Will tonight be the night??
An excerpt from my journal… taken back when i first met my hubby
Will tonight be the night, will I allow him to have his way , with me with us . To give into my passion ,my lust for him for us for me. Will I give into my lustful desires the desires of my heart & my wants . . He loves me in heels &, my thong.. And that's it .. He knows I live in their house ..but I want him to know I want him ,oh how I crave him .. How when I touch myself it's only him I think of .. His hands all over me... forceful yet so safe .. I'd hand my body to him knowing he'd take total control ... Making me crazy enough to let go and possibly break the pipes again.(that was the first time he make me squirt.) I get so self conscious . Does he think there's something wrong w me . He tells me it turns him on.. Can I be sure ? Can I trust him.. He says that he loves the way my mouth feels around his cock ... But I get so self conscious again wondering if I'm doing it right for him .. Am I enough for him .. He say yes.. But I have reservations .
He'll be coming soon … Soon they will be here. Do I dress for him? When he comes in do I just kneel. Before him ..unbutton his trousers and bury my face in his wonderful crotch .Do i lift my ass up high in the air so he can take me at the same time... These are things I've never done I've seen in movies ,can I do it .. It's not me .. I want to but I'm so self conscious .. I'm afraid I get embarrassed ..he says I shouldn't but I do .. I look for him to guide me &take control but not too much .. .. I want to please him more than anything ...,. What do I do ?
Will tonight be the night, will I allow him to have his way , with me with us . To give into my passion ,my lust for him for us for me. Will I give into my lustful desires the desires of my heart & my wants . . He loves me in heels &, my thong.. And that's it .. He knows I live in their house ..but I want him to know I want him ,oh how I crave him .. How when I touch myself it's only him I think of .. His hands all over me... forceful yet so safe .. I'd hand my body to him knowing he'd take total control ... Making me crazy enough to let go and possibly break the pipes again.(that was the first time he make me squirt.) I get so self conscious . Does he think there's something wrong w me . He tells me it turns him on.. Can I be sure ? Can I trust him.. He says that he loves the way my mouth feels around his cock ... But I get so self conscious again wondering if I'm doing it right for him .. Am I enough for him .. He say yes.. But I have reservations .
He'll be coming soon … Soon they will be here. Do I dress for him? When he comes in do I just kneel. Before him ..unbutton his trousers and bury my face in his wonderful crotch .Do i lift my ass up high in the air so he can take me at the same time... These are things I've never done I've seen in movies ,can I do it .. It's not me .. I want to but I'm so self conscious .. I'm afraid I get embarrassed ..he says I shouldn't but I do .. I look for him to guide me &take control but not too much .. .. I want to please him more than anything ...,. What do I do ?
9 years ago
, NO I needed him inside me. No boundaries, no inhibitions I was his,and he was taking full advantage of it. He spread my cheeks, and dove in. Licking my soaking wet pussy as he fingered my ass until my body was shaking. At one point he had me in the missionary position pounding me good like only he can. I never had feelings like this before , I so needed this, I needed him. I hungrily attacked him, offering myself as a sacrifice for his carnal desires. He flipped me over and starting fucking me doggy style. I started talking dirty to him and he became a mad man and I loved it.I told him,take me,take me like you want.
The way they do in the movies you watch, he leaned over grabbing my hair and whispers in my ear "I've waited a long time for this girl... I'm so glad you finally arrived".
I told him you haven’t seen anything yet. From now on this will be me. Who ever when ever whatever you want. The words just came out of my mouth, all my secret desires were told in the one moment.
I never felt him fuck me so hard with so much love and passion.It was beautiful like we were teenagers all over again. I loved it .. He told me I was like a wild animal, that he craved me like never before and that he loved me . was excited about the new me.
As we were making love/ fucking he pushed his index finger in my ass, then two ,then three. Oh my god .. It felt sooo good All the while he's working his pussy Working it hard.. And I'm making him work, because I'm bucking back with everything I've got. He pulls his 3 fingers out of my ass and I feel for a moment that it's somehow a let down,only to feel something bigger being pushed in.. I shouted and he said relax, I’ve got you. I just placed a butt plug in ... Oh my god it was big and wide, I thought it was going to tear me apart . He stopped pulled me closer holding me tight assuring me that it will be ok and that the pain will subside. He started kissing my neck softly, squeezing my nipples. Gently biting my neck , pulling me back by my hair With all of that go