My sense of femininity

Femininity has always been close to me ever since I can remember. I am a phenomenon to myself - why does nature sometimes make these kind of "mistakes"..? What is the purpose?

It is not just some sort of fetish thing - I do not wear stockings, dresses, skirts to turn me on - It is undoubtedly something deeper, I believe somehow gender-brain connected. I do not have to wear stocking to feel feminine. I do not have to make make up to feel feminine. These are instruments that merely help me to expose my inner femininity. What really turns me on sexually is the opposite of me: masculinity. Masculinity only. Natural dichotomy turns me on only: my femininity --- your masculinity.

When I was little, I loved sneaking to my mother's wardrobe and go through her beautiful dresses, skirts, high-heels. I loved playing dolls with my girlfriends. I have never could really considered myself as a... man. I've always been skinny, I've always been far from masculine naturally. I used to be mistaken for girl quite regularly back at the time.

I grew up in a conservative, catholic environment in Poland. In my teens, I thought - Ok, probably I am gay and I must learn somehow to accept that - I am turned on by guys only, after all. Yet gay men like their masculinity - they don't contemplate sex change, I believe, do they..?
This conclusion was the point I eventually realized... I am trans.
This conclusion was cleansing - and liberating.
Now I am on the right track to be proud of that. :)