4 months. Yes. 4

I feel like I've taken a vow of chastity. As i sit here next to my snoring lover, i stare at him and wonder why we haven't had sex in so long. I fantasize about him all the time, but lately its been my choice. I blow him pretty regularly and it has nothing to do with a attraction, nothing to do with falling out of love...so why?

My reason is an odd one. I want to prove to myself that i can live and love and be loved in return without having sex. I was once pretty terrible about cheating becausei didn't feel pretty or sexy and lacked self esteem without a man's dick inside me. But now I'm older and i want to prove to myself that i can still feel sexy and confident, even if my significant other and i aren't fucking constantly.

Lol. I know. I'm weird.

But i thinks I've proven my point to myself. I can't wait to fuck this man tomorrow. Bet he has a huge load. I might even let him spray it all over my face, been a while since I've had a decent facial. ;)

Published by QueenieClaireBear

9 years ago

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atlfan999 9 years ago

He is lucky to have a wonderful woman as his partner. Of course, if you ever decide variety is the spice of life, then you should do what is right for you. If he really cares for you, he will not be jealous, but he will appreciate your need for more than 1 can provide. We all go through various phases of what we want and don't want (or need) sexually. Its cool you are open about it, and that will continue to serve you well!