Moving on :New & Fresh
Ok !! it's time to button this down!We all can do better ,we are all in complete control of our future's,it's is a hard hard road to go sometimes.And at times there's no light at the end of the tunnel , for fuck sake there wasn't any when you started.All senses stunned and the sting of the pain that rocks your heart... that sounds devastating but we all go through such setbacks, broken souls and hearts .
Its a matter of how we recover to mend our hearts & heads ... for me, i drew together people whom gave me the power to heal and made and make me feel like i deserve a crack at this thing called life , without the weight of hurt ,abandonment,deceit & loss to sink me to the bottom of this sea of madness.Each day i struggle to stay afloat.
And in this battle to maintain, i pull my family(my k**s) & All my new and old dear friends closer.With this a sense of pride and understanding for another and with that... it just amazes of just how Beautiful each of our individual friendships are , and really how much you all mean to me.You guys make me feel like i am wanted , and that i matter and i do mean something.
Depression buried me under a blanket of fear , that i saw no end in sight ... i think one of my breaking points was realizing that i should never beg for anybody to come back, or my c***dren shouldn't ask of this.The acceptance of loss is a key thing in getting over and through difficult times , there was a moment where suicide was so palatable and i wanted that to kill this pain and get this person out of my head ... but that was fleeting ... as my k**s took 1st priority and the front seat to this unusual adventure in the next chapter of our lives.
Its a matter of how we recover to mend our hearts & heads ... for me, i drew together people whom gave me the power to heal and made and make me feel like i deserve a crack at this thing called life , without the weight of hurt ,abandonment,deceit & loss to sink me to the bottom of this sea of madness.Each day i struggle to stay afloat.
And in this battle to maintain, i pull my family(my k**s) & All my new and old dear friends closer.With this a sense of pride and understanding for another and with that... it just amazes of just how Beautiful each of our individual friendships are , and really how much you all mean to me.You guys make me feel like i am wanted , and that i matter and i do mean something.
Depression buried me under a blanket of fear , that i saw no end in sight ... i think one of my breaking points was realizing that i should never beg for anybody to come back, or my c***dren shouldn't ask of this.The acceptance of loss is a key thing in getting over and through difficult times , there was a moment where suicide was so palatable and i wanted that to kill this pain and get this person out of my head ... but that was fleeting ... as my k**s took 1st priority and the front seat to this unusual adventure in the next chapter of our lives.
7 years ago