My true life, the begining

I guess from the beginning I've always been attracted to easy/loose women. My first girlfriend cheated on me many times. I can't say it was a turn on then but I always stuck around. It wasn't till my mid 20's when I discovered how much of a turn on it was thinking about watching my wife fuck other men but I kept it to myself. I'd read penthouse letters an others like it and fantasize about it. I also discovered swingers magazines. I was fascinated with the swingers mags. I'd see a few couples who'd be looking for black men and I really couldn't understand why, but then it hit me. It was so taboo, naughty an everything else. I was hooked. From then on it became my biggest fantasy. Some of the penthouse letters would tell how the husband watched an would eat his wife out afterwards. I kinda thought this gross at first but again it became my fantasy. No one called it a creampie at least not then. I searched for video's of this type but there were none to be found and very few interracial videos either. I was very hush hush an kept everything to my self. This all happened well before the internet. I approached my wife about swinging but she was a no go on that. I found out later she thought I only wanted to fuck other women, if I'd known that...lol We got some new neighbors and it turned out she was an escort. My wife an her became good friends and before I knew it my wife came to me and asked what I thought of her escorting. I was totally shocked, she was about the biggest prude I'd every met. I was honest though and told her what I thought an she should really think about it. A week later she asked me again and I gave her my blessing. I was pretty excited about it really but latter when I asked her about things she would tell me that was private and wouldn't talk about it. One day she opened up about it an I asked her all the dumb questions like how big the guys were an did she like fuckin them. She did say she always came. I asked if she let guys cum in her an she said no way not ever. Aids had just become news then so... I did tell her I thought that would be hot an she asked why. I told her it was the final taboo, an another guy cumming in her was hot an sex with condoms wasn't really sex. She did say she let one guy cum in her that was a regular though. I told her it would be hot if she came home with some guys cum in her. I told her I wanted to see it and might even lick her pussy. She got pretty grossed out by that and told me that was the sickest thing she'd ever heard an how could I think of something like that. It made me feel pretty small but I got over it. Eventually she ended up owning the escort service. She made tons of money but it all went to nails, hair, jewelry, cloths, and cocaine. She'd be gone for weeks at a time and finally I said enough and took a job transfer south. We got divorced.
This is the first part an I will try to tell the rest of my life as a cuck an perv without all the make believe bullcrap.