Letter 01 to MzPrudenceJuris
Dear Mistress MzPrudenceJuris,
As you requested me, I am writing this letter in order to confess all the disobedient things I have done. While I am writing this, I am physically naked as a signal of respect to you. In the following lines I will open up my thoughts also.
I must confess that I have not obeyed you in the last days. On 27th May, I ejaculated by accident while I was edging and that on 2nd July I had an orgasm with pleasure, pouring my milk. Since that day, I have abandoned the tasks you assigned me. I have been squirting my juice all over the place every day. Some days several times, like the 11th of July in which I cum 11 times. I have been edging, calming down and wanking for a long lime (at least 1 hour). Doing that I feel physically satisfied, but after I do it I feel a great mental discomfort because I have not been able to satisfy your requests and tasks. I believe that a man should be allowed to cum after she is satisfied when she wants, this way his behavior is reinforced in order to reaffirm the submission relationship and offering his orgasm control to her.
I want to express my gratitude for ordering me to write this letter. Indeed, it has been a very good exercise in order to arrange my thoughts and think about submission since you started training me. I have been asking myself why I want to give the control to a mistress. This has been the most difficult question and trying to find the answer took me more than I expected. I am a man with a great libido, with a great inquisitiveness and an open mind which likes to experiment new things. I consider it a lifeās gift. As it is a gift, I have to use it with responsibility. I believe that a man feels very lucky if he is able to satisfy a woman. If after satisfying her, he can get his reward, he should consider himself very lucky. With my libido, I would like to ejaculate several times a day. I know this results in low quality semen and lack interest in fulfilling the needs and desires of the mistress. This is the main reason I feel the necessity of reducing my ejaculations and give the control to a woman. I wish she controls me and my orgasms in order to get her satisfaction and, after that, teach me to increase my performance being under her control. I consider very important that she should be able to distinguish between the stupid need of wanting to ejaculate every time and the physiological release need in order to have a healthy sexuality.
I have been looking at a lot of profiles about female domination and chastity. I know there is a lot of fantasy in them, they are a lot of profiles and most of them are very exciting for women and men. The sexual strain it provokes is mind blowing. After having play for some hours and days, it seems that there is a physiological need of releasing a cum load. As far as I have been able to reach in my submission learning, itās not the desire of having and orgasm. With just a ruined orgasm after wanking with two fingers only (with the only intention of extracting some cum drops) or a prostate milking. After doing that, I always feel I am in the same excitation level than before doing it, but with the full load ready for the moment she wants to get it. It is like having the arousal deposit full, while avoiding it to blow up and making him to stay at the highest arousal level. As the number of days I am in chastity increases, I need a stronger support from the mistress. I would like to receive some loving slaps and caresses while reminding me why I should be kept in chastity.
I like to play games in my sexual relationships, I feel it as a great way to keep the fire because it increases the implication of all the participants. Lately, I have been very annoying requesting you some games and punishments. I apologize for it, the Mistress should be the one who can decide the games and the punishments. After thinking a lot about it, I feel a little insecure because I donāt know what type of requests you will demand me. I would like to try new things, but I have some limitations: I am in a shared apartment, this means that I am not able to make noise and that I have limited availability due to lack of privacy in some periods of the day. I expect your patience and understanding of my current limitations. I like to feel soft pain in some of the games, I enjoy it in the way that I get excited by it receiving such kind of pleasure and, at the same time, I am aware of she can punish more hard if I misbehave.
I follow several mistressā profiles in order to know even better about the female domination. Discarding the professional ones I have found a great variety of mistresses.
Some of them want to have a sexual toy in order to enjoy it every time she wants, others like to feminize him teaching him to enjoy love with sophistication and or to make him discover his bisexuality. Others just want to keep it in chastity for the rest of his life while she enjoys bbc. Others like to fuck him with a strap on or they like to stretch his asshole as much as he can. Others like to humiliate. Others love to do several thingsā¦ I feel I need to know more about you in order to fulfill better the tasks you assign to me.
For the last months I have perceived that you are a very straightforward and assertive mistress. I found it mind blowing but I miss the opportunity to know more about you and your thoughts. I would like to come back to the interesting conversations we had at the beginning. I know you are busy most of the time, might you spent more time with me if I deserve it?
I suppose that reading this letter might make you angry or upset with me. I have tried to show my most intimate feelings. I beg you for forgiving my errors. I am conscious that I have been a very bad TiH and I have to improve a lot. For doing that I need the support of the HOH in order to train and lead me. I have been a very bad submissive but I feel the necessity of improve every day. For me it is not an easy task, I am sure that living in different countries in different time zones makes it even more difficult. I still believe it is worth to keep making the effort.
