My ass paddled for the first time ever

I'm always watching vids of women being punished and used, they re my favorites. I decided it was time to punish myself, so I made a paddle. I'm not sure why but the time had came, I'm going to spank myself. I put my cock in a chastity cage, and put on a pair of my wife's panties. I then put on my regular clothes,I just couldn't do it yet. after a couple of drinks , I built up the courage to spank myself, I'm going to paddle my ass hard. I took my clothes off and set my cell phone to record my punishment. I leaned into to the corner and pulled my panties down. I rubbed my ass with the paddle and then took my first swat. it stung slightly and it made me move my ass a bit, but was a turn on. I was excited. the second an third swat started telling me this was going to hurt. in the beginning if this I told myself I was going to get ten swats, I took my forth swat. it hurt. my legs started to tremble and I was shaking my ass. it was stinging and burning. by the next swat I stopped counting, unfortunately . I continued beating my ass. it was truly hurting , making cry out in pain. it sucked terribly. each swat was making me move my ass, shift my legs, and readjust position. then I realized , I didn't know what number I was on. I manned up, and decided id take two more to make sure I took ten hard swats to my ass.