Invested Sissy

As a guy who KNOWS he wants the sissy experience and probably lifestyle i actually seek to go about differently then maybe most others....i have always LOVED the idea of being part of something bigger , a group , a sect , a club , ...i imagine myself FINALLY finding a place .where sissies of long standing and experience accept novices very eager to be "invested" into the lifestyle...i would arrive ..looking like a guy . and would be meant at the door by one or two gurls who would welcome me ...then i would be lead into a drawing room of sorts with gurls standing around in a circle,,,i would be asked to strip naked ...as i stand there i would be given a full body shave down ...then just have make up and lip stick applied ...a dildo would be brought out in which i woulld be encouraged to suck ..then slowly worked into my boi pussy..after this intro ritual i would be lead into room full of all kinds of choices of womens attire , wigs , heels etc ...once fully dressed i would do runway /model type of ritual ...after this the gurls would once again gather in t circle and present thier cocks which i would kiss along with a kissing of the lips...finally they would present their in house alpha stud who would seal the ritual with full a full out breeding of my sissy ass....after this a all slutty decadent dance party , probably never happen..BUT if i had my choice i would LOVE for experience very similar to this as possible