2021 thus far...
Well so far 2021 has been the worst year of my life so far! After 10 years being together with the woman i thought i would truly spend the rest of my life with, she walked out on me for a "pretty boy" online because the grass is always greener on the other side right? Forget the fact that they've never spoken on skype or face-time or video chat...or the fact that he lived in the United States...only to find out 4 months later that he was GAY! LMFAO!
The break-up was rough enough but we were also splitting the costs for an apartment as well! Being on assistance i couldn't afford the rent myself & it effectively left me homeless by the 20th of Feb (little cold outside to be homeless) Before the date came to pass, i reached out to several groups that help homeless people in the hopes they could point me in the direction of shelter that i could afford. I was lucky enough to find a place relatively close so that i could continue seeing my family doctor & maintain the same pharmacy for all my prescriptions.
For the first week, everything went smoothly (or so i had thought?) I had brought enough food with me when i moved in that i could've ate/fed myself for at least a month. Unbeknown to me, my roommate went through my bags of food & shoved what he wanted in the cupboards....the second week his friend (who is an alcoholic) moved in & things began to turn. Generally i keep to myself just to avoid any drama or any "issues" that may arise. I got a rude letter from my roomate basically asking me to help around the house more, but that i was also eating eveyone's food as well? The only food that i was eating was that which i had brought in...BUT i digress...i began doing more around the house as asked & soon i was doing most of the housework myself!
3 days after i paid rent on the second month he served me with an eviction notice citing i was hoarding beer cans (i had a bag of empties that i turned in the day before he served me) then more food accusations & other non-sense excuses...i certainly feel like i'm a square peg that's trying to be forced into a round hole AKA i don't fit in here pretty much! There is an open-door policy almost to the point where it's a frat-house every weekend but i'm supposed to be ok with that? Or his drunk buddy blasting music at 2am? The lady who was nice enough to find me this place was shocked & said she would try to locate me another place again! Being on assistance i cannot afford alot & i don't have money for damage deposits so it pretty much screws me again! Seriously considering putting things in storage & just "roughing it" in a tent through the summer & fall in order to save money....
Trying to keep any form of a "positive" outlook thus far has been laughable to say the least! It would be great if a few "gurls" got together to either buy or rent a house together so that we could all have a safe place to live, safe place to host, safe place to dress, etc. I'm still looking around for affordable possibilities and/or storage costs as well...just trying to figure out what would be best in the short term & also the long run as well! I guess i need to win the lottery or find a "sugar-whoever" that would love me for being me and would stand behind me ( no pun intended lol) to catch me if a falter!
Anyway...that's enough of a Rant for now i guess lol! Sorry for being a bit of a downer, but i felt this is a perfect place to "vent" as it shows that we're all human & occasionally reach out to vent/rant/rave and to look for support from other people who can relate or who might be able to "lift my spirits" a bit. The support i've gained on these sites has helped me through some rough emotional times in the past & i've been there for others in their time of need as well....what goes around comes around as they say! Hopefully things will get better as i don't see how they could get much worse to be honest lol!
The break-up was rough enough but we were also splitting the costs for an apartment as well! Being on assistance i couldn't afford the rent myself & it effectively left me homeless by the 20th of Feb (little cold outside to be homeless) Before the date came to pass, i reached out to several groups that help homeless people in the hopes they could point me in the direction of shelter that i could afford. I was lucky enough to find a place relatively close so that i could continue seeing my family doctor & maintain the same pharmacy for all my prescriptions.
For the first week, everything went smoothly (or so i had thought?) I had brought enough food with me when i moved in that i could've ate/fed myself for at least a month. Unbeknown to me, my roommate went through my bags of food & shoved what he wanted in the cupboards....the second week his friend (who is an alcoholic) moved in & things began to turn. Generally i keep to myself just to avoid any drama or any "issues" that may arise. I got a rude letter from my roomate basically asking me to help around the house more, but that i was also eating eveyone's food as well? The only food that i was eating was that which i had brought in...BUT i digress...i began doing more around the house as asked & soon i was doing most of the housework myself!
3 days after i paid rent on the second month he served me with an eviction notice citing i was hoarding beer cans (i had a bag of empties that i turned in the day before he served me) then more food accusations & other non-sense excuses...i certainly feel like i'm a square peg that's trying to be forced into a round hole AKA i don't fit in here pretty much! There is an open-door policy almost to the point where it's a frat-house every weekend but i'm supposed to be ok with that? Or his drunk buddy blasting music at 2am? The lady who was nice enough to find me this place was shocked & said she would try to locate me another place again! Being on assistance i cannot afford alot & i don't have money for damage deposits so it pretty much screws me again! Seriously considering putting things in storage & just "roughing it" in a tent through the summer & fall in order to save money....
Trying to keep any form of a "positive" outlook thus far has been laughable to say the least! It would be great if a few "gurls" got together to either buy or rent a house together so that we could all have a safe place to live, safe place to host, safe place to dress, etc. I'm still looking around for affordable possibilities and/or storage costs as well...just trying to figure out what would be best in the short term & also the long run as well! I guess i need to win the lottery or find a "sugar-whoever" that would love me for being me and would stand behind me ( no pun intended lol) to catch me if a falter!
Anyway...that's enough of a Rant for now i guess lol! Sorry for being a bit of a downer, but i felt this is a perfect place to "vent" as it shows that we're all human & occasionally reach out to vent/rant/rave and to look for support from other people who can relate or who might be able to "lift my spirits" a bit. The support i've gained on these sites has helped me through some rough emotional times in the past & i've been there for others in their time of need as well....what goes around comes around as they say! Hopefully things will get better as i don't see how they could get much worse to be honest lol!
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