Personal Fantasies

I love slave/master role-play, especially when I'm in the submissive position. I enjoy pain in a very sexual way. Sex is carnal, as is v******e, and for me, the lines have blurred to the point of disappearance.Usually being degraded by a man and made to fuck him, not unwillingly but reluctantly. Not out of fear or lack of desire, but usually from self-shame of my own desires. He usually teases me nastily and makes me desperate for him. Sometimes someone else is watching, someone who would be jealous of this man fucking me. Thinking of the guys I almost slept with, but didn't for whatever reason — and imagine how things could have unfolded between us differently. I'm a writer, and I also sometimes like to enter into the heads of the characters I write and imagine how the scenes I've written for them might have happened in different, hotter ways.