My Story...

My first hint of being bi caught me completely by surprise in my mid 20's. I was meeting a business associate at a hotel on a hot summers day so we took our drinks to an outside table which was near to an outdoor pool. As we were chatting an older guy with a fit body walked passed me in tight speedos and I immediately felt a rush of excitement and started to feel aroused.
I quickly disguised my reaction and carried on with the meeting but when it was over I said my goodbyes in the car park and then returned to the pool to see if I could see this guy again...unfortunately he had gone but the memory of that moment was the subject of many many wanks from then onwards!
I suppressed my sexuality for many years until I discovered online sites in my mid 30's and proceeded to chat with similar guys online. I found this comforting (it wasn't just me!) and very arousing but I didn't actually meet someone until some years later.

As a married man, I didn't want to cheat on my wife so I held off taking things further than just chatting and swapping pics. Then one day I confessed my fantasies to my wife and she reacted by encouraging me to realise my fantasies and to meet someone for sex.
Quite frankly I couldn't believe my luck!
So I arranged to meet a guy I'd been chatting with for over a year called Trevor. He was 15 years older than me with a fit body and a massive cock. We met whilst I was away on business and started by having a shower together...that was when I kissed a man for the first time and I was surprised how much I enjoyed that!
We then moved to the bedroom and sucked and played with each others cocks for a while until I rolled him over and entered his sexy bum. I slowly fucked him but it didn't take me long to cum and he seemed to really enjoy it.
He wanted to fuck me but there was no way I would have wanted to take his massive cock...great to look at, fantastic to touch and suck but there was no way I was letting that monster near my arse!!!

I really enjoyed it but the next day I was full of guilt which wasn't helped by my wife telling me she regretted giving her permission and wishes I hadn't done it...she said she thought it was disgusting!

So I Ieft it alone for a few years.

But then the feelings and fantasies got the better of me again and I started contacting men again...usually my age of older and usually married. I have nothing against gay guys but they rarely turn me on like a straight/bi guy does.
This eventually led to an 18 month liaison with a guy who I would meet while we were both away in London. We were both in the same boat and were keen to experiment and explore our sexuality together. We did everything over that time...We sucked each other off and swallowed, we frotted, massaged each other, mutual wanking, sexy lingerie and even fucked each other.

My first anal experience wasn't great, it was far too painful to find any pleasure from...but we didn't use lube and I don't think I was ready for it at that time.

Fast forward to now (2022) and I find myself fantasising about being taken by a sexy 50+ yrs man. I read a post on here (wish I had saved it as I can't find it now) from a guy in the North East of England (who previously lived near Chester) who described being fucked bareback by a gentle gay guy and how it gave him a massive orgasm (without cumming). This was such a turn on to read and exactly what I feel ready for now.
I desperately want to feel a stiff cock inside me and I want to feel it pulsating and hot cum shooting into me.

Can you help me with that?