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Sometimes things can be hard.. We all have to make a living... There is always more work to be done around the house. Errands to run. Seems there just isn't enough time in the day to do the things that provide us happiness. I imagine if we added 5 or even 10 hours we STILL wouldn't have the time we need.

Things are even worse when we connect with a person so very far away. There just does not seem to be enough time to spend together. I am sure we have all made an emotional connection with someone we met online. If you listen to the professionals they tell you that its not real.. Its fantasy... Its not healthy. I am not so sure about all that. Now I am only speaking for myself here but the relationship I have forged online are just as real to me as any others I have formed. In some very important ways an online relationship is better. I think that there has to be more trust involved. You only have a few hours that you can spend together so you try to make that time the best it can be. There is not time for the petty little arguments that people sometimes have. Why waste the time with that. When SEVERAL time zones separate people you have to make the best of things.

You hope that you are giving the other person what they need as far as support, pleasure, and intellectual stimulation. Do you really know if you are though? Is he/she really being honest with you about what they need and desire? Is the feeling that you want to hold that other person in your arms and really feel her/him for the first time a bad or wrong way to feel? God.. I sure as hell hope not. If it is... then... Well... I guess I am really screwed.

To hold her in my arms would be a true treat. We never know what the future will hold... I sincerest wish is that it will include her...