowed and most welcome! See you next time, darlings!