3. I Got To Find Out If I Was Loved
Well i had a few weeks to realise i had to do something to find out if any one loved me or was I just a loser like those 2 in the Grantham College said as they forced themselves on me.............
16 years and 2 days old, it was a Saturday ........
Dressed in my hidden lingerie, trousers and jacket covers well.... went into Lincoln and to the toilets near the HighBridge , High Street ...just down the few steps......
I know seedy.....but I needed to find out if I was attractive or if I was just a BIG LOSER.
I set up in 1 of the toilets.
Took off my outer clothes....I was shaking........
Is it to be HATE ?
Looking in a stained mirror.
I see a pretty young lady .........is that me?
Nice in black stockings, Black bra, suspender belt and also Panties to match, 2 inch ladies shoes to finish off the ensemble..
I open my bag...........Durex, small bottle of Cresta, Napkins, Vaseline(jees never use that again it heats up and can make you sore) 10 inch bamboo stick for protection ....just in case to stop getting hurt, also a folded bag which i put my trousers, shirt, jacket and shoes in.
Hearing someone.......I open the door....what am I doing?
My need to find out wins.
I lean up on the door side.....and try to look sexy........."hey lovey ", I say
Things begin to blur with time what exactly happened, i remember a little.
Well in the 2 hours on that Saturday i had sexual liaisons with 8 guys...... I remember.
4 I wanked off.
3 I sucked.
The last sucked me off, he also stuck 2 fingers in my ass as he held me close.
He was very nice and kind as were all the others.
1 had a sexy chat and asked if he could see me again and bring me a present.
He also asked if he could call me the same name as his wife ...(that was a bit strange at the time .but has happened many times after).
Some wanted to kiss...that was the first time I had tongues shoved into my mouth. (still seems strange even now)
I looked into all their eyes ....and for those moments I was with them.......I got the answer I had so dared to dream of.
They loved me............(not love as later i did with my wife).....but it wasn't dirty or sordid........they didn't force me to do anything I didn't want to ........................unlike sadly weeks previously at college.
Varying in size their cocks mostly had foreskins (i had touched and sucked a friend 2 years earlier..ask me about it if you want)
Their hearts were mine....I saw I had some special effect on them
Sounds so big headed ...............but I don't mean it to be.
They all wanted to give me something..(i was pleased....and I said ok only so I could buy some supper on the way home and a taxi......i had some money left to buy replacement panties etc later.
Vary amounts 50 pences ...Ā£1 .....Ā£2.....
I got Ā£10.50.............total.........didn't look upon it as being a whore or anything else other than what I had suggested as a thank you
Then put my over clothes over lingerie after cleaning up the cum that was around me and swilling mouth out for the last time....
Close to 10pm went to Broadgate chippy and felt great ......
I sat in the back restaurant, basically alone eating a lovely fish and chips supper ...and my head was spinning.
What Had I Achieved?
I WAS LOVED...........I Cried with joy in my bedroom after the taxi home.
What next?
Well I may write about that.........
16 years and 2 days old, it was a Saturday ........
Dressed in my hidden lingerie, trousers and jacket covers well.... went into Lincoln and to the toilets near the HighBridge , High Street ...just down the few steps......
I know seedy.....but I needed to find out if I was attractive or if I was just a BIG LOSER.
I set up in 1 of the toilets.
Took off my outer clothes....I was shaking........
Is it to be HATE ?
Looking in a stained mirror.
I see a pretty young lady .........is that me?
Nice in black stockings, Black bra, suspender belt and also Panties to match, 2 inch ladies shoes to finish off the ensemble..
I open my bag...........Durex, small bottle of Cresta, Napkins, Vaseline(jees never use that again it heats up and can make you sore) 10 inch bamboo stick for protection ....just in case to stop getting hurt, also a folded bag which i put my trousers, shirt, jacket and shoes in.
Hearing someone.......I open the door....what am I doing?
My need to find out wins.
I lean up on the door side.....and try to look sexy........."hey lovey ", I say
Things begin to blur with time what exactly happened, i remember a little.
Well in the 2 hours on that Saturday i had sexual liaisons with 8 guys...... I remember.
4 I wanked off.
3 I sucked.
The last sucked me off, he also stuck 2 fingers in my ass as he held me close.
He was very nice and kind as were all the others.
1 had a sexy chat and asked if he could see me again and bring me a present.
He also asked if he could call me the same name as his wife ...(that was a bit strange at the time .but has happened many times after).
Some wanted to kiss...that was the first time I had tongues shoved into my mouth. (still seems strange even now)
I looked into all their eyes ....and for those moments I was with them.......I got the answer I had so dared to dream of.
They loved me............(not love as later i did with my wife).....but it wasn't dirty or sordid........they didn't force me to do anything I didn't want to ........................unlike sadly weeks previously at college.
Varying in size their cocks mostly had foreskins (i had touched and sucked a friend 2 years earlier..ask me about it if you want)
Their hearts were mine....I saw I had some special effect on them
Sounds so big headed ...............but I don't mean it to be.
They all wanted to give me something..(i was pleased....and I said ok only so I could buy some supper on the way home and a taxi......i had some money left to buy replacement panties etc later.
Vary amounts 50 pences ...Ā£1 .....Ā£2.....
I got Ā£10.50.............total.........didn't look upon it as being a whore or anything else other than what I had suggested as a thank you
Then put my over clothes over lingerie after cleaning up the cum that was around me and swilling mouth out for the last time....
Close to 10pm went to Broadgate chippy and felt great ......
I sat in the back restaurant, basically alone eating a lovely fish and chips supper ...and my head was spinning.
What Had I Achieved?
I WAS LOVED...........I Cried with joy in my bedroom after the taxi home.
What next?
Well I may write about that.........
4 years ago
