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hey, yea.... I never thought I would fuck around with a guy. After I got divorced I started slutting around on dating sites, fucking a lot of different women and throwing them back. It was interesting, I would have hot streaks and dry spells. It was around 2008 and the economy went to shit, I wasn't working. If I was in a dryspell I got into long edging sessions. As in, 10 or 12 hours of bringing myself to the edge and stopping. I think I saw all the porn. It led me to craigslist personals. looking at posts about wanting to hookup. I am not sure how I crossed the line into the M4M. It was a little out of boredom, but there was also the novelty and taboo nature of it. The married straight guys caught my interest. I would spend hours scrolling through adds about guys who were trapped in sexless relationships and looking for relief. It wasn't just the cock picks, it was the stories that got me hot. It was my newest addiction. It was such a rush. It took me a while to stray outside of the fantasy and into the actually hooking up. But once I started hooking up with guys? It was like a switch was flipped. All the guilt and shame and the I can never do that again... Just to be doing it again the next morning. It was so fucking intense. The hunt.... I really became a slut. mmmmmmm. It was wild. I met a girl who I thought was "the 1" and I slowly pulled out of the behaviors that led me down the path. I didn't have the time anymore and the red hot fire that seemed to just get hotter and hotter while I was in it started to cool.I hooked up a few more times after I met her but pretty much stopped. When we broke up I was relieved when I found a no strings married cocksucker to ease my pain and swallow my cum. There wasn't a lot of chemistry though. I hooked up with one more guy a couple of weeks later, He was a massage ther****t. I got a great massage and we sucked each others cocks, eating each other like food, but he wasn't my type either. Then Trump ended Craigslist personals and I haven't been in the game since. It was a good run. Maybe someday the fire will rise up again...