AM I PORNSTAR MATERIAL?
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Anyways i contacted this chick with big gappy teeth, big round hulk like shoulders, big clown like nose, limp un-styled stringy hair, figure like a plank of wood, who can't dance! (that's the picture of her above!)
Listen i know i'm no catch guys and not everyone's cup of tea i'm a nerdy girl into cosplay with limited looks but who tries out different looks to experiment and look different from time to time hence all the selfies! (im also a lazy bitch when it comes to make-up!) unless going out somewhere (or if i have the time) i wear very little make-up at times if any so i'm not a glamour bitch and nor am i hating on this girl! if i were doing porn it would have to be low budget rough and ready limited productions that are basically gonzo type videos based around rough extreme and abusive sex which is cool with me as i LOVE that stuff!
So i contacted this girl very politely and respectfully like i do with everyone on xhamster (even though some don't deserve it) to ask for some advice and possibly some help! I thought as long as i'm humble and respectful there would be no harm done and that i wouldn't be offended if she didn't get back to me as I know a lot of girls in the business don't like to talk to fans or other girls asking for advice (why i do not know maybe its a ego thing or that they are just to good and perfect to talk to regular people)
The reply i got back made me wish she didn't contact me as it made me feel like shit...I was basically told in no uncertain terms that i was ugly and that my look was obviously fake! i thought to myself 'well half the t-girls in porn wear fake hair, fake nails and implant's' like most regular girls! and even though i haven't been blessed with a lot i naturally have a feminine body with C cup bwoobs, big lips, big eyes, and long eye lashes! but why should i be different from any other girl out there by trying to enhance what i have??? i try to wear what suits me and what looks good on me hence i dont over do the make-up as i dont wanna look like a drag queen (no disrespect to drag guys) as that's just not me!!! but i'm sure that if a paid someone to style my 'fake' hair and do my make-up that i could look like a glamour bitch??? but dont they have make-up personnel within the porn industry anyway??? or at least another girl there who can help do hair and make up???
She then went on to say 'im NOT giving you any of my contacts for you to fuck' and 'i'm not going to help you', that 'i would have to find out on my own' like how she did!!! The first thing i thought and then said to her was that 'i'm not looking to 'fuck' any so called professionals and that i just needed to be 'pointed in the right direction' or 'guided'. that's all! i'm not looking for anyone to hold my hand or do it for me! i'm sure my talents can speak for themselves!!! the second thing i thought was 'you fucking bitch'!!! It's ok for you to fuck your way into the industry in some dirty grimy alleyway for no money but not for others??? really now???
I' am trying not to let this get me down too much, but what do you guys think? besides naturally liking and being breed for extreme twisted and perverted sex do i actually have what it takes to do porn??? And why do so many trans girls have this 'attitude' with people that borders on discriminatory behavior with other girls just because they've had all the enhancements and treatments!!! fuck me its hard enough being black, trans and/or androgynous without being hated on or looked down upon within your own community! gee fucking whiz!!!! If i'm talking shit please tell me!!!
Thanks for reading guys love ya lots and hope this hasn't put anyone off them putting their cock deep in my throat I LOVE THROATING COCKS WITHOUT HAVING TO DO IT FOR MONEY!!! x x x
5 years ago
