My sexual transition from bi to gay for black men
I am writing this in the hope that other married men can understand they are not alone with their desire for sex with men.
In all candor I believe that my homosexuality was always there but for years I hung on to the bisexuality label as a buffer. And even now, although I have a sexual need for men, I still have a strong emotional connection and love for my wife; however, I feel no attraction to or sexual desire for any other women. Does that make me sexually gay but emotionally straight?
As a teen I masturbated to body building magazines, even before I had any sexual experience. Sex started in my early teens; I was the guy on his knees sucking cock usually of older boys, and later in college sucking off the more masculine types. I was that go-to-guy who would eagerly suck and swallow. I was very shy around girls, so never dated. I had only been with one older man which started at 16 and continued through my first year of marriage.
Throughout our marriage we entertained men for both of us. You could call it swinging, or hot-wife, or cuckolding, whatever the label, it worked for both our sexual needs. Plus we both had a voyeuristic enjoyment seeing each other having sex. We advertised in Select Magazine for swingers as a bi couple seeking men, or as a bi couple seeking bi couples for gay / lesbian sex. Over the years my description in the ads went from bi, to very bi, to more gay then straight. Very early on it was obvious that my sexual ability with my wife increased significantly when a man was in bed with us. Since my wife loved two men, that was the primary sex we had. With a cock in my mouth I could really fuck her. Plus she was noticeably more sexually aroused being with two men.
My wife had a voyeuristic passion for watching gay sex, so we started inviting gay men over and I went from sucking cock, to doing everything with gay men, and my wife became a masturbating fiend. She loved inviting Dominant Gay men over to discipline and use me, which the more I had, the more I wanted. We also went through a period of her having just lesbian sex and me having just gay sex. Throughout the years, my wife I and were very much in love, connected emotionally, with us seeing sex as an escape from reality, living our perverted fantasy.
Looking through this post I really did not say anything about how going black. I have posted elsewhere about my first time here >>> https://xhamster.com/posts/9708698
When I met my first black man I had been with quite a few men and had a preference for men. But I still clung to the bisexual label in my head. The post I linked above tells what the sex was like. So here I would like to share my feelings about him. That night after he left all I could think about was him, his sexy black body, yes his cock deep inside of me, but with him it was more than just cock, it was his touch, the way he treated me, my attraction was way beyond cock. I wanted him more than any man ever. When he called me his faggot I knew he was right and I could finally accept who I am.
In all candor I believe that my homosexuality was always there but for years I hung on to the bisexuality label as a buffer. And even now, although I have a sexual need for men, I still have a strong emotional connection and love for my wife; however, I feel no attraction to or sexual desire for any other women. Does that make me sexually gay but emotionally straight?
As a teen I masturbated to body building magazines, even before I had any sexual experience. Sex started in my early teens; I was the guy on his knees sucking cock usually of older boys, and later in college sucking off the more masculine types. I was that go-to-guy who would eagerly suck and swallow. I was very shy around girls, so never dated. I had only been with one older man which started at 16 and continued through my first year of marriage.
Throughout our marriage we entertained men for both of us. You could call it swinging, or hot-wife, or cuckolding, whatever the label, it worked for both our sexual needs. Plus we both had a voyeuristic enjoyment seeing each other having sex. We advertised in Select Magazine for swingers as a bi couple seeking men, or as a bi couple seeking bi couples for gay / lesbian sex. Over the years my description in the ads went from bi, to very bi, to more gay then straight. Very early on it was obvious that my sexual ability with my wife increased significantly when a man was in bed with us. Since my wife loved two men, that was the primary sex we had. With a cock in my mouth I could really fuck her. Plus she was noticeably more sexually aroused being with two men.
My wife had a voyeuristic passion for watching gay sex, so we started inviting gay men over and I went from sucking cock, to doing everything with gay men, and my wife became a masturbating fiend. She loved inviting Dominant Gay men over to discipline and use me, which the more I had, the more I wanted. We also went through a period of her having just lesbian sex and me having just gay sex. Throughout the years, my wife I and were very much in love, connected emotionally, with us seeing sex as an escape from reality, living our perverted fantasy.
Looking through this post I really did not say anything about how going black. I have posted elsewhere about my first time here >>> https://xhamster.com/posts/9708698
When I met my first black man I had been with quite a few men and had a preference for men. But I still clung to the bisexual label in my head. The post I linked above tells what the sex was like. So here I would like to share my feelings about him. That night after he left all I could think about was him, his sexy black body, yes his cock deep inside of me, but with him it was more than just cock, it was his touch, the way he treated me, my attraction was way beyond cock. I wanted him more than any man ever. When he called me his faggot I knew he was right and I could finally accept who I am.
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