Sincerely yours,
Sextudent
[2015/07/12]
As you requested me, I am writing this letter in order to confess all the disobedient things I have done. While I am writing this, I am physically naked as a signal of respect to you. In the following lines I will open up my thoughts also.
I must confess that I have not obeyed you in the last days. On 27th May, I ejaculated by accident while I was edging and that on 2nd July I had an orgasm with pleasure, pouring my milk. Since that day, I have abandoned the tasks you assigned me. I have been squirting my juice all over the place every day. Some days several times, like the 11th of July in which I cum 11 times. I have been edging, calming down and wanking for a long lime (at least 1 hour). Doing that I feel physically satisfied, but after I do it I feel a great mental discomfort because I have not been able to satisfy your requests and tasks. I believe that a man should be allowed to cum after she is satisfied when she wants, this way his behavior is reinforced in order to reaffirm the submission relationship and offering his orgasm control to her.
I want to express my gratitude for ordering me to write this letter. Indeed, it has been a very good exercise in order to arrange my thoughts and think about submission since you started training me. I have been asking myself why I want to give the control to a mistress. This has been the most difficult question and trying to find the answer took me more than I expected. I am a man with a great libido, with a great inquisitiveness and an open mind which likes to experiment new things. I consider it a lifeās gift. As it is a gift, I have to use it with responsibility. I believe that a man feels very lucky if he is able to satisfy a woman. If after satisfying her, he can get his reward, he should consider himself very lucky. With my libido, I would like to ejaculate several times a day. I know this results in low quality semen and lack interest in fulfilling the needs and desires of the mistress. This is the main reason I feel the necessity of reducing my ejaculations and give the control to a woman. I wish she controls me and my orgasms in order to get her satisfaction and, after that, teach me to increase my performance being under her control. I consider very important that she should be able to distinguish between the stupid need of wanting to ejaculate every time and the physiological release need in order to have a healthy sexuality.
I have been looking at a lot of profiles about female domination and chastity. I know there is a lot of fantasy in them, they are a lot of profiles and most of them are very exciting for women and men. The sexual strain it provokes is mind blowing. After having play for some hours and days, it seems that there is a physiological need of releasing a cum load. As far as I have been able to reach in my submission learning, itās not the desire of having and orgasm. With just a ruined orgasm after wanking with two fingers only (with the only intention of extracting some cum drops) or a prostate milking. After doing that, I always feel I am in the same excitation level than before doing it, but with the full load ready for the moment she wants to get it. It is like having the arousal deposit full, while avoiding it to blow up and making him to stay at the highest arousal level. As the number of days I am in chastity increases, I need a stronger support from the mistress. I would like to receive some loving slaps and caresses while reminding me why I should be kept in chastity.
I like to play games in my sexual relationships, I feel it as a great way to keep the fire because it increases the implication of all the participants. Lately, I have been very annoying requesting you some games and punishments. I apologize for it, the Mistress should be the one who can decide the games and the punishments. After thinking a lot about it, I feel a little insecure because I donāt know what type of requests you will demand me. I would like to try new things, but I have some limitations: I am in a shared apartment, this means that I am not able to make noise and that I have limited availability due to lack of privacy in some periods of the day. I expect your patience and understanding of my current limitations. I like to feel soft pain in some of the games, I enjoy it in the way that I get excited by it receiving such kind of pleasure and, at the same time, I am aware of she can punish more hard if I misbehave.
I follow several mistressā profiles in order to know even better about the female domination. Discarding the professional ones I have found a great variety of mistresses.
Some of them want to have a sexual toy in order to enjoy it every time she wants, others like to feminize him teaching him to enjoy love with sophistication and or to make him discover his bisexuality. Others just want to keep it in chastity for the rest of his life while she enjoys bbc. Others like to fuck him with a strap on or they like to stretch his asshole as much as he can. Others like to humiliate. Others love to do several thingsā¦ I feel I need to know more about you in order to fulfill better the tasks you assign to me.
For the last months I have perceived that you are a very straightforward and assertive mistress. I found it mind blowing but I miss the opportunity to know more about you and your thoughts. I would like to come back to the interesting conversations we had at the beginning. I know you are busy most of the time, might you spent more time with me if I deserve it?
I suppose that reading this letter might make you angry or upset with me. I have tried to show my most intimate feelings. I beg you for forgiving my errors. I am conscious that I have been a very bad TiH and I have to improve a lot. For doing that I need the support of the HOH in order to train and lead me. I have been a very bad submissive but I feel the necessity of improve every day. For me it is not an easy task, I am sure that living in different countries in different time zones makes it even more difficult. I still believe it is worth to keep making the effort.
Sincerely yours,
Sextudent
[2015/07/12]
9 years ago
I am sad for disappointing you. I will give the best of me for the next assignment if you decide to order me one task.