Hell`s bulletin (what`s new)

Hi there.
I think today is a good day to write something.. I`m living in a Germany now, and i`m working there. is a hard work for one sissy being as me. i hate this, but i need monay because i have to paid for my flat otherwise they just kick me out of there, so here i am.

Its very difficult to get used to this new situation. working with all of this straight manly guys, pretending to be one of them, i hate all of this.
but i survive, i must, but the price is high.

where is my place on this world?

i thinking about it when i do all this phisical stuff in work, my mind is blowing. i`m thinking about universe, dark stars, intergalactic travels, gods, and meaning of existence in our lifetime.
life is so short, and no one wants to be old. i have a couple of years to live proud, young, healthy and adorable to people. After this.. who knows, i think is like a slowly dying, day by day founding new cracks on my face, white hairs, or getting bold
well all of this well right before me, for now i must take the karma in my hands and paids for few years of quiet and peaceful life.

there is a brighter site of all of this. Finally i getting a much more money then i was paid in Poland. This is good news for you all, because i can buy some new stuff that i need.

I always wanted to meet someone not from Poland, and have a relationship, now its more possible.
not man, not woman, not cd/tv/ts, just someone, whats the difference? just someone who will love me, with true feeling. i think its too much these days.

so.. thats all of news from my hell. i forgot to tell you, i`ve missing my pets :(
mother earth bless you
Pagan