First blog
I always start these things but never continue them. I get bored easily, which is usually how I start something to begin with (because I was bored with something else). But here goes...
First topic: Acceptance
I'm a freak. A perv. A bisexual, tri-sexual nasty ass sex monkey who wants to get off and get others off - preferably at the same moment. My early years were all about conformity. Try to fit in. Be like everyone else. Don't stand out.
Therefore I repressed my bisexuality until after college (missed all those "experimenting" opportunities, dammit!). I knew that the idea of getting off with another guy really turned me on, but I'm mostly straight so it was easy to ignore that part of my sexuality as I heterosexually fucked my way through life.
But here's the catch...since I wasn't being open with myself, I couldn't be open in my relationships. This made me a shallow, superficial and largely artificial human being, and I have a long list of girlfriends who will vouch for that.
It wasn't until other parts of my life started going off the rails that I had to take a much harder and closer look at myself. I started to open up about my desires and true self. Lo and behold, my relationships - both romantic and otherwise - improved. I still keep the non-conforming parts of my being well hidden from all but those closest to me (wearing "bisexual swinger" on my sleeve would still be bad for my chosen career), but at least I can be true to myself.
And, thank whatever higher power may or may not be up there, I have a life partner who is traveling this road of discovery with me. It makes it so much easier, and I am truly fortunate. My wife is the light of my life, and we can dive into bed with a fun group of sex maniacs or spend a quiet evening watching tv at home and be equally content.
And it all started with me accepting myself just for who I am. I know I haven't had the same trials as my brothers and sisters in arms who are trying to make their way as gay, lesbian or transgendered individuals, since us bisexuals can blend in much more easily - so I don't try and claim to have shared that struggle. But I still believe that acceptance is the answer, for all of us.
First topic: Acceptance
I'm a freak. A perv. A bisexual, tri-sexual nasty ass sex monkey who wants to get off and get others off - preferably at the same moment. My early years were all about conformity. Try to fit in. Be like everyone else. Don't stand out.
Therefore I repressed my bisexuality until after college (missed all those "experimenting" opportunities, dammit!). I knew that the idea of getting off with another guy really turned me on, but I'm mostly straight so it was easy to ignore that part of my sexuality as I heterosexually fucked my way through life.
But here's the catch...since I wasn't being open with myself, I couldn't be open in my relationships. This made me a shallow, superficial and largely artificial human being, and I have a long list of girlfriends who will vouch for that.
It wasn't until other parts of my life started going off the rails that I had to take a much harder and closer look at myself. I started to open up about my desires and true self. Lo and behold, my relationships - both romantic and otherwise - improved. I still keep the non-conforming parts of my being well hidden from all but those closest to me (wearing "bisexual swinger" on my sleeve would still be bad for my chosen career), but at least I can be true to myself.
And, thank whatever higher power may or may not be up there, I have a life partner who is traveling this road of discovery with me. It makes it so much easier, and I am truly fortunate. My wife is the light of my life, and we can dive into bed with a fun group of sex maniacs or spend a quiet evening watching tv at home and be equally content.
And it all started with me accepting myself just for who I am. I know I haven't had the same trials as my brothers and sisters in arms who are trying to make their way as gay, lesbian or transgendered individuals, since us bisexuals can blend in much more easily - so I don't try and claim to have shared that struggle. But I still believe that acceptance is the answer, for all of us.
10 years ago