Why All the Jealousy?

If you haven’t already figured me out already...yes, I love black guys and their black cocks. I’ve been fucking them exclusively for...humm...it’s 2021, so about 12 STRAIGHT YEARS. Yes, no white or Asian cocks in the bunch since my freshman year in college. If you need details, read my posts from the very beginning, it’s all there.

So going back to this jealousy thing. I know I haven’t responded to any messages in almost 2 years. Sorry about that, but I had a lot of shit going on in my real life.

Now that everything is better, I finally got to answering over a thousand messages from all of you. Granted I was happy to hear from some of my old friends, you know who you are, and even some new ones I made. But for the most part, almost 90% of the messages were from white and Asian guys sending me photos of their dicks...I’ll be honest, not all were small and shriveled, some looked pretty big to me...They were also telling me that I should fuck/suck them and to forget about BBC. They really seemed to have a problem with white/Asian girls...especially this little innocent Asian girl (*me)...who went totally nympho for BBC. They also can’t grasp why in the world we would ever agree to the BBC or Queen of Spades Commandments. Yeah, you know which ones I’m talking about. If not, go look it up.

Some of them thought that I just hadn’t tried the right white or Asian dick, yet. Well, If you read my posts (part 3, to be exact) I fucked well over a hundred guys BEFORE my first BBC. Initially, I thought some of those early guys were pretty good, but I had no real frame of reference. That was, until I had my first BBC. He was by far the biggest and thickest cock of my young sex life. In fact, to this very day, he STILL is probably the biggest BBC I’ve ever had in my life. And believe me, I’ve had my share of monster sized BBC! But here’s the thing, besides his sheer size, he knew exactly how to fuck me right and make me cum continuously. No white or Asian guy EVER came close to that.

After that, I started exclusively fucking black guys, especially those that I suspected had really big dicks, notably the tall muscular guys and athletes. Once you’ve had something that big and that good, you don’t want anything else. You just want more of it. It’s just a fact.

But aside from the size, most of the black guys who I’ve been with knew exactly how to fuck and make me cum hard, multiple times. They knew how to get my juices flowing to the point where I didn’t want them stop, even after I had sucked and fucked their cocks, and swallowed every last drop of their sperm. They knew precisely how to treat a girl right in order to release her inner nympho self.

One of my bulls, I’m just going to call him “Junior” (Yeah, you know who you are. Miss ya!). Well, Junior wasn’t the most well endowed of my bulls. Surprise, surprise. He had a better than average sized cock, 7.25”. He wasn’t the thickest either. But the guy was a such a smooth talker. He complimented me, brought my defenses down, and said everything sweet that I wanted to hear from a guy. It didn’t take long before I was kissing and making out with him. He actually got me so excited that I wanted to make the first move...and I often did when it came to Junior.

On top of that, he was a Tongue Jitsu and Finger Fu master. He could make me cum with the slightest of touches and make me beg for more each and every time. And he hadn’t even gotten to my clitty or pussy yet! But when he did, he was amazing and always hit the right spots in my pussy. So much so, that I would be begging him to pound the shit out of me with his cock...and boy did he ever. It’s one thing when a guy pounds the shit out of a girl, but it a whole ‘nother thing when a girl begs or commands the guy to do it because she wants it! I just never got that feeling from most white and Asian guys.

Now getting to that BBC/QoS Commandment thing...I’m going to share just MY perspective on this. Remember now, this is just ME, I’m not speaking for anyone else, and I’m sure most of you girls have your own personal feelings about this topic. But like I just said, this is just my own interpretation, so don’t get your penises in a knot while trying to generalize this. Ok?! So here goes...

With a lot of my bulls, I honestly have privately taken the BBC/QoS Commandment/Oath, or whatever you want to call it. Since being blacked for the first time, I haven’t had sex with ANY men other than black men. When I used to go to black college parties, I NEVER wore panties, even though I love my thongs. I’ve been shared a COUNTLESS number of times among black men, not in a gang bang situation (that’s for another post, sorry), but from being passed on from one bull to the next in the same night...in some instances, I had sex with over a DOZEN bulls. I have only given my ASS to black men...though only for a few times...Junior was one of them. I make sure they cum at least TWICE in me...usually in my mouth, but also in my pussy. I ALWAYS swallow. I NEVER let them wear condoms...that’s why I am on the pill. I have gotten on ALL FOURS in their presence at dorms and parties. I do call them “DADDY” and “MASTER”. I do tell them that they OWN ME. I BEG for, SUBMIT to, and WORSHIP their cocks. I have sucked and fucked black men who I’ve barely even met. On some occasions I’ve even had sex black men only because my bulls TOLD me to. I own a lot of Queen of Spades jewelry (toe rings, anklets, pendants, earrings, etc.). I also have multiple Queen of Spades tattoos on my body...which you can also read about in my posts.

So there, I buried my soul and yes, I am a Queen of Spades, BBC fuck toy, cum slut, who has love and devotion for BBC. I’m sorry Daddy (my real dad), but your innocent little girl willingly spreads her legs for black men because she’s addicted to BBC and black cum. *sob*.

My bulls love it and love me for it. They see it as form of power and control and really get off on it. It’s a total turn on for them. But other white and Asian guys see this as ‘buse. They think I’m looked down upon and being made to do things against my will. Well, I have news for you. Between me and my bulls, a lot of this is a form of S&M role play...without the whips, chains, and leather straps. It’s not ‘buse when we both get pleasure out of it. It’s not ‘buse when I intentionally and knowingly agree with my heart and mind to obey and serve my bulls with my body and soul. I give them love, respect and the means to make their throbbing cocks shoot their pent up sperm. They in term, give me attention, affection, and the means to give me multiple mind blowing orgasms. Not to mention, it provides an outlet that allows me to bring out my inner nympho self that only wishes to suck, fuck, and swallow black cum.

I can’t speak for the other women here, but whatever their reasons are for their love of BBC, I support them. I hope they can support me, too.

I’m sure if there were a group of women who loved white and Asian men the same way we love BBC, white and Asian men would probably have the same affinity, love, and understand for the situation. So, what are you waiting for guys, go out and find those women! That’s something way more constructive to do than getting jealous of the situation and trying to tear us down.

So please don’t send me any more white and Asian dick photos and try to sway me away from BBC. Thank you. Also, please don’t send me any BBC invitations, either. I already have my bulls, and that’s enough for me.