Longing and Desire and unexpected surprises
The past five years have been a trial and struggle not only for myself. Also, my love who lives with me and friends that have stuck it out through my temper tantrums and avoidance issues I've had.
Not sure if it will pan out for us but making the Deans List, the list of credentials, and the diplomas do give me a sense of strength, power maybe, ability for certain. I can now train an amoeba to have a behavioral response. A single cell organism. My closet confidants have always given me the drive to look and question. What is the next step in the myriad of discoveries to intrigue. To enhance our lives, to satisfy desire not yet felt.
I have also learned biology and physiology of humans and delved into sexual experiences. No Jeykl and Hyde stuff but more of an understanding of the cascade of hormones and molecules, neuron receptors and transmitters, pain as a reflex feeling to heighten the release of oxytosin, hmmm the hormone to bond us in our pleasure for each other, dopamine, the bodies natural opiate release,touching sensitive areas where nerves bundle together and when aroused, manipulated, secreting the flow of internal lubrication so that there will be more and more manipulation. Strokes, hard strokes, punishing, clamped, driving the minds thresh hold into NIRVANA. Body trembling, shuddering as if in a seizure, legs so weak one cannot stand, nipples that will be erect for the next two weeks. A badge of the pleasure showing the intensity of the excitement received.
I shared knowledge with a close circle who were sharing with me. We became people that had a glow constantly. The pharmacist, the EMS, two psychologists, musicians,poets, artist, my dear friend who created star charts. Many lost weeks, time was a variable that had no bearing on the output of our efforts to reach another plateau. Time had value only when it affected our endeavors. Like a fine wine, a single malt scotch whiskey. Spirit walks with your spirit guide who had other tasks to ensure your success and comfort.
M'Lady had the devil in her this night while we attended the social hour to congratulate the new grad students and success in their new projects. The profs and mates were in attendance some looking stunning and the curved smile of wanton desires, this could be an pleasing evening and mystikal also. Memories of Led Zeppelin Concerts dancing like fruit ripe for consumption.
Not sure if it will pan out for us but making the Deans List, the list of credentials, and the diplomas do give me a sense of strength, power maybe, ability for certain. I can now train an amoeba to have a behavioral response. A single cell organism. My closet confidants have always given me the drive to look and question. What is the next step in the myriad of discoveries to intrigue. To enhance our lives, to satisfy desire not yet felt.
I have also learned biology and physiology of humans and delved into sexual experiences. No Jeykl and Hyde stuff but more of an understanding of the cascade of hormones and molecules, neuron receptors and transmitters, pain as a reflex feeling to heighten the release of oxytosin, hmmm the hormone to bond us in our pleasure for each other, dopamine, the bodies natural opiate release,touching sensitive areas where nerves bundle together and when aroused, manipulated, secreting the flow of internal lubrication so that there will be more and more manipulation. Strokes, hard strokes, punishing, clamped, driving the minds thresh hold into NIRVANA. Body trembling, shuddering as if in a seizure, legs so weak one cannot stand, nipples that will be erect for the next two weeks. A badge of the pleasure showing the intensity of the excitement received.
I shared knowledge with a close circle who were sharing with me. We became people that had a glow constantly. The pharmacist, the EMS, two psychologists, musicians,poets, artist, my dear friend who created star charts. Many lost weeks, time was a variable that had no bearing on the output of our efforts to reach another plateau. Time had value only when it affected our endeavors. Like a fine wine, a single malt scotch whiskey. Spirit walks with your spirit guide who had other tasks to ensure your success and comfort.
M'Lady had the devil in her this night while we attended the social hour to congratulate the new grad students and success in their new projects. The profs and mates were in attendance some looking stunning and the curved smile of wanton desires, this could be an pleasing evening and mystikal also. Memories of Led Zeppelin Concerts dancing like fruit ripe for consumption.
12 years ago