Cock lust

So I was on an extended trip with no access to the internet until Amsterdam. I noticed there were no disclaimers on the hotel wifi and bam.. big black cocks were back in my life. Still, I am on the road but at least relieved a bit. Then I got home and its been a non stop porn fest and I can't stop jerking off and chatting with Trannys, hookers, sluts from everywhere. I can watch bbc fill white holes all day long. In fact, I do these days. Which beings me to .. my pussy.

Once I was finally alone for more than an hour, I was able to properly jerk and lube up my black dildo. After the last relapse story, someone told me that I had finally discovered that my ass was a source of pleasure.. and I took that to heart. This time I was able to lube my pussy and finger myself to open up, then off to the shower with my wallbanger. "Jamal" easily popped into my hole after just some positioning and bam.. I am riding cock. Slowly at first but I am really concentrating on how much I like that cock opening up my insides. I am stuffed and feel my ass cheeks pressing the glass, which means I have 8.5 inches a cock in my pussy. Then I start fucking. Slow, deep and long. My god I love it. After a minute or two I pop off because I am afraid I am going to cum .. and I don't want to yet.. it feels too good. I calm down and pop that dick back in my slut hole. The video is encouraging me to fuck cocks because I am a faggot .. submit your pussy to real men and fuck. I have to pop off again and calm down again. But now I feel empty and pop right back on to long stroke my cunt again. Both hands on the bench, bent over taking a big cock deep and raising my head to take Leon (my lighter ten in dildo) in my mouth. I am spit roasting myself and the video is assuring me its alright, you have always been a faggot. There is no undoing it.. no going back.. you are a sissy cock sucking whore who lives to serve cock. Suck it.. fuck it.. say it out loud so your neighbors can hear... "I am a cock sucking whore that needs to be fucked by real men. I ride dick. I swallow cum. I am a fuck whore. Fuck me harder. Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me like you own me".
I squirted like a bitch all over Leon but the intent of cleaning that cum off that 10 inch cock.
Then.. it was over.
Wipe up. Clean up. Get dressed and get on with the day.
Funny thing is 1) I slept like a baby all night for the first time in months and 2) short of some lube dripping from my pussy later that day (yes, I had to wank again an hour after the above because I was so turned on.. so I smiled when I found my pussy was already wet the second time) there were no physical repercussions. I think I may have trained my pussy to take big cocks.
What do you think?

Tammi