Frustration

Although I'm engaged to a wonderful woman with an amazing sex drive and fulfills my every need I can get very sexually frustrated when I get high and get this horny. All I can think about is fucking and getting fucked. When I'm geeked up I love having my ass played with and fucked hard. The only problem is that I've never actually been fucked. I've only used toys. Yeah I've been with men before but I was always the top. I feel sad today because I just want someone to put their dick (or strap on) in my ass.