How does it feel for you…

… when you have that desire.. or that need to have something… Someone… slide their hard cock inside you?

Lately, and by that I mean about a year now, I’ve been having stronger and stronger desires for full on Gay sex. I’ve messed around with a few guys in my teens and twenties. Lots of kissing and licking and sucking and cumming. Extended sessions of foreplay you could say. But we never fucked.

One guy rimmed me for so good and so long I thought I might cum if he kept going. He didn’t... but it gave me an “omg what is that feeling Coming from my hole.” It was like a ‘need’ or an ‘itch’. I don’t know how else to describe it. Something that comes to the surface when I get horny or after playing with myself for a bit. Anyway… that ‘itch’ I think has been with me for the last 25 years and is only now resurfacing. It’s still a huge fantasy to fuck a sexy guy but Now… I’m pretty sure I think I want to get fucked too. Not just by anyone, but … someone who I think is hot and sexy (with a small cock)

I’ve always loved playing with or having my nipples played with and licked and sucked… and lightly nibbled too. It never fails to get me hard… then rock hard and dripping. It’s my usual ‘go to’ when I start watching porn or just a solo session in front of the mirror. I Love how quickly I get hard sometimes just from my nipples. I love that I drip from it too. I love other guys like that too btw.

Now though, after a shower and a shave and I’m smooth and in the bathroom and see myself in the mirror. Just freshly moisturized and feeling so smooth I lightly stroke my nipples and feel my cock growing. My hands slide all over my chest caressing each nipple slowly… and my back arches a little. My cock is throbbing and my nipples are hard and my ass arches a little depending how I’m tweaking my nipples.

But as I play and touch myself and get those sexy awesome sensations in my cock, and Now playing with my nipples sends these new and wonderful sensations to other parts of me and I just automatically start slightly pushing my ass out… imagining things. Omg is my ass getting horny?

I’m not sure what exactly I’m feeling though. Am I feeling Gay. Or sometimes feminine… and gay? (wearing panties)
But I’m feeling … that I’d like… not like – I need…I Need to know what a smooth sexy gay cock would feel like… touching my smooth ass. Or maybe even a delicious feminine Cock.

And the more I play with my nipples, my cock dripping on my legs, my ass is feeling so sexy and… needy? I slide my hands all over my ass cheeks and feel wonderful things. My fingers graze along the crack and then I pull my cheeks apart a little as my hands are caressing more of me all over and back to my ass again and I can’t help but pull my cheeks apart… arching my ass out even more.
Then I rub and lightly pinch my nipples and I moan and then slowly feel my ass again.

This never used to happen. I never used to feel like this. Sure I had some fantasies, but…

Sometimes I have this image of a smooth sexy guy behind me, maybe in panties with a yummy bulge… with a very smooth sexy cock making his panties all slippery and wet and sliding between my ass cheeks. Just gently pressed against me and I’m pushing my ass out and back at him and then stand upright and feel his smooth chest on my smooth back as I turn my head and kiss him. Just gently pushing his cock against my ass and crack. I know I’m feeling SO gay. And then my hands roam my body and touch my ass and caress it and play with my cheeks and pull them apart a little… pushing out and back and…

But now? Sometimes I get so horny and my ass is… craving something. Maybe it’s a finger? Or a toy…Or a sexy smooth cut cock? Unnnngh! In my virgin ass… My smooth tight hole?

I’m your average straight looking/ acting. I can be as manly or ‘hetero’ as the next guy. No one knows my thoughts though. Sure I haven’t dated in a long while, but that doesn’t mean anything. Yes I want to be naked and hard and do gay things with other guys again …and lick and fuck their sexy ass.

But sometimes when I get feeling like this. When this ‘need’ comes over it’s just different. I’m feeling it from two perspectives sometimes.

From a Gay perspective…
I’ve had so many bi and gay fantasies all my life. Lately more and more and almost exclusively it’s usually about Cocks. Back then I had a lot of fantasies about being in the middle of two sexy guys and letting them do all kinds of naughty gays things with me. Or my day being the bottom boi in the 6 boy orgy. Sucking a hard cock while being fucked by another and loving all the cum in me and on me.

But actually getting fucked has never been this close to the surface before. Not as reality.
My mind and body seem to desire it like my 20 yr old self with all those same slutty gay thoughts I had then. And seeing twinks in porn now… and I imagine I’m the slutty fag riding that cock and sucking the other one while cumming all over my lover from being fucked deep.

And then sometimes… another perspective
Sometimes after a shower when I’m just shaved and in panties and I’m feeling like this... mmmmmmm feeling.

Seeing myself like this in the mirror. Smooth in panties. Checking myself out a little… checking my ass… sticking out a little and a big wet spot bulging in the front… I start to feel feminine.

And that ‘itch’… that ‘need’… starts again and my nipples are rock hard as I pinch them and this feeling just zooms through me and through my rock hard cock and centred around my ass… my hole. It needs to be touched. And then I wipe up some of my precum onto my finger and I slide it all over my hole and it feels like a warm wet tongue. Mmmmm.

And then sometimes I wonder…”is this what girls feel like when they get horny and their pussy is craving for… something hard inside them?

And it then I think… “mmmmm it feels so nice touching my pussy”

What?! wtf? Why did I think that? Omg…
Half my brain says “who says that?” the other half is LOVING the feeling of my slippery wet finger playing with my ’pussy’… and the ‘itch’ starts.

I’ve played with myself and even made myself cum hands free with a skinny little dildo I have… OMG what a feeling!!! A finger will feel good and my little dildo will feel really nice too… but more and more the ‘need’ is for something real.

I don’t know how to say it but it feels “…like my ass already knows that a smooth sexy gay cock would feel So fucking amazing sliding inside me…”

… and here we are.