Real life and fantasies are confusing me

I lost my virginity to a stranger. I continued to sleep only with strangers. Now I haven't had sex in months and it's cause I want someone I actually like to experience me. Like I know a lot of girls are like this too but I feel like I get so wet and I'm tight again that someone actually worthy of it should feel the inside of me. I also kind of wish I knew how you guys felt being inside someone. Like when I touch myself and I feel how wet I am and I sometimes stick a finger or two inside to feel what it feels like...it's nice. It's warm and snug and I don't know I can imagine how good it feels for guys to actually slide their dick inside especially if it's tight. I also get the condoms thing of how it feels better off. Like if I was a guy and I was having sex, I would want to my bare dick sliding into someone. Bare feels so good so why put rubber over it? I mean besides for the obvious reasons haha. On that topic...I don't know if this is a real thing or not but I prefer sex without a condom too. I mean I've only slept with three guys and two of them it was twice but the guy I lost it to went bare inside me for my very first time and the second time I slept with him. I told him after he took my virginity I wouldn't sleep with him again unless he wore a condom and I went back and did it bare with him anyway cause I just wanted to do it again cause it felt soooo good which is weird since most girls first time is painful and not a great experience haha. But anyway, so only one guy has ever been inside with no condom and like the second guy I slept with wanted to be bare also but I said no cause I didn't like that I had sex without a condom with the first guy cause these guys were strangers so it's dangerous. They say their clean but you never really know. (I'm completely clean fyi thank god) I got tested months ago after the last time I had sex before my celibacy kick I'm on haha.

But back to what I wanted to talk about originally haha...I have these fantasies that involve strangers so I'm confused with myself. Like I fantasize about sleeping with a stranger in different scenarios (really embarrassed to say which ones) but I don't want to sleep with a stranger again. But when I think about these fantasies coming true...I'm so ready for it to happen but I also know my fantasies aren't weird or wrong (well maybe on of them is lol) but how can I want strangers so bad yet I dont want to sleep with them anymore in real life? Cause some of my fantasies include strangers but it's not a one time thing. They come back for more... I don't know what I'm asking or going with this anymore but I guess I'm really confused right now.

I figured I write here since it's been awhile haha

Hope everyone is okay:)
Published by jenniev
7 years ago
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viciou5
viciou5 7 years ago
can't fok everybody. Cause digging inside a female is PERSONAL. Gotta be WEARVY whom you do it with end of day. Fantasies are just FANTASIES #Period. Nothing more nor less, Just BE CAREFUL too much fantasies can lead into MISERY.....gotta always walk that fine line of fun and foolishness
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The167
The167 7 years ago
A pussy feels unlike a mouth or a hand or anything else. It's very warm and its always tight around my cock. It responds to my cock and how I'm moving inside and also how I'm touching her body. She is fucking too - so she can squeeze or open up as she feels it too. More than anything a pussy is beautiful because it's about being inside of her and close to her. Feeling her legs clench and hearing her breathing and moaning. My cock inside a pussy brings us so close. And it's more than just the cock. It's the whole body. Feeling her open up is something a hand or mouth can't do.

Fucking bareback is more about risk than feeling. Condoms feel fine. I just love cumming inside.
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j2damwa08
j2damwa08 7 years ago
ill have sex with u beautiful and get 2 kno u lol
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