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It's a Wednesday, not a weekend... I'm pulling another all night edging and denying session for Porn and my Goddess... There are few people on line...just the sound of my whimpers, the sounds of Porn fucking, the fapping of my pantied, beta dicklette...the when I submit another tribute to my Findom This is the silent scream of beautiful Porn addiction, the pathetic quietness of desperate, chronic masturbation. No one to encourage you, no one to take you deeper...just Porn, the night, and the undeniable urge to fuck your fist, deny your cummies, and cramp your balls... This is t… Leer más

I was asked the other day if I'm still beating my beta dick and masturbating as much as I was a year ago... more... Goddess Porn completely owns me now. I am paying more for Porn and Findoms. I am spending more time jerking off - staying edged and denied because it keeps me desperate for more Porn. I found that if I cum, I lose the tension that keeps me loving Porn and abusing myself for hours. I can't have that...it's disrespectful to Porn. I am deliberately stroking to women but edging to cock so that I further fuck up my sexuality. I have bought a set of wank panties and bras that I spe… Leer más

Porn is making me edge and stroke to more blasphemy Porn. Porn has made me start wearing my wank panties and bra to church - the used ones from the goon fest the night before. Porn is making me edge in the car before church. Porn is making me leave the service to stroke in the bathroom and go back in with my leaking beta stiffy. Porn is making me perv and creep the women at church. Porn is making me take the money I would have spent on church, and giving it to my Findom instead I love Porn for fucking me up so much...I hope she hurts my soul… Leer más

New panties for my denied beta cock and balls New bras for me to torture my nipples New high heels to make me a beta bitch Viagra prescription so that my beta dicklette gets and stays hard even when I don't want it to Over $3000 to my Findom Another 30 days of denial and my Findom's cum eating instructions for me Beginning my eighth year of pussy-free My wife beginning a six month contract that will have her away from home most of the time - and cucking me Pink chastity device on its way Praying to Porn every day Fucking myself up more. Falling deeper. This is right.… Leer más

My Findom made it clear - I needed to suffer, edge, and goon for her all day Sunday - the Porn Sabbath. Now in my eighth hour of fist fucking... 1. I edged and gooned for four straight hours with no lube - dry - until my beta dicklette was not just sore with constant stroking, but red, dry, and cracking under the continuous assault. I took before and after pics for my Goddess. 2. I then pantied (and bra'd) up my pathetically abused dick, and began the next four hours of fist fuck flogging. By this time, my balls were so cramped that I had to perch on the edge of my seat so they wouldn't touch… Leer más

I am married, and pussy-free for almost six years. This is my wife's choice. She travels for work and cucks me on most trips. I stay gooned, pantied, fucked up, addicted, denied, and living like the beta loser I am. Every couple of months, my wife lets me officially cum (sometimes I lose an edge and ruin it). Two days ago, as she sat watching TV in the living room, I was allowed to sit next to her and pull my beta dicklette out through the fly of my shorts. She showed no skin, cleavage, or even interest. She told me that I could, "do my thing" if I felt I had to. I stroked my beta dicklett… Leer más

32 days of no fucking cumming. So mindlessly gooned out for Porn - all day long think about stroking, all night long I stroke. This is Porn bliss. This is Porn heaven. This is the salvation Porn promises to those who willingly stroke themselves senseless, who become less so Porn can become more. Pulling an all nighter tonight with more planned next week. I need to combine suffering with the near constant triggering that a month of routinely edging and denying has brought me. Not cumming is one thing. But, combining it with Porn worship has put me in a near constant state of depraved arousal.… Leer más

I am now on my second sleepless night in four days devoted to edging my beta cocklette and deny my worthless balls. My record in three sleepless nights stroking in four days. The exhaustion is wonderful, but it is the despair and depression that is the best. Knowing how tired you are, becoming almost physically ill...and then forcing yourself to stroke anyway - the deliberate choosing of Porn and self-abused over self-care is so delicious. The key is getting in, and staying in, the Goon or Bate Zone...where your cock takes over, where it is constantly edged, where the hours slide by. Let th… Leer más

In a few months I'll be six years pussy-free. My wife has been actively cucking me for the last three years. Porn addiction has filled every facet of my life. I routinely edge for hours in bra and panties. I am becoming the beta I was born to be... Beta Loser Beta Cuck Beta Porn Addict Beta Loser I need to get worse...… Leer más

After 17 days of no cumming, and almost eight hours of constant gooning, I knew what I had to do to prove what a pathetic, Porn addicted, beta-cocked, loser I was. I had to take all that tension, all that rotting, watery, weak, beta cum, and let myself go over the edge to...just dribble. So I put my laptop on the back of the toilet with Pornhub and Mistress T looking at me, jerking a cock into my face in the video, telling me what a faggot I was. I pulled my little, beta, goon stick out of my panties, tweaking my nipples through my bra. I knelt in front of the toilet, putting my small worm on… Leer más

My pathetic beta cock is twitching and as big as it's ever going to get just pulling out the panties for tonight's goon session. Another pair of panties stolen from my mother, my 17th day of edging without cumming, my 14th goon session in these panties without washing them. My worthless dicklette knows it is going to be imprisoned in these nasty, crusty, stained panties for another five or six hours of relentless beating and masturbation. And it loves it. It revels, twitches, and leaks, as the rough, crusty, yellowed fabric that surrounds it becomes soaked with yet another night of endlessly… Leer más

I love looking down at my little, pathetic, beta cock, knowing how I'm going to abuse it all night. At work I wiggle it around, I flick my little, worthless, balls - denied for days and weeks on end. Limp, flaccid...I know it will spend the whole night being swollen, edged, abused, pantied, and denied. Nothing brings me greater joy than ending another goon session, exhausted, poorer, more pathetic, and my useless goon stick denied, reddened, sore with being beaten, slowly going limp in defeat and failure to achieve an orgasm. In the morning, I will pee and look at it again...innocently hangi… Leer más

No more than three hours a sleep in a night for the last week. Have missed half my work deadlines. Stopped FB or any other social media. Haven't cum in 15 days - staying denied. In debt for Findom. Doing the only thing I'm good at...pulling up a pair of panties and stroking my beta cock for hours and hours of Porn, endlessly edging and denying.… Leer más

A few months in, a few hundred dollars in, countless gooning hours in, never ending stroking and edges in...and my Therapy Queen's programming, training, and therapy are making me more addicted than ever. I think about Porn all of the time, and I think of Tributing my Queen all of the time. Thinking of Porn triggers desperate jerks for my Queen, thinking of my Therapy Queen triggers desperate jerks for Porn. I love her demands for Tribute, I love her demands for me to sink deeper into Porn. I love her demands for me to act like a bigger loser than I am. I edge to the physical act of paying he… Leer más

Finally did it...after years, have begun spending my money on my beautiful Goddess, Porn. Have allowed myself to be ensnared by my Porn Ther****t, @therapyqueenjenny. Paying her to further mind fuck me for Porn is the best thing I've ever done... unnnghhhhhhhh… Leer más