Heavy Heart

As I sit here late at night, with only a kitten by my side.
My heart is heavy and I am not quite sure why.
Afraid of getting rejected once again,
To lose the one person I feel more than freindship for,
who is worried she might have to whore,
How can I help this beautiful woman I adore?
Asking the creator above, all I hear is the cooing of a dove.
Praying aloud, I ask for my friend to find her way,
for some help some how some day.
I want nothing in return, not even sex, just heal her oh mighty one!
Then oh then I can just see her eyes shining bright in the sun .
Longing for that little smirk, that hits my heart with a jerk.
I pray oh mighty Creator heal my friend, make her well,
tear my wings off bend my halo,send me to hell, I want to see my friend just doing well.
Her smile lights a room, just like a exon spotlight miles away.
Her voice, blows me away; dripping sexiness even when she is half asleep.
Her voice drops me down to my knees , filling me with joy , oh so deep.
To see her in pain, worried of others, before herself feels wrong,
yet I know that is her choice her swan song.
Yes my heart is heavy, I can not lie; im worried that my friend wants to die.
Depressed she might be, if only I could find the right words to tell her how much she means to me.
Hurt, yes am not in pain while teardrops fall from my face like rain, just worried over my beautiful friend.
How she will live, how will she survive? I just want to be at her side untill the day she cries,
Enough is enough oh God heal me , help me show me the way. You sent this man into my life filled with strife, now show me how to have a better life. That day will fill me with delight when I see her as someone's loving wife.
She deserves love and happiness to , for her life has been full of p*o.
This is all I want out of this life, my friend happy, healthy and being a good wife.

Published by wolfrider2121

10 years ago

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wolfrider2121 Publisher 10 years ago

to halinaplays : Why thank you darling for your saying that you love me, I will wait for your heart to heal from Him.

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halinaplays 10 years ago

to wolfrider2121 : well, my friend if there was a battle to be my closest friend on this site you beat the competition to a pulp. He claimed to love me and he didn't even say good-bye. I am always going to think of him as a con-artist. He was not who he said he was. Yet I have a guard up against falling in love again. I am sorry if I pulled away. Dave confirmed my suspicions that men can leave at anytime. I know you are different. I love you very much but I will take time before a man gets to be my boyfriend. They leave me. I will stand on my own too feet or simply sit down.

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wolfrider2121 Publisher 10 years ago

to steevo27 : Dave my friend, your right about our friends voice even half asleep her voice made me weak in the knees , while turning me on to no end; tillI had to take matters in hand. If she could only know how sesensuous her voice can be, our siren for you and me. You say rhyming is hard for you, just come to me out of the blue.
yes I care for our lady friend and want her to be safe, that I can not deny but you stole her heart o so long ago. how could I interfere and hurt two people I know? Not in my nature this is no lie, your good friend what I have seen, thank you for reaching out to me.
im going to close this out, work in the morning 7 to 3.

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wolfrider2121 Publisher 10 years ago

to halinaplays : First things you must never feel inadequate around me, your bi polar is what makes you truly unique and makes you one of a kind.
Gods plan for you is not finised my dear, I feel deep in my bones. Your going to set this world on fire this I know something special is going to happen that is true for it has been blasted in my head right out of the blue.
If you think one darn minute I pity you, then my dear friend; you are screwed. Never once have I thought this way, not on any day.
inferior my ass that is not true, the only way you could be called that is in height department when comparing me and you.
you ask for acceptance you have said, my dear look down and around, how many men on here have done just that? Those of us that found you time and time again, have done just that now dont be a silly ass.
Do you not have the men that have stood true, through thick and thin right next to you? I call that acceptance, now do you?
As for being a shitty wifeas you think, has it ever crossed your mind that the man would love you and not miss a blink? If he loves you then he must love all of you , the temptress down to the pissed off shrew, the happy times on thru the self hate, just loving you even when it abates.
Now you see why I can see you as a wife no matter what the strife, fighter you are I dont deny but I have seen the loving woman buried inside.
You are so full of self pride, that those that chose to go along with the ride, up and down you may go but you do it gracefulyas only you can never forget that you are loved few, every day I see something new when you speak, that I have to sit quietly with out even a squeak.

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halinaplays 10 years ago

dave is right. You have a gift that mixes prose with poetry. I encourage you to keep pumping out your special blend of thought provoking insight with just enough rhyme to engage a reader instead of overwhelming them. You have read my poetry and my dedication to rhyming is so strong it is hard to convey a message. Sometimes to fulfill my need for a precise rhyme and rhythm I use childish words when I long to share deep thoughts that will never rhyme properly. Once again your words touched my heart very deeply. I pray every night for my brain to heal. Yet I know it is god's plan to force me to endure hardship in order to be a stronger woman. A lot of times I use the analogy that a soldier who lost a leg in battle can't rationally pray for god to grow him a new leg. Instead he must alter his prayers and pray for an easy transition learning how to walk with a prosthetic. I say a similar prayer. I ask for people to treat me as though my amputation doesn't make me inadequate compared to other people. I do not pray to win a marathon. I pray I don't get blisters and I find shoes that fit. Most of all I pray for acceptance. I do not want to be pitied or considered an inferior person because of my illness. My mentor had a leg amputated and he walks just fine with his prosthetic. I know people feel sorry for his loss. Losing that leg did not stop him from marrying a beautiful woman who helps him run a thriving business. I can't predict the future. I have one year to survive before a judge hears my plea for disability and a lawyer to guide me through the process. I plan to go before that judge with no wig, dressed like a homeless person, sedated to the point I'm drooling, barely coherent and obviously seriously unfit for any job. I don't think any judge could see me like that and not feel compelled to rule me disabled. During the year I wait for that trial I may be forced to do things no human wants to admit they did to survive. I'm tough. I'm beautiful. I'm fearless. I also give a world class blow job. Sucking dick for money will not cause me shame. Letting a man fuck me for money will not lower my self-esteem. Holding up a sign begging for money won't break my spirit. I do not ache for a husband or children. I would probably be a shitty wife that no man could handle because of my illness. My mentor walks just fine on a prosthetic. As long as I have a keyboard nothing will phase me. Friends like you and dave motivate me to keep working hard even if my prosthetic causes so many blisters I feel like staying bed bound.

I like this! More evolving than the prior. You have a certain gift that is clearly being more and more refined as you continue to write. I wish I could write in this style! It's very difficult and needs to come from a creative mind. You and our friend have this type of creative mind. Your words are heartfelt and they will be appreciated and concerning for the one you write about. You are so right about the voice. Hauntingly and erotically enchanting is how I describe that voice. Never have I been aroused by the voice of a woman until I heard her! I just wish I could reach out more than I've been able to the past week. You look out for her and want her safe. You're a good man, Dan. That's about as good as I do when it comes to writing rhymes

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