What was the first time you pleasured yourself?
I started touching myself around the age of 8 or 9. I realized that when I touched around my vagina that it felt good. I hadn’t really touched or discovered my clit yet at that point. We had an upstairs room that was unused because it was always boiling hot in the summer and fucking freezing in the winter. That room was full of junk. Old toys, old books and there were also magazines. Some of them were Playgirls (all 80’s era men which I’m not attracted to at all). I was more interested in the ones with girls (I am bisexual and have lesbian fantasies, but I do prefer men). The magazines with the girls in it had a lot of lesbian action in them which would make me horny, but being 11, I wasn’t sure how to sate the horniness so I’d ignore it. I did end up finding some sex toys in my parents room. I thought about trying to insert the vibrator that had a penis attachment . I cleaned it and tried to but obviously, I was too tight and I gave up. I didn’t realize that sex was more than just sticking a penis in a vagina. I also had no idea what and orgasm was or how to accomplish having one. I was working on a project with a friend one day and her parents were out. We went into their room to show me some stuff she had found. She found pics of her parents having sex, which would have made me ill if it had been of my parents. They had the same exact sex toy set that my parents had. She also found some porn videos in her parents closet. We put one on and in it, the lady was rubbing her mound (it was hard to see exactly what she was touching because the lady in it had a bush) but the lady in the video seemed to enjoy it. When I got home, I went into the bathroom and tried to mimic what the lady was doing and I realized it did feel really good. I then discovered my clitoris. I still didn’t really understand my clit’s function, and that its there just for pleasure. I’d touch it every now and then. I didn’t find out really about orgasms until I was 12–13. I would touch and rub my clit, but I was so impatient and would give up after a while. I knew what vibrators were, but knew I couldn’t buy one. I even went searching in my parents room for their sex toy kit, but couldn’t find it ( I discovered where it was months later). When I was 14, I got an electric toothbrush for Christmas and I got an idea. I went to take a shower and took my toothbrush in the shower with me. I decided to put it on my clit. I am really glad I decided to sit down to do it because I think I would have fallen if I hadn’t. It felt incredible and then it happened. My whole body tensed up and when the release hit me, I was in absolute ecstasy. I never used the toothbrush on my teeth. I then started to use a hairbrush handle to penetrate myself and it was amazing. An electric tooth brush was my companion until I was 20. My friend took me to a sex store for the sole purpose of buying me a few different vibes and dildo’s. I was a virgin until I got married at 28, but I masturbated constantly. My favorite ended up being a rabbit vibrator. I have a plethora of toys now.
1 year ago