I was his cloud party girl & Oh a Sissy must

It's June 2017 and I just split with the guy that was fucking me turning me into his cocksucking sissy faggot and his cloud girl. He had his fun hijacking my world at night I was just trained to be the cock loving slut party girl that he wanted me to live as. but I had stayed in the shadows off and on all my life till a year and a half ago clean of d**gs till we meet but that was his game to make me paid for everything Yes, all my life a submissive that started dressing at the age of ten. The guy could be nice and a bully and he and I had non stop sex lots of fun and fight and nightly take lots of long trips on the clouds and he did use me in ways girls like myself dream about but maybe not so used as a total cock loving bitch saying take this take that and I really liked him but didn't love him. He would say he loved me but I would say no you don't! he always said you don't trust me because you're just a faggot that's all your life is about. He was right I had been sucking cock and dressing a long time. So a Sissy must start someplace and I remember. I was very young it started way back when I saw a woman on Hollywood Blvd and she was dressed so pretty and just standing under a street light and I asked the jerk I called dad what is that lady doing and he said that's a lady that likes sex and men pay her to take off her clothes so she can service his dick. Honest to goodness's that's how I remember it. That image stays in my memory and to this day this one of sissy's fantasies. Having two sisters and lots of time alone at home I started to feel like I'm not a boy I'm a girl and using sister's things I thought were pretty looked at myself dressing and playing with my body and thingie I was such a pretty little girly girl and just had to masturbate every chance I could and not to porn but that thought that I could be that lady under that street light. I did tell my friend about what I did and he told me I was a Faggot and prove it to me someday. as the years past I had learned how to do my makeup and there was a time with that friend with his girl and another girl that I think liked me had an orgy as they called it at my moms place and the girls said to me Tracy you need to suck cock because they said You know you want to and it was the big chance for sissy so my friend said told you I could prove it sissy girl that was my first time and yes I loved it but I wished I had my dress on and it was the only thing I wanted to do from that point was to give myself to guys and have sex with men. After a few months, I bought my first car and all I could think about was to get my dress and panties a bra and heels do my makeup and get a purse for the money. I was going to make money by doing what that lady of the night did for sex. I dressed and went to that same corner of Hollywood Blvd parked my car lit a cigarette fixed my lipstick and got out of the car and walked to the street lamp and stood there. Thinking that I did it and I'm going to have sex with any man a total stranger and maybe he will k**nap me and I became his slave for sex. my panties were getting wet. It wasn't long before a car suddenly drove up to the curb It was a big Cadillac and in the car was a man he wasn't too old and he's good looking and he said Hey little girl did you want some? I looked at him and took a puff off my cigarette and said Some What? he smiled and said get in and at that moment fear ran throughout my body and I stuttered just barely able to say I don't know? he shook his head and just drove off and as quick as I could I got back in my car and left. Not long after that, I started to see others like myself standing on the east end of the boulevard that was a rundown side of town looking at night dressed driving around looking for other boys in dresses like myself I had to pull up and say wanna have fun sissy and she would get in my car. I told her my name and she said I know a place. so that was my introduction to underground tranny life. I found every time I would go out T-girls would tell me I was so pretty and such a natural we could have fun times. Good thing I had a good job so there was no reason for me to go through what the girls on the street had to do and still survive. as the sissy girl, I dressed just as I wished and would go out looking for sexy girls sissy boys to play with and sometimes I would find a sissy that had a john that would introduce me to and ask if I wanted that life but it was not for me then. so there you have a part or two of the early days of Tracy Luv and the men that I well you know did things that changed me just a bit?. Years later I've gone back to that very street corner and I have lit a cigarette and wish I did get into that Cadillac,